Chapter 5: I Hate You

Jun knew his mission was not to fall in love with Yuna, but what can he do? He knew Yuna didn't belong to him and that's what makes him angry. He has dealt with loss and he wanted one more chance to be loved, but can he really stay away? Either way, he can't let her die.

"She's not here". Cole says out of breath from running around the house searching for Yuna that is nowhere to be found.

"What do you mean? Where is she? she wouldn't be able to run for the pain is too strong". Jun concluded.

"I thought you didn't Care". Cole said sarcastically.

" I don't, but I can't let her die". Cole was still looking around trying to find Yuna. He opens the front door to found Yuna laying on the ground pale on the snow.

" I found her". Cole said. Jun comes running out to see what could of happen to her. Painful eyes were on both males' eyes, seeing how dead and pale she was laying on the snow. "What have I done?", Jun whispers.

"Is she dead?". Jun asked. trying to get a hold of himself.

"No, she just passed out". Cole responded. Picking her up from the ground. After Cole said she was fine the boy let out a breathe, that he didn't know he was holding. But he was still in pain. How horrible he had gotten? He almost let her die.

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Yuna POV

I woke up in the same room, both of them were staring at me. I couldn't face Jun----I just--- I don't know. He clearly looks worried and I can't say he didn't care but ugh----Why do I care what he thinks?

"Yuna, you're awake you really should keep up with how much times you pass out". Cole jokes. Trying to ease the tension inside the room. I hugged him.

"Thank you. He---he almost got me. I--- I ran so fast I didn't know where I was going". I cried. Cole kept stroking my back. Trying to make me feel better.

I looked up and saw him standing by the door sadly. I could tell he was hurt and I also wanted to hug him, but I'm trying to stay away and this is a good excuse as to why I should. "I could have died out there Jun". I said still hugging Cole. He shakes his head sadly.

I hate you. His eyes got wider as he looks up at me. "I hate you" This time I said it out loud. Jun was about to respond and I could tell but he didn't,  he walked away. I didn't mean it, but I want him to hate me. If that what it takes.

"Why?",  Cole says. Pulling away from the hug.  Jun is his friend too. He can't stand people hurting his friend.

"It's the only way". Yuna says quietly. "Fine you can say whatever you want, but don't bring hate into it. Jun hates that word. I hope you know he didn't mean it,  anyway get some rest". Cole smiles.

I'm sorry.

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Meanwhile

"Cole, am I a bad person?". Jun says sitting on the couch sadly. He did know the reason Yuna hated him. If he didn't, he wouldn't have been angry. That word is so strong. Why do people use it so easily?

"Yes---yes you are".Cole joked. Of course, I would never say such a thing to Jun, and Jun knows it.   

"I almost let her die because I was angry". Jun continues. Ignoring Cole's constant giggles.           

" Yes----yes you did". Still joking around.

"She's not safe around me". Jun continued getting annoyed.

" No---no she not". Cole continues to play along.

"Dude, what side are you on?". Jun question. At this point, he didn't know if Cole was joking or making fun of him.

" Junie, its not your fault. You were just being human (in which you're not). Plus Yuna's strong she wouldn't just die. She'll forgive you. To be honest its a good thing you guys aren't getting to close. Do I still have to explain myself?". He says putting his hand on Jun's shoulders.

" I completely forgot. Tomorrow we graduate". Jun says.

" What do you know? More drama is to come ". Cole joked.

" Shut up".

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Next Day

Graduation day. I left the house early not wanting to pump into Jun, but my wishes can't always be granted.

" I'm sorry". He grabs on my arm desperately. I could see the pain in his eyes, but I have to be strong. I can't give in. I can't lose you too.

"It's okay. Jerks have to be jerks. Am I right?". I said pulling away. "The funny thing is that I thought you were jealous because you lik~ No--- I'm sorry". I said to him sadly.

"I'm sorry". He says. Is that all you have to say?

"That doesn't change the fact that you would have let me die, even if you were mad at me you could have helped ". He grabbed into me again. You're making it so hard for me to hate you right now.

"Let me go". I said walking away quickly.

" But I did help you". Jun says sadly. Walking into his car.

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The graduation went well. I was still holding back tears from what happened earlier, but I was super happy that I graduated. To be honest I thought I was going to fell this year. I spent the whole day not thinking or worrying about anything, but the dreams didn't go away so did the pain.

At Home

"Yuna glad your here".Cole says. Walking back in forth in the living room. Biting his nails in the process. What's wrong with him.

"What is it?". Putting everything down look at Cole.

"Jun won't stop drinking". Cole said worriedly. Something in his eyes  shows that it wasn't Jun first time.

"Beats me". I said sarcastically not wanting to care, but I did care. I don't know why I can't stop not caring about him.

