Chapter 127: Seon-Ho

And so we were here; looking back at all our memories with her underneath me now in her bed only made me angrier. And I made sure she felt it; I wanted her to feel every emotion I had felt since she did what she did. And she did; she was overwhelmed with both pain and pleasure underneath me but I wouldn't let her move an inch until I was finished. The things this girl did the minute I left; what did she expect from me? She had taken advantage of my trust in her, she was doing reckless things like we weren't all granted one life in this miserable lifetime...I almost lost her a few times from what I heard. She was holding onto me but she was crying and wouldn't look at me. I grabbed her face with one hand and pinned her arms above her head with the other so she would have no support; I still wouldn't let her move either. I was sad at what I was doing no doubt but this was the only way I knew how to keep her around by my side. We both knew from the first time we did this that I made myself clear that I wasn't going to let her go and I would go to any lengths to keep that promise.

When we finally finished I pulled her on top of my chest and held her arms down so she couldn't move. I had planned to get my answers after I made her remember our most intimate times so she would think twice before disappearing again. "You know what I'm here for right?" I smiled crudely at her, not taking my eyes off of her body which I had for myself again. She knew what I was thinking and tried to fight me off but I just sat up and held her arms together in a bear bug and held her from behind. "How...how much do you know" she asked weakly, still in some pain. It hurt me as much as it hurt her when I was like this, but I didn't want her to see it for now. "Who do you think stole your notes? And tore your room apart? And even got you this home?" I snarled in return as she was still trying to wrestle from my grip. I had to sit her up in my lap again, arms around her waist as I buried myself in her neck, biting her to make her stop trying to get away from me. "How dare you...how dare you risk your damned life? Do you really think you're so invincible?" "You know! You know why I went ahead with it! You knew how much I despite the palace! I hate you and my brother working there! Everyday I feel my father's presence in every room, every corridor...even in the prison's! I'm suffocating so much my lungs hurt in that place but...but after everything my brother has been through I couldn't...I couldn't risk loosing him again. I couldn't take it if something happened to you both!" She was choking on her own tears and suddenly some of my anger had dissipated already. Deep down I knew...Hwi was her father's pride and joy but Yeon was the closest one to her, who understood her the most, who trained her and love her the most in spite of her rare intellect. I sighed as I held her close to me; the way she clung onto me was that she was holding on for me to return. The minute she touched me she completely fell apart in my embrace as I held onto her, my mind already spinning with a new plan.

This war undoubtedly changed me; due to how absurd it was. I was so angry at Yeonnie for so long; I could barely sleep at night thinking about the endless challenges she faced in her old work places, in her own private life inside and outside of my father's mansion...she even faced torture willingly head on like she had 100 lives...although after she was faced with public epilepsy fits for years I guess she had lost her fear a long time ago. But when I heard from Hwi about her being poisoned with epilepsy...and her mother who she didn't let anyone talk about not even her own mother, being poisoned to death by the relative of the women who had harassed Yeon for years now...I lost myself in darkness long before I arrived. I had a plan...a plan that she would most likely hate me for...I already put in all the work before I knew about the last 2 details just to teach her a lesson about risking her life that didn't even belong to her anymore...her life belonged to me and she had no right to play with it like it was a damned game.

I pulled her up violently into my arms "I will always protected you no matter what you know that. Even with my life" She had tears in her eyes when I sad this but she tried to embrace me to calm me down, which usually worked "I could never let that happen and you know it! You and my brother have been through enough already, why can't you just rest!"I just seethed in silence; of course, the Seo's were looking out for each other and I never stopped looking out for them either, even after all that had transpired. But the thought of Yeon out of my sight was enough to send me over the edge. And the fact that she thought she could set me up with her last trick; I was going to make sure she would regret it. Clearly, she wasn't taking me seriously at all. But it looked like I had to talk to Hwi after all, a lot sooner than planned, despite her over-protectiveness of us both.

Someone tapped at her window, calling for her last minute for work. I let her get up off the floor to go to work. But before she left I grabbed her arm tightly; I told her to serve me the food she had made and to come straight back after she had completed her tasks.

She tried to reach out to me all night before asked me to explain why I had changed after the war, but I wasn't having any of it. I had her servants bring in boxes of her things that I had damaged in her accommodation in the palace with a stoic look on my face. Her eyes widened before she came to me and wrapped her hands around my wait from behind me. Our emotions were running high and we were both at a loss for words for each other at the moment but she kept trying to cling onto me like a child. She looked broken and I couldn't ignore it no mater how hard I tried; so I found my chance amongst everything I was going through. This time, I was going to make her cable to breathe without me at all. I would become the oxygen she gave to me and see how she could carry out her plan all on her own without my help. My unusual silence was scaring her so she kept on asking me what she could possibly do to make it up to me. I asked her the obvious question; if she could hand over her revenge to me. She flat-out refused and tried to walk away, but I caught her by her arm and pushed her onto the floor. We both knew that she couldn't deny any more of my requests so I got on top of her again and I demanded that she gave me a family. She was caught in my trap and she knew it; getting her pregnant not only fulfilled my goal but it would prevent her from her investigation temporarily. I smirked before she could reply as I picked her up in my arms and dragged her to her bedroom.