Chapter 34

Chapter 34

"WHAT?!" Amanda yelled as I told her the truth. "YOU DON'T KNOW YOUR ALPHA'S FACE?! AND YOU TOLD HIM TO COOL OFF?!" Held her head then looked at me. "Gracious... you're crazy!"

"Hey! Shh!" I covered her mouth before she yelled again. "I told you to keep quiet!"

She irritably removed my hands at her mouth. "How can I be qiuet about it! You totally shocked me with your story! You maggot!"

Right now, Amanda and I were at the rooftop. And yeah, I'm telling her the truth. I want, at least, there's a person who knew about the shits that happening in my life. Because, I'm sure if I kept it by myself, time will come that I'll explode because of too much anxiety.

"Wait... wait... this is really mind blowing!" She yelled. "Okay, so first, you got into your first heat, then when you called someone to help you, you accidentally called your mate, right?" I nodded. "Wait, why don't you just open your call logs and checked the call history?"

I shrugged. "My mate said that it was broken so he changed it with a new one, with a new sim card also."

"Woah! Rich! But yeah, weird." She made face then chuckled. "Right! Next, he banged you----"

"Amanda!" I smacked her shoulder. I blushed because of her words.

"What? That's the truth!" She said and rolled her eyes. "And that mate of yours told you to kept everything in secret. Then every three months, you guys met because of your heat." I nodded again. "And that day you disappeared, you got into heat and Chris was there to helped you. Also, your alpha didn't came to help you."

I nodded again. "Yes..." I smiled bitterly.

"And... you didn't told your parents what really happened because they didn't know that you're marked already" Amanda asked as she leaned on the wall. "Lastly, you asked for cool off and he agreed with it."

I sighed. "You know... I can't tell my parents." I leaned my chin against my bended knees. "Even though, my mate and I got in to fight, I'll never let my mate down." Few days ago, I told my parents what happened to me during my disappearance. It's more of... I told them some of the truth...

"You mean you got in to heat that day?" My mother asked me unbelievably. "Why didn't you call us?"

I bit my lips and played with my fingers. "I... collapsed because of the suppressants I took." I heard my parents gasped. "And... Chris, one of my schoolmates, was the one to tend me. She didn't know who to call and to contact that day. So, she just guarded me that day. Oh! She's omega like me so, you don't have to be worried."

My parents plastered a worried expression on their faces. "Oh my gracious... why didn't you tell us earlier?"

My eyes wandered, I can't looked at them in the eyes. "I don't want you guys to worry to about me... I'm fine..." that moment, I saw my mother broke into tears then hurriedly hugged me.

"Why are you saying like that?! Of course, we're going to be worried! You are our son!" I nodded then tapped his back to calm him down. I also felt my father tapped my back then hugged us.

"Son... we are your parents. No matter what happened, it will never change. We have the rights to worried for your welfare. We only don't wany you to be in danger." He said.

I nodded. I can feel their feeling towards me. It was so warm and welcoming. That made me cried and hugged them.

"Mother... Father..." I said. 'I'm hurting right now. Take this pain away. I can't handle it anymore.' I want to add but I can't.

I want to tell them the truth but I can just say it without my alpha's thougts about it. We maybe on the rocks right now but I still consider him in every actions I made.

Thr truth is, I'm just stopping myself from taking back the words I've thrown to him. I want to say that I only said it because of the heat of the conversation, that I don't really mean what I said and that I'm not really mad at him but just disappointed.

But I can't.

The fact that he agreed made me shattered more. I want him to beg for my forgiveness. I want to him to admit all the things that is making me doubtful of him. I want him to be honest to me about his identity. I want... atleast, just once... to feel that I'm not the only one whose holding onto this relationship. Because I'm damn tired if chasing and understanding. I want to feel how does it feels like to be chased. I want to feel how to be loved without hindrance. I want to feel the real him, the person behind my alpha. But I think the chances I have just got lessen.

"Thank you, Mother, Father. For always accepting me... for taking care of me... this will be the last time I'll disappoint you and lose your trust." I promised. "I'll never make you regret having me."

'Mother, Father, I'm lying. I don't know if this will be the last time.' I thought.

"Shh..." mother hushed me. "Having you as our child will be the bestest decision we've ever made. We will never regret raising you, Kyle." He said as he kissed my head.

I feel guilty for what I did. I felt bad for my parents. I was raise not to be like this but it totally changed after I met my alpha.

I sighed.

'This is so stressful. Argh...'

"Pfttt..." I heard Amanda chuckled. "You kept on holding onto him while he totally dumped you." I frowned and smacked her. "Ouch! What? I'm telling truth!"

I rolled my eyes at her. "That's foul." I said. "Even though he's a jerk, he's still my alpha."

"Eh? So, what with the 'After 3 months, I'll decide if I'll still accept you as my alpha.' The fuck?" I can hear anguish in her voice. "Both of you were just fooling of yourselves."

"Well, I don't want to look like a helpless omega crying over someone. I still want to save my fave, you know! And it's truth when I said that I'll think about having him again. I want us to both weigh our feelings and thoughts about our relationship. This whole change took a huge impact both on our lives. That maybe the other reason why he's like that."

"Really?" Amanda asked. "What if after 3 months you don't want him? You are marked by him, what will happen to you?" She narrowed her eyes. "Or what if, your alpha totally give up, what will you do?"

