MISS EVA

I entered the restaurant and he was still there,waiting.I glanced at my watch,it was midnight.That was how badly he wanted to speak to me.My heart crushed for him,I sympathized.Did he deserve it?No.He was a jerk,at least I thought. "Eva,you came,"he seemed surprised and relieved to see me. He stood up to help me take a seat across him at the table by pulling the chair back for me. "Thanks,"I said in almost a whisper. "I thought you wouldn't show.I'm glad you're here,"he said as he took his seat.He sounded nervous and that was a bad sign.A nervous Carlos?Never thought I'd see the day,but there we were. "I almost didn't come to be honest,then there was traffic,so you better make this worthwhile,"I said trying not to show that I was still upset with him.He nodded as he bit his lower lip,as if not sure where to start.I was upset but I couldn't not notice how hot he looked.New hair cut,that white T-shirt through which the tattoos on his chest were visible... He lightly took my hands, which I had rested on the table,into his.I wanted to pull away but I couldn't.It felt so good. "Should I get you something to drink first?"He asked. "No,I'm good,"I politely declined and gathered the strength to pull away from his soft touch. "So,tell me,"I reminded him that he wanted to talk to me about something. "I don't know what Lauren told you but we are not together,"he started."We broke up before I moved here.We figured we couldn't do long distance and she didn't want to come with me,"he continued. "Then why would she lie to me?"I asked,not wrapping my finger around the whole situation. "She assumed we would be getting back together,"Carl explained further but it left me more confused. "Why?"I asked "She's pregnant Eva.She's expecting our child.She came to Mexico to tell me that,"he dropped the bombshell and my heart dropped into my stomach.I swear I could hear my intestines twist in there. "She's eight weeks now,"he added.I was wishing he stopped talking.That was a lot to take in,God! "Say something,Eva,"Carlos begged as I sat there in silence. "What am I supposed to say?The man I love is expecting a child with another woman.It's a lot to take in,"I as I blinked in a bid to keep my tears from falling.I lost and the tears came crushing down my cheeks.Carlos was smiling,I didn't know why. "That's the first time you've said that.That you love me,"he said and I understand why he had smiled earlier. "I'm sorry Eva,"he said and stood up from his seat.He went down on one knee in front of me and offered me his handkerchief. "You shouldn't be sorry.I wish things were different.I wish I had known you at a different time,"I said as I dried my tears with his handkerchief. "Me too,I'm sorry it is complicated,"he whispered again and I stooped a little bit to hold his chin as a sign of reassurance.I caught a tear in his beards.I thought I always loved complicated,till that day. "We'll be fine,"I said to him."But I hope you understand that I can't be with you Carlos,I don't want to be reason why your baby doesn't grow with you by their side.I wouldn't be able to forgive myself,"I said and he buried his head in my lap.He was crying,he was losing it.I could tell from the tears that were seeping through my emerald dress.I softly rubbed his hair to comfort him. I lost him even before I had him.Love!

Nexa_Darrel · Urban

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#BETRAYAL

#FATEDLOVE

#FAMILY

Hurt people hurt people

"Don't you think you should take a break?"My nanny's voice pulled me out of fantasy land,where I had been drowning.I had my nose buried in that painting all afternoon I didn't even notice how fast time went by."You startled me,"I said to her and sneezed a little.It was the wind,wasn't it?She walked towards the balcony from where I was doing my painting. "If you keep exposing yourself to cold like this you'll get sick,"she pointed out to the fact that I wasn't wearing a cardigan."Your clothes are here,"she added."Finally!"I said as I rose from my seat. "Oh!What did you do to your hair?She sounded surprised after seeing my bangs. "Cut some of it.Like an angry teenager would,"I said."I look great though,admit it,"I said and did a little turn-around for her to see my hair."Yeah,you look great,"she said with a smile. "Here,wear something for the cold,"she pulled out a green cardigan from one suitcase lying on the floor and put it on my shoulders."Red?Who picked this one out?I hate it,"I sneered to show my dislike for that poor red cardigan."No more painting,it's time for dinner.Oh,you also have a visitor,"my nanny suddenly announced and exited the room to let me ache my head as I wondered who the supposed visitor could be.My mom?I hoped it wasn't her.Xavi?I didn't want to see him.Faby?He would have called first,right?Carlos?Wasn't he tired of seeing me all the time?

