[Dream VIII]

I was on my way heading Home

And it was a very very cold Afternoon

When I got home, no one is in there

It's just Me, Myself, and I

I just lay on my bed

Out of nowhere, i just grap a pen and wrote a very long letter

My Tears were falling while I am writing the Letter

Then i locked my Room

I grabbed the Blade beside me and started cutting my wrist

I did it while I am crying

Then i grabbed the Blanket in my bed and starting to tie it

And i just found myself Tying it to the Ceiling

And i grabbed a Marker and wrote something in a Paper

"Sorry Kim Namjoon, I loved myself, but it wasn't enough, I failed to do what you want us to do"

And then I hung myself

When I opened my Eyes again, I saw myself hanging in the ceiling, with tears in my Eyes

My Mom was knocking on my Door, calling my name

Minutes later, she opened my Door with the Master Key

And she was shocked on what she saw

She was Crying when she saw the Letter

[ Hi, if you're the One who read this, I'm guessing you are my Mom

So Mom, I'm sorry but, I can't take it anymore, I'm Depressed, but I didn't tell anyone about it (Because I think that Nobody would care about me being depresssed) so Yeah, through this letter I guess I can explain myself why I did this.

Sorry if I'm a Failure, Back from the start I knew that I'm a Failure, I'm not as smart as Dad, I'm not as Hardworking like you, and I will never be everyone's favorite like my Brother.

I tried to Reach to everyone and giving hints about my mental health, but no one gives an Attention, even my friends doesn't notice it, I guess I really am a good prentender, I Smile through the Pain, I laugh without no one noticing I'm in a Depression

I really am Sorry Mom, I hope you'll forgive me, and always be proud to my Brother, always think that I'm always in here, In this Room, I'll always watch over y'all

I Love you all so much

Bidding my Goodbye,

Dean]

And my Mom began to cry harder

Then i woke up, with some tears in my Eyes

I really should reach to others, because some of them really cares about me but can't show it

It's a Dream, and it gives me a Lesson about it