21st March 2021

#Journal Entry: He stood me up

I can't believe it. He stood me up. He didn't show up after class. He didn't call or text me. He didn't even look at me in class. He acted like I didn't exist.

I waited for him outside the classroom, hoping he would come and apologize for being late. But he never came. I saw him walk past me with his friends, laughing and joking. He didn't even glance at me. He ignored me completely.

I felt like a fool. I felt hurt and angry. How could he do this to me? How could he say all those nice things to me yesterday and then treat me like dirt today? Was he lying to me? Was he playing with my feelings? Did he have a girlfriend? Did he have a bet with his friends?

I wanted to cry. I wanted to scream. I wanted to confront him. But I didn't. I just walked away, feeling crushed and humiliated.

I don't understand him. I don't understand myself. Why did I fall for him so easily? Why did I trust him so quickly? Why did I let him get to me so deeply?

He is a mystery to me. A mystery that hurts.