22. Chapter 22

WARNING: This is going to get RACY ;) I've never done this before so hopefully you enjoy. First half of this chapter is definitely rated M.

Chapter 22

Jay's mind was racing a mile a minute as he walked, ran practically, into Hailey's bathroom.

He could vaguely make out her figure, already in the shower, covered by a veil of steam.

He cleared his throat and looked down, he was definitely ready to do this. Suddenly he felt a bit nervous. Now that they were sober, he had no doubt that he wanted this, and now he knew that she did too. Should they talk about this? How it would inevitably change things forever?

He opened the glass door to the shower, Hailey eyeing him up and down, her eyes filled with desire. He joined her in the shower, the two of them quiet for a minute, staring at one another's naked bodies.

"Hailey…", Jay could barely get out, he couldn't take his eyes off her beautiful body.

"Jay", Hailey replied cheekily, eyeing a bigpart of him too, biting the side of her lip in the process.

"Are you sure…", Jay started.

"Don't think Jay. For once in your life don't over think this. I want this, I want you. And I know you want the same. We should just go for it", she replied as she moved closer to him in her shower, her hands resting against his chest. He knew she could feel that he wanted this.

"I've wanted this for a long time Hails", he whispered, cupping her cheek in his hand, using his other to gently trace her collarbone and brush her wet hair away from her face.

It was Hailey that made the first move this time, pulling his head towards hers, kissing him softly at first and then becoming more passionate as he reciprocated.

Then Jay began tracing her body with his tongue, making sure to thoroughly enjoy each spot. His fingers gently flicked her breasts, he alternated that with kissing the sweet spot on the crook of her neck.

His eyes lit up with surprise when he looked down to find her touching herself.

Fuck that was hot, he thought to himself. The second he saw her doing that, it made him want to skip the foreplay altogether and get right to it. But he wanted to do this right. They finally had the opportunity to do this, and he was going to tease and please her in every way he could imagine.

They warmed each other up in the shower for so long that the water eventually turned cold.

"Bed. Now", Hailey murmured as she felt herself coming close to the edge.

Jay left the shower on, to hopefully drown out any noises they were about to make, and just in case they wanted to return to the steam later that morning. He picked Hailey up, as she straddled him in mid air. Her head quirked to the side, making the most intense eye contact with him as she also felt that he was very, very ready for this next part.

He threw her down on her bed, biting the corner of his lips as he watched Hailey do the same.

"Fuck Jay don't stop", she panted as he nibbled on the sensitive spot on her neck, his fingers taking their time exploring another sensitive spot of hers altogether.

He was enjoying this, Hailey was coming undone at his touch. He was taking his time pleasing her in all the ways and places she deserved. He could feel her pressure building, her hips arching to meet his fingers. He stopped abruptly, nearly sending Hailey into a tailspin. She gave him a look until she saw his head dip below, a fire burned behind her eyes. Jay explored her with his tongue at first, she was so wet. He went faster, and faster, in circles this time until he heard Hailey cry out his name. She was out of breath, taking a minute to ride out her orgasm. He curled up next to her in silence, until she turned over to him, grinning.

"Wow. Jay", she moaned.

They made brief eye contact, and before he had time to recover Hailey had quickly flipped herself on top of him.

He looked pleased with himself. He was even happier when she quickly straddled him, watching his shocked face as she started touching herself again. It was only a few seconds later when she felt him quickly rise even higher beneath her, tilting her head at his response.

"Hailey"… he warned breathlessly. She looked down seeing how hard he was, her eyes wide with pleasure. She couldn't help herself and moaned as she came again. That nearly set Jay over the edge. The familiar heat in the bottom of his belly continued to grow, he sat up as she slipped over him, and he entered her with ease.

"Mmmmm" she moaned in pleasure. He loved how she was so vocal in bed. Always in control, much like every other aspect of her life.

"Your turn", she said devilishly as she grabbed a hold of her headboard, riding him smoothly, like their bodies were always meant to fit together.

"Hailey", it was his turn to pant, he knew he wasn't going to hold out much longer. That's when she stopped, taking a turn to tease him.

