8. sprung ahead and back again

The clock's ticking the meter's running the birds sings she ate food and she could taste it and the damn clock is still ticking. I'm breathless I'm mopey then I'm happy I'm carefree as well as I should fucking be I have no regrets my bedroom is a godamn mess because I forgot the ceiling is leaking all over my pretty red head the violins bow is broken I want to run away but I'd rather I grow up first then I won't know the smug looks and pitiful sneers of murderous malice let me breathe let me talk now I'm walking away and they can't catch up I'm too fast for being a dead girl but who's dead now well it must be my dead boyfriend as well because this is what you get when you love someone too well

so please let me go

I can't admit my love anymore

I can only swim now and I must before I drown

meet me there

yes, he's my boyfriend you know I can't wait for ever he romanced me relentlessly he wouldn't give up now if I could only see that he loved me then I would know I'd love him

And I do

You! And I love you too, he knows, period.

But for now I am his

Because this where I belong.