Connections beyond magic

Then he stopped kissing, pulling away as he got serious "Yeah yet what if I never seen or treated you as a lover? Just someone to vent these new emotions I never had before?" Anastasia can see a traumatized person (emotionally and mentally) as she hugs me "that's alright, that's why I consider us platonic soulmates….You did reciprocate my feelings because you don't want to harm my feelings and if you ready tell me all about what sort of person Equinox truly is that broke you so much.."

Astra hesitated for a moment before nodding. He knew it was time to open up about his past and the pain he had been carrying for so long. With Anastasia's support, he began to share the story of Equinox and how she had shaped him into the person he was today. As he spoke, he felt a weight lifting from his shoulders, grateful for having someone who cared enough to listen and understand.

It was a flashback once Astra was at the age of 12 he got his first nocturnal emission. Or liberty moment to know he has grown for a bit innocently yet already halfway brainwashed as he asks slightly apathetic yet loyal to Estella to her bed chamber of clueless questions of what he just had in his sleep.

Astra, at the age of 12, was still a child in many ways, but his training and loyalty to Estella had already instilled a sense of devotion and obedience in him. He found himself in front of Estella's bedchamber, his voice filled with curiosity and a hint of innocence as he asked, "Estella, I had something happen to my body last night. Hatter, the Prime Entertainer, called it 'Puberty.' Can you explain what it is?"

Estella, who was sitting gracefully in her chamber, looked at Astra with a mixture of amusement and tenderness. She understood the significance of this moment in his life, a transition from childhood to adolescence. She spoke gently, "Ah, Astra, you've reached an age where your body undergoes certain changes. Puberty is the stage of development where you'll grow and mature physically. It's a natural part of life, and it's a time when you'll experience various transformations."

Astra listened attentively, his eyes wide with curiosity. Estella continued, "You'll notice changes in your voice, and your body will start to grow. These are the signs that you're becoming an adult. It's all part of growing up, and it's different for everyone."

Astra nodded, absorbing the information, and then hesitated before asking, "Is there anything else I should know, Estella?"

Estella smiled, appreciating his eagerness to learn. "Well, it's also a time when you'll start to feel different emotions. You might find yourself more attracted to others, and that's entirely natural too. It's a period of self-discovery and learning about yourself. Just remember, Astra, you're not alone in going through this; it happens to everyone."

Astra nodded, a bit overwhelmed by the complexity of it all. Estella could see the mix of curiosity, confusion, and loyalty in his young eyes. She reached out and gently patted his head, saying, "Don't worry, Astra. I'm here to guide and support you through these changes. If you ever have more questions or need someone to talk to, I'm here for you."

Astra's heart swelled with gratitude and affection for his mentor, Estella, who had not only taught him the ways of a Shadow Knight but was now helping him navigate the path to adulthood. This moment marked the beginning of his journey into a new phase of life, one that would bring both challenges and growth.

Then suddenly he felt an odd sensation as he bashfully look away "Ahh Your eminence Estella..ahh..lam feeling warm inside and weird to just realize-" Estella smirked maliciously as she kept her facade "Dear child „Tsk tsk... maybe using the bed'a blankets as a cover yet I can tell your reacting to my figure? Do you want me to teach you how to ease and satisfy the growing desire of your body?" Astra gulps as he spoke innocently "Please help me.." Estella embraced his transition a bit of time progressed..

12-year-old Astra is still in shock, sweating as he leans over Estella, who is in sleeping robes. She asks, "How do you feel now? Better?"

Many subtle details couldn't be explicitly mentioned, hinting at how Estella's influence unknowingly encouraged these strange budding feelings within Astra despite their significant age gap.

The story then transitions to the present, with Anastasia gasping in disbelief. She asks, "Wait, she did that during your childhood? I know you've mentioned she's not what she seems, but really, Astra?" Astra nods and replies, "Yes, she did. Since then, I've struggled to understand the difference between genuine feelings and desires that were orchestrated for me." Anastasia responds, "I'm sorry for being so curious."

Anastasia's tears flowed, and Astra felt a mix of emotions, not knowing how to comfort her. He awkwardly hugged her in return as Anastasia asked a heartbreaking question, "No, Astra, when we kissed and when you wanted me to explore your feelings, did I unknowingly reopen old wounds and remind you of her? Has my love for you made it worse?"

Astra took a deep breath and replied, "No, Anastasia, it's not your fault. Your love has helped me heal, not worsened things. I want to move forward with you, leaving the past behind."

Astra blushed and continued, "Plus, you made me realize Estella took advantage of my young self, yet..." He hesitated, tears welling up, "Since I'm not actually a virgin, technically, or had that experience despite being manipulated for it the first time, and my first kiss taken by Estella... would you still love someone like me?"

Anastasia wiped away her tears and looked into his eyes, "Astra, your past doesn't define you. I love you for who you are now, and I'll stand by you no matter what. We can move forward together."

And she spoke "and when your body and self feel ready please tell me and thanks for sharing such a dark and traumatizing childhood did she do it more than just when you turned 12?"

Astra nodded, feeling a sense of relief. "Thank you for understanding. And yes, she did it more than just that one time. She continued manipulating me for years. But I'm determined to move past that and create a better future for myself and us."

Astra spoke "She May tainted my body, soul, and mind yet thanks to you …I realize.." felt an internal warmth in his body "I am having genuine feelings for you so anyway…I think we can stop ou hug now.." he felt guilty his body is excited for her to get close

Anastasia smiled and gently pulled away from the hug, though she maintained a warm and affectionate look in her eyes. "Astra, your feelings are genuine, and I feel the same way. We can take this one step at a time, and I'm here for you, always."