"I want you. In the shower- right now", she whispered, and he quickly followed her into the bathroom. Not wasting any time pushing her up against the wall, taking control this time, letting the once again hot steam intensify the heat between them. He entered her from behind, he somehow already knew that was her sweet spot. She held on to the shelf in her marble shower, finding a rhythm with him behind her. As if she wasn't already turned on, he reached down with his free hand and started stroking her again.

"Harder", she squealed, as he pumped in and out, in and out until they were both about to climax. Jay was pleased with himself as he felt her tighten around him and release the pressure they had built up together. That made him finish in sync with her too.

"Uhhhh JAY!" She screamed as she finished more intensely than she ever had before. She felt him release too, feeling his rapid heart beat, and pulse from his throbbing erection.

They took a few seconds to catch their breath, turning towards each other.

"That was….", Jay started.

"Incredible", Hailey finished.

"Worth the wait", Jay acknowledged.

She nodded and agreed with his sentiments.

"I don't know how I'm going to go to work today, sit across from you and not think about what just happened here", Jay joked.

Hailey giggled. "I've been going to work pretty much everyday for a while now thinking that this is how we should be starting our mornings."

"Oh", Jay tiled his head, raising his eyebrow at her, loving her boldness. All the longing stares, the wishful thinking, had finally lead them here.

"We need to get ready for work though, for real", Hailey said eyeing the time.

"Well, we're already in the shower together so this is saving some time no?" Jay laughed.

"You're right, two for one", she chuckled as she started washing her hair.

Jay reached down and helped rinse the shampoo out of her hair, as she rubbed body wash along his back.

She smiled, realizing that this was not awkward at all. That this felt so extremely normal to her, even though she just slept with her partner of three years.

They finished up getting ready for the day and made their way downstairs for breakfast. Rojas was sitting at the island, having a coffee and smirking.

"Morning", she greeted them.

"Morning", they smiled back, grabbing their own breakfast and coffee.

"Feeling better Jay?" Rojas asked.

"Much", Jay stressed, taking a sip out of his mug and tossing a wink at Hailey while Vanessa wasn't looking.

"Nothing a nice, long, hot shower can't fix", she winked right back at him, then turning her attention to Hailey, who had pursed her lips and had the slight hint of a blush in her cheeks.

"Exactly", Jay replied after a few stunned seconds.

The three of them were getting ready to leave for work, Vanessa heading out the front door first.

"Do you think she knows", Jay whispered to his partner.

Hailey shrugged her shoulders, "I think she's always known", and winked at him.

He nodded knowingly at that statement and headed towards his truck.

The unit was recapping their weekends, sharing some laughs about what happened at the wedding, how hungover they all were on Sunday.

"I wasn't that bad", Jay sassed back at Vanessa calling him out.

The room went quiet, with everyone at their own place realizing that if Vanessa knew how hungover Jay was on Sunday that had to have meant that he slept at their house.

She cleared her throat, realizing her slip up, thankfully Voight wasn't in yet.

Hailey snorted in laughter, rolling her eyes at Jay's denial.

"Upton? Care to add something?" Kevin asked.

"I have never seen Jay so sick before. And I took care of him after he was shot this year", she replied chuckling, acknowledging the sleepover, and putting the final nail in Jay's "I was totally fine" coffin. The rest of the units mouths, aside from Vanessa's, practically dropped open.

Jay rolled his eyes at the group, muttering a whatever under his breath, laughing his way to the break room. Hailey followed behind him.

Ruzek, Burgess and Kevin silently gathered around Vanessa's desk.

"Ok. They've had sex right?!" Ruzek blurted out.

"Oh, definitelyyy", Vanessa quietly stressed, and the whole unit burst out laughing.

What started out as an amazing day quickly turned south for Hailey and Jay. They were doing surveillance in a bar, trying to infiltrate a drug trafficking ring.

Hailey's eyes went wide, and she could hear the stress in Vanessa's voice over her earpiece when she looked across the bar and saw a familiar face.

No one else knew this, but she recognized Luis immediately. He was an old boyfriend of Vanessa's, who she had met a few weeks ago when they ran into him in the grocery store. Vanessa had confessed that she still saw Luis here and there, they had a long complicated history. But he also didn't know that she was a cop. They needed to keep it that way.

