chapter 3: She had my back

Who said soulmates can only be your life partner , but I found my soulmate in my little sister . The one who is always supportive, protective and was there for me when everybody thought I was mad , I had gone crazy and just being dramatic.

She understood me when no else did .

A person can only cry infront of those people they allow them to enter their personal space , to those whom we can show our weakest sight .

Like I said my soulmate is my sister .

Her name Shariqa , the only person in this world who truly knows me . Not everyone in this can be trusted . A person still get ignored after nine years of friendship and made them feel replaceable but for them you are not . It's heartbreaking and emotional too because many people in this world can relate to it .

Writing was never my passion to be honest , but during lockdown I started to write what's in my mind and soon I realise it became my hobby .

I hide this hobby of mine from everyone in the family except for Shariqa , she knows each and every tiniest detail about me , I bet she can write a biography on me . 

Talking about Shariqa , she is my cousin and she's a 13 years old young lady who is such an amazing person and I can she's my best friend I ever had .

Alot of people say why do hangout with her so much , she is 3 years younger than you , you should talk to someone else around your age , she can't understand what you are talking about . But...but...but I have to admit she's more mature than me in terms of choosing and paying attention to the right people in my life

We have alot of things in common even our faces are similar , but the most important thing is she also share interest in having an imaginary world , where you can be anything you want . Infact whenever we were younger we used act like a character and build up a whole story out of it .

Some of you might think that  why am I telling you about her .

This  young lady is the reason for building up my confidence, self esteem and learn to love myself with my awesome dusty brown skin , she reason why Iam able to interact with strangers . She is the reason how my imagination turned into my power , where I can expect myself , learn more about myself , believe in myself and most importantly see through my heart what it wants .

And she's the one to safe me from red flags .

It was , July 2021 when I felt very sick and was surrounded by many health issues , not that my took a very good care of me only my maternal side ,huh my paternal family doesn't even bothered to ask me how I'm doing , just for the sake of formality . Coming back to where I was , I the mixed emotions where building up inside me , frustration, guilt , fear  of loosing my parents, fear of opening up myself how I feel right now ,all I need is a shoulder to cry but I couldn't cause no body is gonna understand me .

No doubt my grandpa took really good care , but it was suffocating and he was always asking me about medicine and all . If I say something back my mother used to say who ungrateful I'm ,somehow it was true ,but nobody see what I was going through . It was the night time when  my grandpa was suffocating me with his question and everytime saying injections , I have a phobia of injections . At that I lost it and ran upstairs to the rooftop , in the middle I saw my sister and cried for hours , taking out all the emotions that were  buried inside me . At that moment she was my shoulder to cry on and shoulder to rely on .

The fear of being neglecting by my loved ones is very horrifying but she stood by my side and sured me the only thing matters is accepting yourself and improving yourself for your own betterment

I used hate myself for all reasons possible I can mention but she was the only one who said my beauty is unique and I should cherish it in every possible way .

Like I said she is my soulmate , I mean it when I say because despite of the age gap she completely understood me and my problems..I know she my savior .

She's an emotional person and always looked up to me , I don't know she sees in me an inspiration kind of stuff but I like it . If I have to the most amazing person in this universe is ,it would be definitely Shariqa , not only she's caring, supportive, kind but she is the funniest and the cutest person I have ever seen in my entire life and will ever see too .

The problem came when it was 2020 , in that particular year I couldn't meet her because of COVID and I was dying to meet her . I had a dream where I was about to Loose her , and I woke up all covered in sweat and the next day it was informed that Shariqa and her family was tested positive for COVID. I was devastated the sight of loosing her , made me panic and I froze .I couldn't speak and lost my appetite .But with the blessings of almighty my sister and her family recovered and I couldn't thank enough to my God .

But interestingly ,I and Shariqa weren't that much close when we were young . I hate to say that but I have to admit I used to feel inferior and jealous as more people used to pay her more attention than me . I was a kid by then . But now she the most important person in my life , with whom I want to enjoy every single moment that I spent with her .

As much as she is entering her puberty , she becoming cuter day by day . And the most important thing she convinced me to try out manifestation, and my life improved a lot , as I said she's my soulmate but she doesn't liked to called a soulmate so instead of calling her my soulmate, I call her my soul like sister .

Here is my promise to you Shariqa

I will always be there for you, just like you were , I'll always be one number supporter no matter what you do in your life, even the world turns the their back , you'll always find me standing next to you , shoulder to shoulder every moment