chapter Twenty eight

I woke up the next morning with lucifer in my arms I had my hand on his rock hard chest his orbs wide open as he was deep in thought

I hated the fact i couldn't feel the electricity that once charged when we touched I couldn't feel the pleasure I once felt for him I couldn't feel his warm skin for i was numbed by the pain and loss of my wolf and unborn child

"Morning love " he said breaking out of the trance he had being in

"Morning " I pushed his hand out of my was and woke up from the bed walking over to the bathroom and washing my face before grabbing my hair in an untidy bun I had heard lucifer sigh when I pushed him away he tried so hard to help me but like everyone else he couldn't I just had to face the fact I had being broken physically and mentally

I stared in the mirror looking at the tears rolling down my face as lucifer came from behind and hugged my waist planting kisses on my neck

I grabbed onto the back of his neck closing my eyes wishing I could feel his warm lips on my skin

"I... Can't ... Feel ... You " he stopped and looked into the mirror with me he gripped onto my waist tighter as he whispered lowly but dangerously into my ear

"You don't have to not right now you don't but in time you will baby girl " I closed my eyes once again tears rolling down my cheeks I couldn't even feel them the only thing I could feel was the pain inside of me the longing I had for ending my life but it was lucifer he had kept me alive I lived the next miserable day just to see his face his voice his body his dangerous demonor that intrigued my broken soul

"Sarah " he said whispering into my ear

"Yeah?" I answered feeling the pain inside of not being able to acknowledge his presence

"I'm taking you somewhere ... Your'll love it I promise " I smiled trying to hide the war going on in my head

"As long as your there I'll love it " he smiled and kissed my neck before bitting my earlobe

"Shower and get dressed I'll pick you up in about 2 hours time " I nodded as he hopped into the shower I walked out the room to see a golden platter placed on my bedside filled with berries and yoghurt I smiled at him remember they are my comfort treat

I ate silently when my eyes landed on a dagger placed on our dresser something in me hated the fact I considered it but something deep down forced me towards the object I slowly got out of bed and walked to the dresser where the dagger was placed I touched the handle with my index finger feeling the cold material made out of gold under my finger my heart ached but it felt so right I needed to end this misery I needed to let lucifer free I couldn't let Marco suffer i was being a coward

I looked at the bathroom door as I heard the shower still on I grabbed the danger and drove it into my stomach feeling the pain inside explode the heat of the silver burning me inside my eyes welled up with tears as my body heated from the pain blood mixed with my salvia as it dripped out of my mouth I felt my heart stop I felt my body limb as I fell to the cold floor dagger still in me with my blooded hand on the handle

My eyes closed and just like that my world stopped everything went black I no longer felt pain but peace

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Lucifer POV:

I stood in the shower my mind wasn't with me ever since I had gotten in I couldn't help but feel helpless

After i had gotten out I wiped myself and brushed my teeth I walked out of the bathroom and into our bedroom to get the smell of blood and death

Fear rose up in me I looked at the gruesome scene my legs went limb as I fell to the ground on my knees tears rolled down my face as my mate the love of my life laid there lifeless her body pale from the amount of blood she had lost her eyes closed as if she had being sleeping but only this time she wasn't going to wake up

I rushed to her my body limb I grabbed onto her body and shook it

"SARAH!please god no Sarah please wake up please we can't get through this baby girl please !" But she didn't answer her beautiful voice trapped by death

"SARAH!"I yelled unable to hold back Seth ran into my room looking at the scene he clasped his hands over his mouth Lilly ran in after her eyes filled with tears

Marco was in more pain only this time his pain filled with rage he was determined to never let me love and I was determined to never let him love

Her body cold and lifeless in my arms I carried her out of the room and ran as fast as I could to the pack hospital

"Get her up now!" I yelled grabbing the doctor by the collar he only shook his head

"Alpha I had checked her pulse twice she's gone " I closed my eyes tears rolling down my cheeks Seth put a hand from behind of me on my shoulder

I pushed it off and turned around my body transforming into Marco

I rushed out of the hospital where she laid I couldn't bare to see her like that I was helpless I couldn't help her she had helped me she had made me love but I couldn't help her with her war i couldn't join in and take her pain away from her I ran around for what felt like hours the moon was setting and to my surprising it was a full moon I rushed to the end of the cliff and howled at the moongoddess I would never love another I will never mate with another but there's one thing for sure I would love Sarah Lewis with all of my heart when she had taken her last breath on that floor she had taken my heart with her I am the mafia king the mafia mate to Sarah Lewis and it shall stay that way till the day I take in my last breath and meet my loved one

No matter what I shall return to her even if it's in the after life I shall find Sarah sacraficing myself but not after killing who ever ruined my life from the very beginning!

THE END

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Im serious this time about the ending I hope you guys are not mad at me but I really didn't want to end Lucifer's story and well I realised that I want to write "MY MAFIA MATE 2" this time Lucifer's going to be more heartless and well you most probably will hate him but who doesn't like a cold heart mafia ? I'll be updating about "MY MAFIA MATE 2" release date at the end of SICILYS WOLF chapters so make sure to read that book byee