EP.2 no one but him.

It has yet to be a good day, week or year. I am still drowning in grief by my brothers death.... Mathew, he was a good man only two years older then me, when we were Young, we would make up nicknames for each other and do silly things. You would guess we were the ordinary brother and sister, but we were more, we were best friends nothing could separate us. We would be together forever, that took a turn tho. One that I couldn't handle, I have ran away from home. All I can say is.... my life isn't normal. As I sit on a bench I feel the rain drop down on me, my brown hair is wet so it's longer then usual, my blue eyes are puffy and full of tears my cheeks are red. And, I'm in this situation BECAUSE OF YOU. I wonder if I will be able to ever get up. You have left a hole in my heart, one that won't ever repair itself. I don't wanna move or feel. Why would u go through this?! Why did u go away Mathew?! As I say these words in my head I clench my fists so tight I might pull a muscle.