There was only one way to find out.Head downstairs for dinner.I was so hungry anyway.See,creative work,art,it drains you,emotionally and mentally.Emotionally because you let yourself feel so that you can speak through your art.I headed downstairs and guess who I found at the dining table.Xavi!Surely,what were the odds? "You?You brought my clothes?"I asked him and he nodded.That explained the poor taste in cardigan.

"What are you doing here?"I asked him. "Take a seat Eva,please,"he gently spoke to me as if he wasn't the same guy that tried to drag me to rehab.I took a seat right across from him as he wished.My nanny served my spicy pasta with beef and left the two of us to continue glaring at each other from both sides of the table. The dinner was eaten in silence and I was glad because I knew someone would say something wrong if we engaged in conversation. "Let's go for a ride,"he suggested and that made me tremble a little.He wasn't trying to drive to rehab,was he?As if to answer my thoughts,he said,"you'll drive."It wasn't going to hurt it was just a ride.I grabbed his car keys from the table and lead the way out of the house.Oh!I was driving the sports car,great! "Ready?"I asked after buckling up. "Yeah,"he said and I drove off.I didn't even know where I was going,I just drove. "How are you?"He asked me. "Fine,I guess,"I said. "You should come home with me,"he added. "Should?"I asked. "Yeah,it's your house anyway,"he said.What was that even supposed to mean? "What do you mean?"I asked. "The divorce thing,it's about to be finalized.You're getting the house.You grew up there,"he explained.It was happening!Xavi and mum were parting ways."Why am I here with you?"I asked instead and shoved all thoughts and questions that came to mind about the divorce.Some time back I had asked him about the divorce and he lied to my face!We didn't need to go there,I didn't want to get more angry. "I just wanted to see you,"he said. "Yeah,while I have been waiting to hear just one word from you.For you to tell me that you are sorry! for all that drama in the morning,"I said and I felt a tear drop from my eye."I was just trying to do what's best for you.Sweetheart,you are doing drugs,"he said in almost a whisper. "You're making decisions for me? We are past that Xavi.You know why I got into this hole in the first place?It's all the secrets that you keep from me and drop them on me when it's too late.They drive me nuts,all the time!No one asks me how I feel,I'm left to deal with all that alone,dust myself up and move on.So I started doing drugs to deal with my pain.Seriously,you should have noticed if you just paid enough attention.You should have seen that your baby girl was not okay,"I vented. "I'm not okay and you're not okay either.You haven't been okay for the longest and I get that but it's not fair that I'm the one who is on the receiving end of that pain and anger.Get your shit together,Xavi,I'll get my shit together too,"I said. "Yeah,I call you Xavi when you are not around,"I added. "That man that I saw in the morning,he wasn't my dad.I want my dad back,"I said and stopped the car.I loved that Xavi wasn't arguing with me,he was silently listening."You should go home,get out,"I said to Xavi.I didn't want to see him anymore,it just made me so angry.He made me angry.So,I kicked him out of his own car. He got out of the car as I had requested.I guess he was going to take a taxi home.I drove back to my nanny's in his car.

"How did it go?"My nanny asked me as I walked towards her in the kitchen.I wanted to cry but decided against it.I didn't want to speak either. "It's him,right?"I confronted her. "Who?"She wondered. "Xavi,the man you've loved for twenty years?"I spoke."You stayed for him,"I whispered. "You should get some sleep,Eva,"she was offended and hurt but I didn't care.I was in pain and I wanted someone else to feel it with me.So,I kept pushing. "I put one and one together,I ask for clothes and you tell Xavi to get them.I have always noticed how you look at him.Twenty years in love with your boss?Seriously Tierra,you should move on,"I said to her.

"So what if I'm in love with my boss?That has nothing to do with you Eva.You have no right to bring it up.I said that to you in confidence and you're using it against me,"she was about to scream at me,I could tell. "Kid,I hope you heal from whatever is eating you up before it consumes you,"she said and left the room.

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