Hailey feared that if Luis saw her, that he would call her by her real name, not Kelly, and that would ruin this entire undercover.

Jay saw her panicking, not really sure what was going on.

"What is it", he whispered quietly.

"Kiss me", Hailey blurted out in a last ditch effort as she saw Luis closing in on them. He was seconds away from seeing her.

"What", Jay's eyes went wide, he knew there must be a good reason for this. Hailey would never say that, knowing that they were being watched by their entire unit. He trusted her, so he did it.

He pulled her in for a long kiss, his mind immediately heading back to their morning in her shower. There was a normalcy to this now.

Kevin watched on from the bar, his mouth hanging open before he quickly regrouped and tried not to draw attention to them. Clearly this was happening for a reason, he just didn't know why exactly. But he would definitely be asking them about this immediately after, and how natural it seemed.

Burgess, Vanessa and Voight were sitting in an undercover van a few blocks away from the club, hearing and seeing their kiss in real time.

The three of them were just as stunned. Well Vanessa pretended to be stunned just to fit in with Burgess and Voight. Realistically she knew they had done this before and more in real life, but that wasn't a super important detail at the moment.

"That guy that just walked past Hailey knows who she is, she did this to not blow their cover. I'm sure of it", Vanessa explained, trying to avoid sharing whyHailey knew this guy and why he was hanging around with people they were looking at for drug trafficking.

"Hmm", Voight nodded quietly.

Burgess and Vanessa studied his face, waiting to see what his reaction would be.

"Burgess, what's your take on that move?" He asked.

"Well… I think Halstead and Upton are professionals. And if that's what they had to do to get out of the situation and protect their cover, I think it was the right move", she rambled a bit, nervously.

Surprisingly, Hank chuckled. "You're right, that's one way to do it. And something tells me they've used that move before. In other operations perhaps", he replied intentionally vague and knowingly at the same time.

Burgess and Rojas' eyes went wide and just stared at each other, quickly trying to avoid eye contact with their boss, unsure how they should respond to that one.

"Mhmm, yes maybe, I don't know", Vanessa stammered. Voight secretly enjoying how uncomfortable the two of them looked, so obviously trying to cover for their friends.

"Right, well let's get back to the office for tonight and make a plan", he said. The two women grateful he was dropping this conversation for now.

The next few days were hell. Vanessa and Hailey had it out after Hailey realized that her young roommate deleted footage of Luis off their wire and video surveillance.

"Vanessa, that's obstruction, you could go to JAIL", she yelled.

"I know, I know okay. I panicked! Luis has a history, but I refuse to believe he's involved in this. He's been trying to turn his life around. I owe him everything", she tried to explain to Hailey.

Their conversation was cut short by Ruzek walking in and telling the unit they had something on Gael, the head of the drug ring.

"We're going to talk about this later", Hailey whispered at Rojas. Jay eyed them across the room, sensing that something was up with the pair.

Jay tried to talk to Hailey about it later but she kept brushing him off. He wanted to come over that night but Hailey said she needed to spend time with Vanessa, that she was dealing with a few things, so Jay respected that.

What Jay didn't know is that Voight had actually paid them a visit. Voight came over to question Vanessa, also seeing the holes in her story of how she knew Luis and how much she knew about his involvement in all of this.

Hailey was sitting on the staircase and could hear a teary Rojas come clean to Voight about everything. He was rightfully angry, and as he left he caught her sitting on the stairs.

"I'm going to pretend you didn't know anything about that", Voight questioned her.

"I knew some, not all", Hailey confessed. "I wanted to protect her, I thought that's what you would do", she said surprisingly coldly.

Voight looked up at her like he was going to explode, but kept his cool.

He shook his finger at her, "That's my job. NOT yours", and he left their house.

A part of Hailey thought she would feel scared after that encounter with Voight, but she didn't. She didn't feel anything at all.

The last few days had been hectic with this case. They went from arresting to Luis, to trying to work with him to bust Gael, to being played by Gael himself after finding an associate shot dead in his car who they were going to do a buy with. This case was slipping away from them, and fast.

