Why Can't I?
Charlotte went off into our bathroom while my brother looks at me, judging by the sounds he is making he is not happy at all. “Rhiannon, you’re going to go see him aren’t you?” He asked, I was going through my bag looking back up at my brother, “Yes, what if I am?” I asked, he scoffed, and I glared at him, “You just met the guy Rhiannon!” He snapped at me, “So? What is the difference between you and me?” I asked if this is a double standard he does this all of the time and I never grill him like this, he squinted his eyes at me, “Because we are not talking about me.” He said, “Seriously that is double standards and you bloody well know that!” I snapped at him, “I’m not the one that can get pregnant from doing this.” He said, seriously he thinks I don’t know how to be safe?
I just saw red then, “Wow, just wow! You have never seemed to care about what I did back home up in Cairns, we arrive in Brisbane, and bam you all suddenly care?” I snapped at my big brother. “Oh you know I did back then, the only difference is I’m voicing my feelings to you before you head out Rhi.” He snapped at me, waving my hands in the air at him while glaring, “No! Don’t you go using that nickname, Alex?” I begged, “How about this in keeping the peace, myself and Charlie head to the same pool too.” He offered, “What are you freaking serious? What am I bloody twelve years old again?” I cried out in shock, having never been so angry at him right now grabbing my room key, handbag, and phone and storming off towards the door, “See you later Alex.” I said over my shoulder, he looked shocked at me before it clicks in on what is happening, “Rhiannon.” He called out after me walking out of the room. Trying to calm down my breathing, it’s all over the place and a little bit already breathless this is not me, I’m not normally like this sober. I know I tell everyone I want to be carefree but deep down I’m a scared, shy little girl who needs someone to tell me I’m beautiful and they love me but then I’m scared of someone who is like that to me, so I go for the people who I know won’t do that for me, do I sound nuts I feel nuts right now.
Meanwhile back in the hotel room:
Shit, fucking hell Rhiannon! I don’t trust this guy with what he wants to do with you! Why do you not want to listen to me? I feel more uneasy as the minutes tick down, I don’t like how he grabbed her on the dance floor nor how he glared at me and dad if someone really wants to get to know her they wouldn’t want to be mean to us, it’s a sure fire way for it not to last and that scares me that means she wants a one nighter and he is ok with that. I know she followed her easy friends because it was easier to follow what they were doing than to be different. But deep down I believe she is behaving like this out of fear of her childhood illness coming back and robbing her of her future so she is making up for it, and that is not a life I want my baby sister to have. We nearly lost her once I don’t want to lose her again.
If I go after her I will come across as a creep and if I don’t and something bad happens I won’t be able to live with myself, “Come on Alex let’s go protect our girl!” Charlotte said breaking through my thoughts. I smiled at my little sister, “Charlie she is not going to like this.” I reminded her, “Who cares Alex, I want her to feel safe and be safe. I do not like the feeling I am having right now Alex, I’m hoping it’s nothing too.” Charlie said, I looked at her in shock fuck she is getting a twin feeling this is not good. We quickly made our way down to the pool area of the hotel, we cannot see her, we see a few other people but not her. “You see her?” I asked my sister, “No I do not, I don’t like this Lex.” She whispered, “Me either Lottie,” I whispered, this is not good at all, fuck Rhiannon why are you playing this bad girl card so hard?
Meanwhile back to Rhiannon:
As I walked into the pool area I spotted him right away, he noticed me too giving me a smile. “Hello again,” I said to him as I got closer, why did I just sound so breathless? “Hello, Beautifull.” He said, am I really going to be doing this? I know I like having sex who doesn’t but I have never been this quick in wanting it, am I that desperate for sex? Nathan walks closer to me, with a smirk on his face my stomach is doing backflips and I have no idea why either, as backflips like these are not good.
His hand reaches mine pulling me towards him and leaning down only stopping to look into my eyes, unsure of what he could see but he quickly kissed me, pulling away with a smile on both of our faces, it was a nice kiss I have had better. Grabbing a hold of my hand leading me to a hallway that looks not so busy and a bit dark, am I ok with this?
He picks me up, and I wrap both my legs and arms around him kissing him as he presses me against the wall, his hands roaming over my body, then he grabbed my hips tightly I cried out in pain, “What the hell Nathan?” I asked he stopped kissing me and just looked at me, “I like it rough.” He stated, “Yeah, that was too rough.” I told him thinking he was listening to my wishes, he grabs me by the throat pressing me hard into the wall, this is not right, “Ouch what the fuck! Stop! I said stop this!” I cried out trying to push him off me, I can feel his hard-on, but he is pulling at my body painfully, he glared at me, “You don’t get to say no now you little slut! You have been begging for it the moment I met you.” He cries out in pain, and I screamed out in shock. Nathan goes flying as my brother footy tackles him to the ground, Alex shoves at him while yelling, “Get the fuck off my sister, she said no and no means no! Leave before I fucken smash your fucken head in!”