Movies and series

Pizza for me is one of the best foods ever, it has always been one of my favourite dishes with pasta and lasagne. If I were the me of yesteryear I would also eat it for lunch, but unfortunately the me of yesteryear is no longer there and so I can already feel the guilt resurfacing and my mind is looking for an excuse not to eat it or not to eat tomorrow. It is still difficult for me to be able to eat with serenity even the pasta that I would previously have eaten for lunch and dinner.

My feelings of guilt are interrupted by my phone ringing and telling me that I have received a text message. I get up from the table and put my plate in the sink and then I go to my room. I throw myself on the bed and open WhatsApp and I see a message from Alison:

Alison: *Hey, how are you? How about you come over on Friday and we'll have a girls-only sleepover?

*All right, but this time I decide the movie* I reply.

The last time I was at her place she made me watch a horror movie and she knows how much I hate those movies, more than anything else. She knows that they make me scared and that I don't sleep. In fact, to say that I saw that film is an understatement, as I had my face splattered against the pillow and my ears plugged. I usually prefer romantic and comedy films, I also like science fiction films but not horror films. Once my brothers made me watch a movie called "The Mother" and I didn't sleep for two days or more because I was afraid that something would come out from under the bed or the wardrobe or even the wall or the ceiling.

Alison: *This is to be seen*

I smile shaking my head knowing that maybe this time she'll let me pick the movie.

I check the posts on the class group noticing that they don't know what they have to do for maths lessons and they keep sending each other memes and stickers. I roll my eyes not because they're stupid, but because none of them, especially Noah, are engaging and paying attention in class. I put my phone down and start pulling out the books for the subjects I need to study. I start by making notes of history and then continue with Italian. I already did maths at the weekend as I had nothing to do. I don't usually study everything straight away, but I find myself at the last minute even though I promise myself each time to study as I go along. I do quite well at school, I'm not a genius but not bad either. The subjects I hate the most are history, Italian and literature. I love all scientific subjects, a little less physics, which depends on the topic. I like chemistry and biology a lot, but the one I like the most (and I think it's clear) is mathematics. At school I've always been good at science subjects, I've always put a lot of effort into them, I put more effort into them than into Italian and the other subjects, but I've always had a weakness for science.

While I'm taking notes in Italian I hear someone knocking at the door.

"Come in," I say, keeping my eyes on my notebook.

"Hey, George and I are seeing The Flash. . . Do you have much longer?"

"Actually yes, but you guys go ahead, I'll watch it later on my own" I tell Josh, smiling at him.

My brothers and I have many things in common and TV series is one of them. We've watched a lot of series together and a lot of movies too. The Flash is one of my favourite shows because it's all about science fiction and Grant Gustin is so cool. Of course, understanding what he says and all the scientific and physical theories is complicated but I like it as a series. Some people say it's repetitive but I don't think so and they say that because they've never seen it properly. Another series that we watched together, although I practically forced them to, is Teen Wolf. This is also a supernatural series about teenagers who turn into werewolves. They didn't want to watch it but in the end the television was always occupied by me and they watched it with me. For my birthday they gave me a computer so now if I want to watch a series that they might not like, I use that.

I close my books and pack my backpack when I finish my homework and pick up the phone and I look at the time. It's half past seven and the group is still sending stickers. There were 100 messages before, but now there are 500 and I wonder how it is possible to write so much. I am the typical girl who reads but she doesn't comment. I am like a ghost and I prefer to remain a ghost.

I am very shy and those, who know me well, know that. I am reserved and I like to be alone sometimes. I listen to music practically all the time and more when I am sad. Music allows me to travel with my mind and feel better. I mostly like sad music, songs about a love that ended badly or well. I rarely listen to happy, upbeat music, but when I do, I'm really happy and there are very few happy moments in my life. My favourite singers are Ed Sheeran, Harry Styles and I used to listen to Shawn Mendes, but lately I'm not listening to him anymore and I don't know why. I recently discovered a band called Five Seconds Of Summer (5sos) and I have to say that they are really good and I like them a lot. I also listen to Italian and Spanish music.

So you could say that music helps me escape from the real world around me which is not as I would like it to be. My life is quite simple and monotonous and I don't have anything special. The only thing I am proud of are my friends and family, or rather, some members of my family.