It was all too much, Hailey could see the toll this was taking on Vanessa. Heard the emotion, the begging in her voice as she talked to Luis in the holding cell. Trying to get him to understand, but he was angry, hurt, heartbroken. That Vanessa would keep this from him. Tears welled up in Hailey's eyes as she heard her say that Luis was the only family she had all these years, that she never felt like she belonged. Betraying him must have killed her. Hailey vowed to change that, show Vanessa that she did have people in her corner. It was in that moment that she knew what she had to do.

Jay could see Hailey spiralling with this case. He knew that Vanessa meant so much to her and that she would do anything to protect her. But that worried him, Hailey had been a bit more loose on crossing lines since losing her CI Cameron earlier this year. He thought she had reigned herself in, but after what he suspected she did tonight…. He refused to believe she would put her whole career in jeopardy like this. He was angry.

He heard the call come in on the radio. Gael had been stopped by patrol for a traffic violation or something bogus, with them finding two bricks of cocaine in a trap in his trunk, and he just knew. Deep down in his gut, seeing Hailey take Luis down to the cage. Her behaviour just after. He knew her well enough and the slippery slope that she had been on to predict what she did tonight. He was furious, but tried to see it from her perspective. She had stuck by him through some seriously questionable decisions also, so he was going to do the same for her.

He waited about an hour before trying to contact her, he was sure she was tying up loose ends of the case. He called and called, getting anxious that it was so late and she wasn't returning any of his messages, when finally one came through.

At the district still, just talked to Voight. Can you meet me at my house?

He replied yes and sped over there as fast as he could, hoping for the best. Little did he know, the worst was to come.

She was silent getting out of her car, seeing Jay parked across the street sitting in his truck waiting for her and her heart sank into her stomach. She made the decision to do what she did tonight, and ultimately she had no regrets. Gael was behind bars, Luis was going to get the deal he was promised for cooperating. But what she didn't consider was how her actions were going to affect her partnership, her place in the unit, and most importantly things with Jay. When Voight told, rather screamed, at her tonight in his office, she didn't flinch. But on the way home, the news that she was going to New York for a while was really beginning to sink in. New York of all places, this was going to crush Jay. After they finally got together. They weren't going to have a chance at being a normal couple for who knows how long now. And it was all her fault.

She sighed, dreading at what she was about to tell him.

He sat down nervously in her kitchen, Rojas wasn't home yet.

"You're going where?" He looked white as a ghost after she explained what happened.

"I'm going to New York for a few weeks. This isn't permanent Jay. It's just temporary", she reassured him.

She was expecting a bigger reaction, but it didn't come. He just sort of stared blankly at her and nodded. "Okay."

"Are you mad?" She asked quietly.

He sighed and shook his head. "I can't believe you did this Hailey."

Somehow that felt worse, the calm, quiet admission of how he was feeling. No yelling, no anger. Just hurt.

She chewed her lip nervously, "I had to Jay. It was Vanessa. I had to. I hoped that you of all people would understand that."

"Hailey, me of all people? You know how many stupid things I've done, and how many times have you cussed me out for that? I mean rightfully so. But still, that's not fair. Look at how those decisions landed me in trouble, serious trouble", he said pointing to the scar on his shoulder from the bullet wound a few months back.

"I know. I'm sorry. I just snapped. I don't know what else to say. I don't want to go but I have to. I don't know what we are right now, if this, motioning between them, is just sex…or…"

That set him off.

"This isn't just sex for me!" He yelled.

She paused waiting for the but, expecting it because she could never catch a relationship break, things with Jay were not going to be easy. She just made things way harder by her actions tonight. She wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to put things on the back burner for now. But instead, he surprised her.

"I love you Hailey", he admitted. That's when she knew. As soon as those words slipped out of his mouth, the same words that she instantly said back to him, she knew that packing her bags tonight was going to be the most painful thing she's ever done.

Hope this got everyones heart racing! Sorry for the long delay, I've been dealing with some things in my personal life as of late (all good, but just needed to take a break). I'm hoping this chapter lived up to the anticipation! Thank you so much for the lovely feedback on my last chapter, I really look forward to hearing from all of you and it's always so amazing to me how many people love this story and my writing. Truly humbling! I will try to update this more frequently on a weekly basis :) Stay safe and well wherever you are in the world! - K