142 Weekend at base

God damn it, I'm dying for this to be over already. It took more than 2 months, but I'm sick and tired of this thing. 

I haven't been in my actual home for 2 months. I don't know if it's even standing...

My twin finally received a day at home, and I can't go with him. He's going to some high-end restaurant, he deserves it.

I think I'm starting to develop a complex. Like if you're talking objectively, what I'm doing is more important then what a normal field soldier does. But now I can't help but feel inferior. They are over there risking their lives, and I'm typing away at a computer. Honestly I kinda idolize my twin right now.

I'm trying to keep a good mindset, but it's a bit more difficult now. I was drowning in work at the start, but now I have less to do. It makes me question myself a bit.

On the upside, we're receiving some nice donations. Right now some guys volunteered to grill meat for the whole base. It smells really good not gonna lie. 

But honestly, what passes me the most is that this damn war demands us to legitimate our attack against a fucking terror organization that on one hand braggs on every kill it gets, and on the other plays the victim card. Fuck, I hate that people actually take it's side.

The whole "River to the sea" is such bullshit. People call us colonizers when we've been here before they have! It baffles me how people are so ignorant. And the fact that a lot of them are ivy league students is so ironic.

Well, I'm done with this update. How are all of you?