Am I ready?

Jelly. My whole body feels like a jar of jello from head to toe as I wake up in the morning and walk towards the bathroom. I'm still in the middle of convincing myself that everything will be alright when I reach the bathroom. I face the mirror and quietly examine my features. Messy black hair that's actually straight but I keep it in messy waves, catlike eyes, and a small but alluring face. I am not able to see any of that though. I brush my teeth and wash my face when I'm greatly startled by a knock on my door. I open the door to see Hawon with a gentle smile on his face reminding me of the first time that I met him. He motions for me to come eat breakfast and I follow him to the kitchen with no appetite. I sit down at the counter and begin eating the bread and eggs Hawon always prepares for Seungwon and I in the morning when I hear a yell.

"UGH, I lost AGAIN!" screams Seungwon sitting in front of the TV with his video game

Hawon and I exchange a casual glance as this has now become something very common every morning.

"Seungwon and I were thinking of bonding while playing video games since we don't have a schedule today" says Hawon while putting more eggs in my plate "Wanna join?"

"Sorry" I say taking a bite of the delicious bread "I have dance practice"

I can feel Hawon's surprise from the other side of the kitchen counter as he puts his bread down.

"We've known each other forever but I didn't know you could dance" he says in a surprised tone

"Yeh me neither" I reply sarcastically and I hear him shaking with laughter as I trudge back to my room

I know that I should tell him I'm having a hard time but I find myself instead keeping everything inside easier. The only problem is that I don't know the true definition of what easy is, since I've never had it easy before.

I wash up properly and my manager brings comfortable but stylish clothes for me to wear to the dance practice.

I get dressed and I head out raising a hand saying goodbye to Hawon and Seungwon. As I sit in the van I can feel that my manager is just as anxious as I am. Knowing that someone is relating to my troubles I feel myself take a deep breath to calm down.

"Will you be okay?" He asks

"Yes"

"You're sure?" He asks again

"We'll be late"

"Just tell me if you're okay" He says frustrated

"I'm fine. Now let's have a nice and quiet drive" I say gently knowing he's worried about me

I put in my headphones and play a calming song to relax my nerves. Laying my head on the car seat I find time flowing slower as I close my eyes and begin to hope for the best.

We arrive in front of the giant building of the company who his hosting the Ceremony this year. ETC, the name of the company, is written in extremely large letters on the highest floor of the building.

"I wonder how many floors this is" My manager says speaking his thoughts aloud next to me

I nod and walk in as he leaves me alone to go back to Hawon and Seungwon before they set our dorm on fire. I find myself lost in a building that resembles a maze very much right before I stop in front of a door that seems to be where I need to go. I hesitate in front of the door for a few minutes before I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turn around to see a handsome boy standing behind me.

Stray Kids Lee Minho (LeeKnow, Lino) (Look him up, he is awesome)

"Are you here for the Dance Practice?" he asks kindly

I nod my head slightly and he reaches around me to open the door and motions with his head for me to enter first. I swallow and turn around awkwardly to enter wriggling around his arm. He smiles slightly but I hurry and enter in.

I look up and find myself staring at the passionate backs of some of the best dancers in Korea. The boy who had opened the door for me, I now realized, was Minho of Stray Kids and I inwardly gasp as he is an amazing dancer. Feeling out of place I begin regretting agreeing to this in the first place. What am I even doing here?

The teacher begins talking about the different things that we will be learning and how the choreography will most likely be done with a partner. Everything that is coming out of her mouth sounds jumbled and I find my thoughts drifting into space. Suddenly I hear her ask if everyone is ready to dance. Am I ready?