"Please help me". Cole asked desperately. Why is he asking me this? I can't help Jun, I don't know him like you do.

"He did this before and he won't stop until---I can't---he won't let me". Why is he so hesitating? Until what exactly?

"Fine--- just for you". I awkwardly said. Not because I forgive him, because he's still someone I care about. I walked towards Jun's room taking deep breathes. I was still mad at him but I wanted to look like the bigger person.

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"What do you think you're doing Choi J Jun"? I yelled. "You don't care about your body do you?". I Hesitantly walk before him.

"Why do you care?". That piece of shit. He never listens dang. Can't he see that I'm trying to help him. Ungrateful brat.

"Who ever said I didn't?". I look away not wanting to look.

"Oh really----then why did you just speak formally to me just now, as if I was a complete stranger to you?". Jun responded. Yuna didn't say anything.

"Why do you think I'm doing this? I feel like I have lost someone with so much worth to me", he mumbled.

"Could it be---the girl you were kissing at the club?". I said sarcastically to him. I didn't even notice I didn't say his name like I used to say it.

"Whatever". He looks away. I was afraid he would try and drink more. So I watch him until he fell asleep. Cole carried him to his room and I followed. I sat next to his bed staring at him angrily.

"How could you do this to me? I was trying to protect you---from from my bad luck". I told him.

"You didn't have to protect me".  He mumbles quietly. He was awake. I quickly got up from his bed and try walking out quietly, but he pulled me back for a hug.

" Stay". He hugged me tightly as if--- as if he let me go I'll run away. I would most definitely run away.

"I'm trying to avoid you right now, remember". Pulling away from the hug I walk towards the door to leave. I didn't completely leave, I sat down beside his door and fell asleep there. When I woke up, I woke up on my bed. Jun was sleeping right next to me. I quickly got up falling off my bed.

"It's not what you think, You were sleeping next to my door when I woke up and I took you to your room, but then I fell asleep. I'm Sorry ". he informs almost like he was caught in an act.

"When are you going to stop saying sorry to me. It was my fault for Ignoring you". Wow, that was cheesy. Get yourself together.

" You can't be mad at me forever". Jun says with a smirk.

"Your right, I'll just avoid you for now". I answered. He frowns. That's what I thought.

I got up and sat on my bed. He pulled me to him and hugged me. I don't know why, but I didn't stop him from hugging me. All I care about was my pain, and thanks to him it was gone but I still don't trust him fully just yet.

" I'm sorry for ignoring you". I said still hugging him.

"I'm sorry for not saving you". He apologize.

"This doesn't mean I forgive you, but thank you for being sorry". I told him. I pulled away from him but he tightens his grip. He hugged me harder.

"Jun where are~". We heard outside the room. Has it was currently getting closer.

Oh! no Cole". I yelled. Trying to get out of the grip.

"Oh yes". he said. I pushed him away. He then got up, looks down at me and frowns. What was that about?

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Cole walks down the hallway to spot Jun walking back into his room. Thinking maybe he had talk to Yuna and now they are cool.

" Did she forgive you?" he says button up his shirt.

"No". Jun said sadly, but not as sad as he was yesterday.

" That sucks man". Cole responds knowing he can't relate to this at all.

Cole was about to ask another question when Jun suddenly falls to the ground. He looked okay---Why did he suddenly fall?

"What happened?". Cole says worriedly not knowing what's wrong with his friend. Why did he suddenly fell? It's not like Jun.

"Did you stay with her all night? ". Cole quickly asked.

"Yeah". Jun hesitate, because he knows Cole we'll get angry.

"Fuck. Why?". Cole says in frustration.

" I don't think that's it though?". Cole lifts up his head confused. " What do you mean?". Cole question. Knowing the answer.

"Well I stayed in her room before and nothing like this happened". Jun says still on the ground. Completely numb.

" Shit". Cole got up.

"I'll tell you again. She's draining the life out of you. Fuck you never listen". The doctor was now annoyed, because he know Jun won't listen to him.

" Don't tell her that". He says angrily. He didn't want to accept that she's killing him. He didn't want to believe that she's the reason his like this.

"Why? she's going to find out anyway". Cole respond.

"No---never---I love her too much to lose her plus she will blame hersel~ ugh". He whimpers out of pain.

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I walked out of my room to see Jun laying on the ground. I ran towards them. "what happened?" I questioned.

"Jun is...". Cole looks at Jun on the floor.

"He tripped and fell". Cole changed the subject.

" Your lying ". She looks at Jun reluctantly and confused. She looks at both Cole and Jun. When she clearly sees that they wouldn't say anything she burst out crying. "Liar! I'm killing him". She sobs." I'm not safe". I told him.

"I don't care". he says sadly.

Don't leave me. He blacks out.