MY YANG
This story is about the Alexander's siblings. Dwayne Alexander's POV Can you just give us another chance please " I pleaded no!' you don't love me enough " she sobs kerry , I do love you " I said in a trembling voice ,how can she thinks I don't. no!' you don't as everytime something comes up you always give up on us " kerry sobs it's true, I hate to admit, I did give up everytime but I wanna make it work now. and I do anything to make her forgive me ... ______ As the night falls and the rain begins to fall Just like the first time they met, in Kim's heart it was romantic. But in her mind it was tragic as whatever falls gets broken. A young man who is in his early twenties and a young lady who is in her teens , stood face to face in the rain looking at each other silently–suddenly, someone broke the silence Yang, i have nothing to say to you .. goodnight and goodbye, " said the young lady in a tired and hurt voice as she called the guy by the nickname she gave him before she even knew his real name, Then she walked away ,but the young man held her hands and pulled her back and said while looking at her eyes . No, we are not done talking, and you're not allowed to walk away without answering me !! , " He said, then add . And I'll ask you again ?”..Why did you go when I asked you to stay ?” .Why do you always run away from me ?” What is wrong, Kim ?”, " the young man asks, annoyed She young lady look look at him with a pain expression on her face even tho her lips had a smile on it and even tho the rain was falling on could still see her eyes were looking as if it would soon begin to flow like the rain She then said with a smirked Do you really not know?” ,Did you ever not know ?? the young man nodded his head The young lady finally had enough as it had been 8 months and decided to confess. Yang , I love you, ever since i first saw you and i can't–do this anymore I have been doing it long before..hoping you would be mine one day, but it never works out Pretending to be your friend it's not easy but I try and I try to forget my feelings and live with you but I guess maybe I should have learned to live without you.” She said then sighed inwardly knowing that it was a bad idea to tell him I did live without you for those few months but then there you go again .. you made things a lot harder when you came back and we became friends and now you're going again Yang, I had enough. You can't keep going and coming out of my life like that. The young man was shocked by the sudden confessions and said nothing like he was in another world . Kimanda looked at him for a while , and when he didn't say anything, she asked , " Can i atless kiss you ?? , without waiting for his reply, she walk up to him with all the courage she had and their lips met It was so sudden that even before Yang could come out of his shock ,then comes another one Kimanda suck and nibbled his lower lips as she had always wanted too as she knew this might be the first and the last time she ever got the chance to , so she took her time even though she wanted more she let go of his lips and looked into his shocked eyes. ----- VOl1 = That stranger that became my everything from nothing, Kim Alexander is a young girl who lost her sister , her best friend,her comfort zone , her idol , her advisor, her protector. Lost in grief, she lost hope , she had lost her world., dream and hopes when lovie lost her life , her friends betrayed her. In two years nothing but fear grows in her heart , she gets distant to her family and everyone she once loved. She don't wanna have that pain of losing someone else and she realizes that everyone who comes will leave eventually. At the age of 13 she falls in love with a stranger who is much older than her , fear crumpled in her heart but still it beats for him. Despite the fear , she went ahead and loved him wholeheartedly . She did secretly for months until she told him but he left anyways
WANT TO BE LIKE THE SUN
The stars and moon shine a bright light onto Dwayne, who lays in his hammock, looking kerry notebook just after reading it. As her words repeat in his head .
"It was a busy day , I think it's one of the days I will forever hate , Wayne and I got into a fight and we argued about little things that ,means nothing to me, but it's one way to make him give up , I need him to give up , the singhs family is coming soon...."
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MY DOUBTS
"Sometimes, I wonder if he actually loves me
But when he says it , all my doubts seems to fade and he does it often like he knows my douths but he is there to remind me again that it's real .. he loves me ,it makes my heart flattered, I love him too...
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"Growing up , I had it all but I never had him until I did and I don't want to let go but mom said. I should ..i should give him on him , I should sacrifice it for my family business, she never care about me i know as over ans over again she makes me sacrifice everything i love and i did , i give up everything I ever loved for my family and their business. But for Dwayne, i don't think i can ...
My prince**
"It felt like going into a war , knowing your life us at risk but you have your gold and you know what you want but you don't know if you will make it out when the war is over , you don't know if you will lose the battle , you don't know if you will make it back home ,it's a scary feelings but I'm willing to fight for Dwyane, he haven't given me a reason to give up on him ... at first . But later he gives me many reasons too but one little word is enough to make me forget it all..I love him, I don't think I ever love anything so much, he is my dream come through, he gives me hope that fair tales are real and I have found my prince.
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We fought again today, it got worst , I heard rumors of Sherry and him , lord knows it fucking hurt ... I didn't tell him though, it trust him, if it was true he would have told me , won't he ?".. If he don't say a word about it then it's not true , I will forget it. I won't question about it..
Later on i ignore his calls , maybe a part of him believes the rumors, and maybe if i don't answer the phone , he won't have a chance to say it.
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You know, as a kid , when you close your eyes and block your ears with your palm , you can pretend it all doesn't exist and you believe it, you would feel like they can't see , I wish I still belive it , i wish he couldn't see my tears, I wish I couldn't hear his words.