Then she tease a lighthearted awkwardness "Still I can tell your body is attracted to me very much..your face and body language say so umm.." Astra spoke hesitantly "Don't leave me too no…Are you scared? Nervous? Maybe we can try this tonight? I shall use some safety measures.

Anastasia blushed and nodded, her voice soft and filled with affection. "I'm not scared, Astra. And yes, I'm willing to try this with you tonight. We'll be cautious and make sure it's a positive experience for both of us."

Then she locks the door and windows for privacy "Guess despite the trauma you are aware to not easily be excited seeing a woman's body right?"

Astra nodded with a gentle smile. "Yes, Anastasia, it's not just about the body; it's about connection, trust, and emotions. I want this to be special, not just physical."

And he gulps "Yet I am worried if I manipulated..used hour or get aggressive due to this tempting feelings I cannot help it anymore.."

Anastasia reassured him, "Astra, we can take it slow and stop at any moment if you're uncomfortable. This is about us, not just satisfying desires. We're in control, and we can trust each other."

Then Astra undresses his shirt the most emotive he has been "Hey, You saw my battle scars on this body last time right, and felt shy peeking? Well, what about now?"

Anastasia looked at him with a mix of curiosity and affection, tracing her fingers gently over his battle scars. She whispered, "Your scars tell a story, Astra. They show your strength and determination. They don't make you any less beautiful."

Astra spoke as he gaze at her and use his hand to make her chin up to her face "Really you think that?" She nods , then she slowly undresses and it's just her bra and long skirt for she spoke "Still, how about me..since you never felt such intense attraction before..what convinces you the feelings are genuine?"

Astra looked at her with sincerity in his eyes, "I've never felt this way before, Anastasia. It's a mixture of emotions, desire, and something more. When I'm with you, I feel alive and complete. It's not just physical attraction; it's a connection that goes beyond the surface. You make me question my past, my doubts, and my purpose. That's how I know these feelings are genuine."

Then he blush as he hugs her near his bedroom that Anastasia left open for him to use in the Inn for she spoke "Woah so you really feel that way despite you just rented in my Inn and well I did got curious that the twist you are the one that slain Estella…..or rather let a new ruler that is better I I mean we'll.." lean chest on his as she uttered "I mean Astra well…You brought something bizarre and worth living for"

Astra smiled and held her close, "Anastasia, you've brought light into my life, and I can't thank you enough for it. I don't know what the future holds, but I'm glad we met. Let's face it together, whatever challenges come our way."'

As Astra and Anastasia shared a deep, loving kiss, they felt the warmth of their bodies and the genuine connection they had built. In each other's arms, they found comfort and solace, knowing that they could face whatever challenges lay ahead together.

Then Anastasia spoke "I think just having this intimacy is fine right? You are not ready and it's too early and well…in your analytical sense since you are so good when you are doing assassination and spy role as the shadow knight or secret Faction Knight before being free.."

Astra nodded in agreement, appreciating Anastasia's understanding. He replied, "You're right. I want this to be meaningful, not rushed. I don't want to make any mistakes because I care about you deeply. We can take things at our own pace." They shared another tender kiss, savoring the warmth of their newfound affection.

Then he caressed her Auburn hair and Sunset eyes for he adored her deeply before letting go to lie down on the bed together and she kissed his chest as he squeaked a bit "Hey I think after being numb to touch due to my inhibitors I think I am having wayyy too many sensations"

Anastasia giggled softly and whispered, "Well, I'm here to help you explore those sensations, Astra. Just take things at your own pace, and we'll enjoy this journey together." They continued to lie together, savoring the warmth and intimacy of the moment.

His pants are still on as her long skirt is yet she giggles at his modesty as she plays to kiss his chest and neck she utters "right you said thanks to training and strengthening your Ecto-mana Astra….all 5 senses got hypersensitive so you wear special inhibitors that help in adjusting a balance yet also…..you're not wearing them?" Astra chuckles as he caresses to touch her hair, her back and a bit of her chest "umm well not exactly…I still wear at least the one for my sensitive ears and eyes, same for taste yet for smell nothing to nullify it, and for my touch well…it just no inhibitors on this torso specifically.."

Anastasia smiled, feeling his gentle caresses, and whispered, "I see. Well, it's quite an experience, isn't it? To feel everything so vividly. But don't worry, we can take things as slow as you need, and I'll be here to explore this new world of sensations with you." They continued to share these intimate moments, growing closer and more comfortable with each other.

Then Astra sighs "Anyways, I think that enough sooner or later your kisses and touch May overexcite my body…I mean I don't dislike it yet I did just recover from something that worries you.."

Anastasia nodded understandingly. "Of course, Astra. We can take it easy and not rush into things. Your well-being is the top priority, and I'm here to support you, no matter what." They continued to relax together, enjoying the closeness without pushing any boundaries.

Then she stop her cuddles and kisses for she wear her shirt again , noticing Astra yawning due to relaxation and he kept himself shirtless..she can tell he has abs and such muscular built yet lean to fit his young frame "Hehe , sweet dreams..Unlike that person that caused you such lingering vengeance , trauma and regret I shall be the one that may help heal you bit by bit…."

Astra smiled softly, still feeling the warmth of their intimate moments. "Thank you, Anastasia. I'll try to have sweet dreams, knowing you're here with me." With that, he drifted off to sleep, his mind a bit more at ease, knowing he had someone by his side who cared for him.

She giggled as she yawned and snuggled close with the sweet night, afar Cheshie frowned as she was assigned to scout back while Clifford and Finn were busy back in hide out..: thinking how she express her love or maybe if she worked hard she can also be worthy of his attention.

Cheshie continued her scout with a determined look in her eyes, knowing that she wanted to prove her worth and earn Astra's attention and respect. As she navigated through the night, she thought about the challenges and opportunities that lay ahead in her quest to be a valuable member of Shadow's Resurgence.