chapter sixty seven

Joan didn't want to see Nick, so she started avoiding him

"are you avoiding Nick?" Kimmy asked

"no"

"are you really sure? because you never told me what happened to you confessing to him" Kimmy said

"Maybe I didn't confess"

" Joan are you okay?"

" why wouldn't I be'

"you're acting strange, hey if something is wrong then tell me ok" Kimmy said

" ok"

it was indeed true that Joan was avoiding nick

Nick sought after Joan to talk but he didn't get the opportunity.

"have you talked to Joan about" Fred asked

"if only I got the opportunity" Nick said

"really?"

"yh I hardly see Joan lately. we will be writing our final exams and I have to see her and talk to her, please help me Fred " Nick said

" wow I can't believe we're almost done,"

after their final exams, Fred and Kimmy arrange a met up between Joan and Nick.

"you? Joan asked when she saw Nick

"yeah Joan, I am sorry Joan, I am sorry that we fell off and it was my fault.... Joan I can't believe it's been long since we got a chance to talk like this and I accept the blame.... I miss you Joan, I miss the way we were"

"is that it?" Joan asked

"Joan I said I am sorry"

"I heard you Nick, can I leave now"

"are you angry? sorry "

"I am not angry, I don't have the right to be angry, I was at fault too, if that's it then I will leave"

Nick stopped her and held her hands

"Joan.... Joan.... I have something to tell you.

I miss you Joan, I miss you a lot and today being my last day on campus, I want to tell you something important.

Joan.....I don't know how it started but I don't regret what I feel, I love this feelings, I love the excitement Everytime I see you and all other emotions I feel when I am with you or when I see you." Nick said but before he could continue Joan cut him off

"Nick I really want to leave now" she removed her hands and as she was about to leave

"I love you Joan..... I love you as a man loves a woman..... I love you Joan..." Nick screamed

Joan stopped

"this would have been the best news if I haven't heard what you said, how can you claim you love me when you see me like that. Nick don't play with my feelings, you've already broken me. I am barely healing, so stop" Joan said in her mind

Nick approached her and held her hands again and brought it towards his lips

"yes Joan I love you..., not as a sister or as a friend..,. I love you so much and I want you in my future, Joan I have loved you for a long time and I know I might be late but I just want you to know I love you...I love you so much" Nick said

Joan just looked at him with no emotions, she removed her hands and

"so? what should I do"

"I said I love you"

"i heard you. your love means nothing to me, I wish you love me as a friend, you're not worthy to love me. Nick I don't need your love, you loving is nothing special, but I am disappointed in myself for making you love me."

"Joan don't say that , let's forget about me telling you my feelings and go back to the way we were"

"actually Nick, I don't want you as my friend again, are you worth it?"

"Joan stop, you're hurting me"

"then leave me alone, I regret wasting my time with you all those years, you didn't deserve it. I regret knowing you. I Wish I had never met you, I wish there was no you in my past and present life" Joan said and left leaving Nick shattered