emotions 2

"hey let's go back to being friends ok, let's forget about today''

"we can't brush today's off neither can you my feelings for you. Eve as far as I know you don't have anyone yet, let's give us a try and I know I can make you love me"

I have"

"what do you have?" he asked

"that 'dont have anyone' actually I have"

"huh? when? why didn't you tell me?"

"I'm sorry I never thought it will get to this point"

he stayed quiet for a long time and sigh

"you were right let's forget about today and I'm still your friend"

"I'm sorry" I said

"it's alright and hey let's forget about it. let me escort you home, it's late and we have to pack your stuffs tommorow"

and with that he took the lead, smiled at me and told me to hurry. he really pretended as if nothing has happened.

on our way home he was quite, he looked hurt and although he wanted to hide it, it was clearly showing on his face and that hurt me more. upon reaching home I saw someone infront of my gate and he spoke

"babe! I was worried about you, it's really late and I was having a weird feeling but now that you are home I'm ok now" he said holding my hands and I had to look at my friend whose head was down. I get out of Manuel's hold and said to my friend

"thank you for escorting me"

"it's ok after all what are friends for" he said pretending to be happy, I wished I could tell him that I know when he's hurt and should not bottle it all in.

I looked at Manuel and told him

"thanks for coming by, see you later"

I bid my friend too a goodbye and went inside leaving the both of them outside. call me stupid for leaving the both of them outside but I had a lot on my mind that I needed to rest. but the resting led to thoughts

"I never really thought about it but now that I'm thinking about it I now get why he often used to say"I love you, you are the best thing that has happened to me, I love you so much

but I thought he looked at me as a friend and those didn't mean nothing. there was a time I had wished he was mine why didn't he tell me sooner. now I get it the stories were all about me, him being in a relationship and breaking it off was all because of me. he has loved me for the longest time but why chose to say it now.

I know he got my broken self and he helped fixed me but it seems he fixed me for someone else and I was hurt to hurt him. why didn't he tell me sooner, although I don't feel the same I still want to be friends with him, I want someone so selfless like him in my life."