how it starts

these sort of things aren't just easily explained. there's always something to many. it's insignificant but to you it means a lot. it means so much like for instance, let's just say there was a pen laying on the ground. you're sitting down minding your own business but you just notice it. you want to know why it's there. you're only natural desire would want to be to pick it up. find its owner. give it to someone so you do. you reach for it and in doing so opens up opportunity, you're not the only one reaching for the pen. someone else says then that person is right next to you. you haven't talked to someone in a while. people typically don't try to talk to you because you give up that vibe that strongly expresses. I don't want to be spoken with but you're both reaching for the same pen. chances are it's their pen anyways and you were going to return it to them. so reaching for the pen at the same time and just ignoring it and letting it go would make things awkward. so you choose to say something you try to laugh it off and confirm if it does belong to them or not. this brings more questions into your head. who is this person? what is the story for dropping the pen? what more can I learn about them? you try to get as much information as you can. you learn the failure working in office on the same street as the pub you work for. you learn that they do a lot of data entry and that the reason for the drop pen is because they were struggling to adjust some paperwork in their bag and it fell out. the express that they've had a long day and that they can't wait to get home, which gives you the impression that their hard workers you want to learn more about them. but at the point of where you ask to hang out with them, you fail to notice that time is up. the buses stopped. they get up out of their seat and walk off. you've missed your chance. you want to call out to them in it? ask them out on a date to get to know them better but along with being in a crowded space and yelling out makes you look like a bad guy interrupting everyone else's quiet but also you don't know this person well. ask them out on a date could potentially paint you as a creep in their eyes. you don't want this so you let it go, but in a desperate attempt to not lose connection you pull out your phone and take a picture of them. that picture will be your map. later on that night you whip out the picture you took of them. you're use reverse photo search to see if you could get a profile. no profiles come up but a resembling image is pulled out on social media. not only that, but it's tagged. you now have a name and also a profile. just give me the profile. a lot of things seem to be privated specifically. they're about section. their comments are all open season now and of course you go to town on it scrolling around you don't want to friend them because that would be weird. you just met but you do want to get to know them better. in case you bump into them. you might be able to have a few coincidental conversation topics, things you could say to them that might spark a stronger interesting you for them. you spend the rest of the night doing just that the next day on the bus you spot them again. you want to say something but you don't know if it's right or not, so you say quiet. luckily for you. they spot you not having anything better to do after looking at their phone and nothing of interest seemed to spark. they strike a conversation. they ask you about how your morning is for which you can't say much about because despite having cereal for breakfast, you didn't do anything besides looking at their social media and of course saying that would definitely be a no-no you try to come up with a way to swerve the question remembering one of their post being a diner for a burger challenge you unconsciously say I've been thinking about trying a burger challenge. then you panic as you don't know if saying that might be a hint that you were stalking them on social media. but of course that being a really old post they don't think anything of it. very laugh about it a bit and then mentioned that they do know a diner they frequent. that has a really great challenge. they write down the address for you on a piece of paper they had in their bag and hand it to you. recommending the place with great confidence. you clutch the paper with both hands. this was your end is what you thought. of course to the normal person you think. oh it's just a place they go to eat but you know that's not the case. if they frequent it, that means that it's either new where they work or where they live. it's a clue. something that you are going to use later on. we place the paper in your pocket being very certain about it and then move on. the bus stops in the bell rings. it's time to get off for you and your new future friend. since both of you work near each other, you quietly walk down the street. not much exchange goes on as you walk people passing by the usual and sensitive types who bump into you causing you frustration because they can't bother to move out of your your way or at least ask you or hint at you moving out of their way because they are in a rush. no they'd rather bump into you because they know it Becks is you and since they're having a bad day that means you have to have a bad day. you ask yourself, why are there so many spike with people in the world? people who make it their job. their God didn't think duty to make things worse for others. it's not their faults that people are having a bad day and all you're doing is spreading it around making life more difficult for all parties involved. but of course you live in society and you have to put up with it but of course who cares about that now. your new future friend is walking right beside you. they're looking around at tons of ads. probably thinking of where they're going to eat for lunch. you think this is a great opportunity. they where they were but you didn't tell them about where you work. this could be another opportunity to form a connection you try to subtly bring up the conversation. you ask them if they have any lunch plans, but at least you almost. do you realize that asking if they have lunch plans? implies that you want to go on a date with them which could come off as creepy and uncomfortable on their part and you don't want that. so instead you try to dance around the topic a bit you speak of. if they brought their own lunch they say no. you then panic you have confirmed that they have lunch but you narrowly made it sound like you're trying to invite them to lunch. so now you find yourself in a bind but I've also picked their interests. you try to roll with it but make it as settle as possible that you're not hitting them. are there any places that you might be thinking about going for lunch you respond with they. try thinking about it a bit to see if there was any place on their minds. but of course you can read this because even though you lack social skills, your people reading skills have developed greatly from working in an eatery something. most people who serve food must have if they want to read when their customers are ready to check out, at least that's your boss keeps telling you more corporate BS is what you call it. you then try to settly make it sound like you're advertising your workplace to a new potential customer. you casually speak of how your workplace is great for eating and how are you? recall them working at the advertisement company on the building. that's a dress just so happens to also a line right across the street from the pub that you're currently working at. you start sarcastically bragging about some of the menu options that you have memorized as a part of your workman's ethic they do seem interested, but the fact that you're making this into a work thing makes them unsure if you're doing this to be friendly or if you're doing this to make money which puts them on the line so you settly hint at. if they drop by while you're on the clock and you managed to spot them, you'll take the table and possibly casually slip in a free dessert. those words, while could be true, you know will easily get you in trouble and you might have to pay out of your own pocket, but you're willing to do it all for the sake of your future friendship their face makes it clear that they're thinking about it, but you can tell that they're into it. they're only hesitation is that they just met you and because they just met you using you for free food doesn't sound like a fair trade, especially considering you're not friends. at least not a fishy, but your desire for that future friendship is pushing you to make it work. you want. it happen more than anything so you casually drop a few self-harming words that make it hard for them to back down. you know that these are considered social no-nos but you need this. you know you need this. if you don't have this, what will you have? you tell them that it's okay if you don't want to. I understand having a loser like me, so if you food would ruin the taste even if it is free then give you that sour face that anyone who's being pressured into doing things would give. now they feel a little bit more obligated. that is the look you seeing which is a good thing for you if they turn you down anyways. that meant that they were heartless and you wouldn't want to heartless friend who didn't even care about your feelings. they're willing to consider you and that in itself is a win. even if they don't agree to the lunch mentally you're satisfied. but soon you'll be shot over the moon because they just agreed to stop by for lunch and that all those small is your way in. although it's a doggie door, it's a way in and that's what you love