It's over , it's over, " repeated in my head
Sticks and stone will break my bones, but words will break my confidence, words will break my trust , i never believe that as much as I do now as Dwayne words did,
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I hate Dwayne Alex-Fucking-xander. Maybe I should have knocked him in his head with an iron,
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Layed here on my bed , my whole world seems to stop , I woke up this morning and looked around , the birds still fly, my heart still beats , I still breath , and everything just continues but me , for now , I know it , life goes on so is my heart but my mind is stuck with the time when I cuddle Dwayne to sleep , when I woke up with a buzz from my phone with a message from him , his flirts that makes me blush , his words that plays like a melody to my ears and I miss the feelings of his lips that paints my skin , though he never goes all the way but it wasn't about sex, and that me realized he loves me for me , well he did loves me but not anymore , I wish I hear his voice when he would tell me it was just a bad dream. I miss when he danced for me , when he sang, when he teased me , when he played around , when he studied, even when he is doing nothing
I miss the way he would make me laugh, I miss the way he would wipe my tears when I cried, I miss him ...."
Dwayne close his eyes as he breath deeply.
He works the entire day , from morning onto noon to keep himself busy from the thoughts that lingers in his mind but on a lonely night like this , he couldn't stop himself from going into her notebook, he couldn't stop himself from reading, while reading he heard her voice clearly, he picture the way she would look while writing it , just reading her words , brought her images, her voice , everything back to his mind completely.
Dwayne are you coming with us ?" He hear Jordan voice .
No" he answered, despite his attempts to go , one thought about the last time they were out together, comes back to his mind.
He won't want that to happen again will he?"
Why?" there are some chicks that wants to met you "
Jordan the last time we went out together, you almost got us beaten up " Dwayne said irritated
I promise this time i won't fight " Jordan said as he really wants Dwayne to go with them .
Is he coming ?" Kevin question as he join them .
Jordan signals kevin to try talking to Dwayne.
Dwayne there is a bunch of girls that are interested in you and here you are sulking over one girl" Kevin said irritated.
Brother , if you only say as much as I know what is on your mind , I'll call up sister in-law to tell her of our schedule tonight, am sure she will love to know what her beloved is doing " Dwayne said with a devilishly smirked. And kevin put his hands up in defense as he know Ava would definitely leave him as she told him so before and she is a woman of her words.
But Jordan didn't give up, eventually he got Dwayne to go out with them ...as it was weekend they didn't have to think about the next day and hangovers.
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No, D" it's a guy, he is Chinese and he has black hair and adorable black eyes " kim said
Oh , a guy friend , huh ?" Deepak asked as he scowls , he didn't like the thoughts of kim having a guy friend.
So tell me more about this new friend of your's" he said jealousy lingers in his voice but it goes unknow to innocent kimanda..
He is great , he is teaching me to paint and i asks him to be friends and he agrees.
Mm.."
He also loves music , painting, reading, we have that alot common, so we would get along well .
Mm.."
What about us " Deepak question in curiosity and jealousy.
We have a lot of things in common too." Kim replied smiling happily.
Like what ?" Deepak asked in a wispher as he lends against the wall.
Eh..like..." kim couldn't find the words , her mind was so corrupt by An Tang that she forgot Deepak.
Deepak sighed heavily as he close his eyes before saying .
Black. We both love it , we kept our distance from outside even family sometimes " he says and paused. " we rather stay home, we don't have much friends by choice ... we hate fights, arguments, we talks alot when we're nervous, but do different things, for example - you would bite for your nail or lips , while I would - shake my foot and dige my skin with my nails . We love night , moon and stars more then day ...for the same reasons.. we are often scared " Deepak said and kim nod it's true. .
We offen blame ourselves, we are insecure and arrogant...."
Hey !' am not !" Kim snap at him smiling. Deepak shake his head chuckling before saying " Yes , you are .."
No , you're lying " kim said giggling.
Whatever you say " Deepak give up and sighed again before adding.
If we ever get married we could want a big house , where we can take all our family's, so we don't have to be apart from them.." Deepak said as he remembered their old conversation and promises and everything they planned.
On the other side , kim did too , she close her eyes and recall when she thought that she could live a life with Deepak and everything they made up together .
We would have 4 kids
The first girl would name - lovie
The first boy would name- Sharma
The second girl would name - Natasha
The second boy will name - well... we're yet to decide on that " Deepak said and kim stayed silent with a blank face, no one could tell what she was thinking. Until she said.
It could have been " Yang " meaning :Ocean; Light: Sun , it's what I wanted , I love the darkness .. alot but lately, I watch the sunset, the sunrise and it felt like a different me , I like it and I do it again every evening, even taken pictures of it but most of all I love the sunset, the colors change often , it makes me wanna change too , the sunset often looks like a masterpiece and I want to paint it, I want to hold it .most of all I want to be like it , I want to make it through it each day , I want to shine , I want to be happy even when the rain fall and I shed tears , I want to be happy even if am alone , i don't want to be like the moon and I don't need the stars there for me always, I just need me .." kim said with a deep sighed...