Chapter 19

"I know a good burger joint down the road"

She said her voice unsteady, a little like a stutter.

My body looked calm compared to how tangled my mind was.

By now, the girls we were trying to avoid were long gone and we were alone.

Shyly biting her lower lip, she looked away from my face towards the ground and then picked up her steps a minute later.

I followed her, not uttering a single word.

And that day I truly had the most awkward lunch of my life. None of us spoke. And the silence.... It wasn't comfortable in any way.

We placed our orders and the food soon arrived. The food was good. I dropped her home and returned to my hotel.

I rushed to my room stealthily.

Once in my room I quickly ringed eunna back home.

"heyy bro", she said, smiling through the screen.

"Hey eunna", I said, smiling back at my baby sister.

"wait - what the hell!! ," - laughs - "Tae-ah why do you have lipstick on your lips", she Screamed, in plain shock .

My fingers quickly went to my lips as I tried to rub them clean. Wth. How come I never noticed it.wth. How come Ms maple never told me.

'why would she bruh, after you went wild', my brain told me.

"AAAAH, the members must have seen this ", I said in frustration pulling the roots of my hair.

"calm down, I don't think they noticed, only a sister's eye can see such small details, don't worry but how.... Wait!, did you kiss someone!!", she said.

"I ummmmm... "

"what the.... No wayyyyy, mom!! Prepare your hanbok", she yelled.

gosh this girl and her pitch.

" okay shut up, we literally didn't have even held hands yet, I AM NOT GETTING MARRIED, for God's sake", I whined.

"oppa plsss I need details", she begged.

I spent the next 2 hours telling her everything. From my first concert in Canada and about the anxiety attacks to today.

"woahhhh", she said when I finally finished.

"eunna... I feel really guilty for well... Kissing her back. I know she only did it to save me but I don't know what came over me and I just.... I just lost control. Maybe it was because I just have been waiting for so long for her to give me some sort of hint and return my feelings and then well , when she kissed me..... , my impatience took over", I said sighing.

"I'd rather say, it was your desire", she said, smiling.

Idiot

"eunaaaaaaa", I whined.

"what are you 12?, stop being shy", she nagged.

I gave her a glare.

"well it happens, it's okay. You are also a human being, we all make mistakes", she said.

"so what now?", she asked

"I don't know.."

"do you like her"

"yes"

"really really like her?"

"yes"

"then what's stopping you?"

"probably the fact, that I am a celebrity, my fans can sometimes get a bit out of control and too obsessive of me, and how are we forgetting that the main reason we kissed was that we were being hunted.... If I get caught - I... She,... Miss maple will suffer a lot. And anyway, the distance, our job nature, we practically belong to two different worlds, and i just can't let the members down like that. I just cant-".

" listen up brother, I believe in fate, if she is the one for you, nothing... Nothing can ter away from you, so.... Try to make the right decision, okay? ", she said.

" yeah "

'And if only I knew what the right thing was'

" do you wanna talk to mom? ", she asked me.

" umm, just tell her I said hello, I got to go, take care of mom and dad and urself, k , bye"

"sure, byee"

After hanging up, I went for a shower. Looking at the mirror, my hands automatically went to my lips and I smiled subconsciously.

'get it together man', I scolded my self.

After cleaning up, I got dressed and joined the others for dinner.

I couldn't eat well and of course every one noticed that something was wrong with me.

'you only have 2 days remaining here, then you'll be off to Korea. You won't see her again.'

We went to bed early. We needed to be all dessed up for the big concert tommorow.