{ Part 1.12 }

(y/n)'s pov:

We're in the titan territory now. The field was empty except the titans but I felt free.

'On to your position!!!' Erwin yelled. Levi's squad was ordered to be in the main center to be safe. I know the female titan is about to show up soon. I'm sorry to the ones who on the right corner side. They will have to risk their life. (y/n), you can't save everyone.

I ride a little fast to reach just beside Eren. 'Eren, I know what I'm about to say is going to be crazy, but do you trust me?' I whispered so no one would hear what I said to Eren. He nodded saying 'Of course!' I then continued, 'Change into your titan form when I tell you, just promise me you'll do it no matter what. Promise me.'

'I promise, (y/n). I've always trusted in you since I first know you. I give you my word.'

I give him a smile and look forward to the road. I know the others are wondering about what I was saying to Eren but they ignore it. They'll get mad at me after this! But at least they won't get mad to Eren. That's all that matters. It's not sure yet that I would make Eren change. I'll only tell him when it's urgent.

'There's a gas signal on the side, it's green. Oluo, your turn to do the signal shot.' Levi says as he saw the signal and order Oluo.

Then there was a cadet coming from the side reporting us, 'The enemy is coming from the right side. The team from the right side are all gone. The organization of this time is not affective. Give this news to the left side.' Then the cadet went back to his team.

'You heard all of that right, Petra? Now go!' Levi look to Petra side and order her. Then we heard a signal shot and saw it was black. The female titan is that fast? She sure is a runner. Levi look back and order, 'Eren, it's your turn to shot.'

As it goes on, we arrived to the forest and went to the main road. We heard loud thuds and felt the ground shaking beneath us. 'Everyone, ready your gears. Don't think about anything else when that b*tch show up.' Levi says as he ready his gear.

Oh, Annie has show up. Just as I say that, The female titan a.k.a Annie arrived just behind us. She keep running and try to reach to Eren. You won't get Eren that easily, Annie.

And I heard the 3DMG gear sound right behind us. I saw the cadets are making time for us to reach the trap that Erwin has prepared for the female tian. I just have to turn off my humanity for the better.

As we go on, the conflict start to happen, the rest of squad start to panic except me and Levi.

'I don't think we would be able to escape this guy.' Eld says as he realized how fast the female titan was.

'Captain, give us the order to change to our gear now, Captain!' Petra yell panicky as she saw the female titan. I heard Petra yell that the back up team come to kill the titan, but I can't look back or I would regret not saving them.

I heard the yelling and agony behind me but I can't seem to look back. I just can't. I move on forward faster and stay calm. 'Captain, give us an order now.' Petar yell with fear when she saw her fallen cadet behind her.

Oluo look to Levi and say, 'Let's just kill that bastard right here, this guy is not easy.'

'I'll cut it into pieces!' Eld said joining the argument. Then the request or I should say yelling, I don't know. They're afraid that the female titan is going to catch up with them.

'Everyone, cover your ears!' Levi command as he pull out the signal gun. I close my ears and it got shot . The sound bomb still effects me even if I cover my ears. But that didn't stop the female titan from running.

'What's is your real job here? To get panic when an urgent dangerous moment comes? It's not, our job is to protect this bastard here without a scratch, even if have to give our lives. We have to continue protect him, do you understand that?' After that speech Levi gave, the squad calm down a bit not panicking like they did a moment ago.

'Roger that.' Petra answer back even if she doesn't know what's going on but she trust her Captain.

'What do you mean we have to keep going? Where to? And that female is just behind us. And again the back up will die if we don't help them now.' Eren complain as he saw the scene that is happening behind him.

'Eren, focus on the road ahead. Don't slow down. Keep moving!' Gunther yelled at him. 'But why? If Levi's squad don't stop, do you think the other will stop, too? Another one has die now. We could have save him. (y/n), are you just going to ignore what happen now? Help me and try to talk to them.' I was not in my mind the whole time and the question Eren ask me, make me come back.

'Just do what the Captain says now, Eren and just like I said trust me Eren, please.' I look to him but he got shocked by the answer. He might think that I'm not my usual self. But in order to save Levi's squad I have to turn off my humanity for now.

Then Eren put back his sword and look at his hand. He's thinking to change, isn't he? 'What are you doing, Eren?' Petra ask him noticing Eren about to bite his hand. 'You can only change if you are in danger! You give us a promise! Eren!!'

'You're not doing wrong. If you want to change just do it. But I can only says that you are a monster. Not because you have the titan powers but because you don't listen to us no matter how we control you or threaten you. Eren, in experience, my squad and you are not the same. But you don't have to care about it. Just decide it. Will you trust yourself or will you put your trust on the team? I don't have the answer, never did had one. I don't know if I have to trust on my own abilities or my team's abilities. The best is choose the decision which you think you won't regret the most.' After what Levi said to Eren, it make Eren think for awhile. But as he saw the female titan kills the cadets, he prepare to bite his hand.

'Eren, please trust in us!' Petra pleads him. 'Decide fast now!' Levi yelled at Eren. 'I'll go forward!' Eren answer but the regret is full on his face.

'The target is getting faster!' I report to Levi. 'Don't stop, keep moving forward' Levi order his squad. I won't say that I'm not scared. I'm scared too. The female titan is chasing us and I don't know if I'll die here or maybe in a few moments.

I don't want to die for sure but I can't change my fate. As we got across the destined place, I heard Erwin give the order to shoot at the female titan. Our squad become less panic and joy filled their faces knowing the female titan got caught by the traps.

'Go forward a little and tie your horses near the trees, and use 3DMG gear then. I have to go back there to do something. Eld, you take lead of this team.' Levi says as he stand on his horse and use his gear to go back to the female titan.

We stop after going a little further from the traps. We tie our horse near the trees and use our gear.

'So it was planned out from the beginning to capture the female titan? Isn't it right? I understand that they don't want the new ones to know the plan but all of guys don't know about this too. Don't you guys joined the survey corps long ago?' Eren says to them.

'Shut up!' Oluo yelled. 'Are you saying Commader Erwin and Captain Levi don't trust us?' Petra yell back at Eren. 'But by the looks of it, it seems that way.' Eren says back at her.

'Stop fighting, Eren is telling the truth.' Eld pointed out. 'Commader Erwin didn't trust us because there might be a reason to it.'

'Like what?' Gunther questioned.

'There is only one reason why the leader doesn't trust their members. There is another titan shifter spy in this survey corps.' Eld start explain to his team.

After awhile, we saw the retreat signal meaning the mission is done. Even if they all felt relieved now, I know what's about to come. We follow Gunther's lead to retreat. There we saw a green signal shot out on the right side of us.

'That must be Captain Levi. Maybe he come back to us! Let's go to his way.' Gunther tell us but I stop him. 'We can't just suddenly go there. We don't know if they captured the female titan yet. She might escape and come to Eren in her human form.'

'Are you saying you think that Commander Erwin would just retreat even if he fail! Stop talking nonsense, let's just go!' Gunther then move forwards to the signal spot.

Ugh why can't he just listen to me. I saw Annie coming to us, fast. It all turn into slow motion when Annie arrives in front of Gunther. Nope, not this time. I won't let Gunther die. I won't fail again. I reach to Gunther in a flash and in an instant I pull out my sword and manage to the cover the attack.

'Not this time, I'm not going to fail saving my friends, you fricking titan!!' I yelled out.

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Word count: 1707

Published: 23, September, 2020