Sometimes I wake up in the morning and wish I wasn't alone
That everything that's happened to me wasn't a reality
That everything around me was a dream encased in a shadow of illusion
Other times I wake up and am full of dread at my reality
So when I get up and look in the mirror, I cringe at what I see in return
SO, so many cuts are engraved in my skin
Or, at least it seems that way.
Only when I realize that they're fake, that I make it a reality
Because I can't resist the possibility of control.
The long awaited wish to have a destiny of my own fulfilled,
The long dead corpse inside me revived every time I pick up that cold piece of thin, sharp steel.
That pain, incredibly euphoric and irresistible.
That euphoria became the basic requirement of my daily routine, and I slowly realized that I wasn't okay.
Yet I continue on, riddling my body with physical scars to erase the psychological ones, sometimes when I get up in the morning.
- A.E.R.