I didn't want my dead body to be on pigeon shit.

Why do guys even exist??

Like seriously. I think I'm at a point in my life where I won't give two shits if all the guys just disappear.

It's not even 10 in the morning, and I've already run into two people who are at the top of my 'People I Don't Want To Meet' List.

I just want to cry istg.

But I don't think that my Power Rivalries and Global Governance Professor would appreciate it.

Here I thought that there was only one person that i didn't want to meet or, hell even see as, but right now? I did take him over the other two, as at least this guy is also avoiding me. Unlike the other two, who I'm pretty sure are stalking me.

Okay, I really wanna cry now.

I don't regret coming to attend this class, but I'm angry that those two guys have made it so that I hate it right now.

I can't concentrate.

It's so exhausting to always be on the lookout.

To be on the edge cause you never know when someone will approach from somewhere.

For instance today I took a different path to avoid a particular someone but that only put me on a path of someone else I didn't want to be near.

The campus is supposed to be chill and peaceful and and ….and not so exhausting where you have to be on the lookout for constant vigilance all the time. This is so mentally, physically, and emotionally tiring.

Maybe I will reach out to the counselor on campus. I didn't think much of him on our first meet, but right now, I'll take ranting to him and him psychoanalyzing me over everything that's happening.

PS. I actually ended up crying in the class and leaving 30 minutes into it. I cried enough that my eyes were burning the whole day. It was only after I came back to my room that I could put some moisturising? drops in it.

PPS. I may or may not have sat by the acad block ledge and contemplated whether jumping over a 3 story building would be worth it or not while watching 30 or so pigeon.

I decided it wasn't.

Also no one dies after jumping from 3 story. You atleast need a 6 story building.

And i didn't wanna double my work by jumping twice from this one.