I suddenly lost my words because of what she said. "T-Then! I...I..."

"You what?" I lowered my head and shook my head. "See! You're being impulsive with your actions! But the truth is, you don't have courage to do so! You were afraid of being fooled but your actions was indeed foolish. You said, you want to save your face, from what? Humiliation? But look whose suffering?" I bit my lower lip. "It was you, Kyle. You ended up hurting yourself."

"Then what should I do? Take back my words?" I asked her in low tone.

"No, sort out your feeling, like what you've said. Maybe that will really help you." She shrugged.

"You're not sure?"

"It was you who were troubled, you must know how to deal with it yourself." She said.

"You're not helping."

"I'm just being honest of my thoughts. I never experience that before so I had no clue at all. I don't want to give you half ass advices. But... I suggest for you to think of it more and deeper. So you won't regret every actions you did and will do."

Silence consumed us. The only thing you could hear was the blowing wind. Later, Amanda spoke. "But I have weird feeling with your alpha..."

I frowned. "What do you mean?"

"Remember," she moved closer to me. "I saw the both of you making out and eating out each oth---"

"Amanda!" I cut her out and smack her shoulder. Her w-words... damn!

"Wait HAHAHA! Okay. Kidding aside." She finally stopped laughing. "That day... even though I barely saw him, he felt familiar."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"I don't know how to say this but..."

"But?" The anticipation is killing me.

"I think I felt him somewhere. I don't know where, but I definitely felt him. But I can't remember where."

"Are you sure? I mean! Why didn't you told me that earlier?" I said as I hold her hands.

"Yes, I'm sure. I just remember it right now. But I swear! His presence and scent... he felt so familiar."

"W-what---" before I could finish my words, school bell rang. That where ended my conversation with Amanda because we have to go down to our classrom after that.

"Opss... time to go. Later, Kyle." Amanda said and I had no choice but to go to our classroom.

I still can't forget Amanda's words even after we talk. It keeps lingering in my mind. Like damn it, I don't know what to react that time she said those words. It made my mind ran all day.

Talking to Amanda doesn't made me at ease! She just added up with my undying thoughts!

I sighed then headed to the gate. It's just 4 P.M. Amanda and Leo have something to do, so I'm walking to the gate alone. Good thing, since I don't want to make Leo uneasy because of me being drown with my thoughts. I sighed.

I was walking to the gate when I felt someone grabbed my hand. "Hey! What--- Chris?" It was Chris who pulled me. "You startled me!"

"Hey, Uele! Sorry for startling you, but I have to talk to you." She said as she started to dragged me somewhere.

"Wait! Where are we going?" She didn't answered so I had no choice but to follow. She pulled me into the side part of a building then pushed me to the wall. "H-hey! What are you----"

"PLEASE UELE!" She bowed. "Take care of Clayton tomorrow!"

I unbelievably stared at her. "Huh?" Gradually, her words processed in my mind. "HUH?!"

Sge grabed my hand and held it dearly. "Please Uele! I promised Clayton that I'll bring him to the amusement park tomorrow with the tickets I got from the party. But I have work for tomorrow, they didn't let me took a day off."

I was shocked. "You have a job? Where?"

She scratched her cheek. "Convenient store near our house, I work as a cashier there."

"Isn't there anyone to go with Clayton?"

"Our neighbor who often take care of him went to her province and probably she'll come back next week. I don't know who can to take care of my son." She said then looked at me intently. "So please Uele, just for tomorrow, be with Clayton. Please!" She again bowed at me.

I bit my lower lip and sighed. "Fine, fine. Just for tomorrow, okay?" I agreed since I feel like I'm indebted with Chris and also, I felt bad for the kid since no one will take care of him tomorrow.

"What? Gracious! Thank you, Uele!" She said the hugged.

Chris might looked like weird but she's a good mother. She's studying but she still work for child. From what I saw, I know she love her son even thought she got him from a very dark reason. She's a good girl, she doesn't what happened to her.

She still hugging me, I smiled and hugged her back. Her favor was simple, I bet tomorrow will be fine...

...or not.

"Mama! Just let me go with you! I don't want to be with this..." Clayton looked at me from head to foot. "...ferret."

'F-Ferret?!'

"Hey, that's bad!"Chris scolded then she flicked her son's forehead then she kneeled in front of Clayton.

"Mama!"

Chris clicked her tongue and held her son's shoulders. "Clay, listen. Mama can't bring you to her job. You know that, right?" Clayton nodded. "That's why I asked Kyle to be here and go with you. You want to go to amusement park, right?" Clayton slowly nodded. Chris smiled and kissed Clayton's head. "Be a good boy." Chris got up ruffled her son's hair.

"You going?" She nodded.

"Take care." She smiled and I smiled back.

"You too." Chris went to the door. "I'm going." Then she went out. That left me and Clayton, alone. We're just staring at each other.

'This is so awkward!'

"Ah..." I don't know what to say. "Let's go?"

I saw his eyebrows crumpled. "Wait." He said.

"Huh?" He ran inside his room. When he went out, he's wearing a helmet used for biking.

"For my safety. Let's go." He said then went out of the house.

'This brat!'

The whole ride to the amusement park, no one's talking. Well, I planned too talk and be close to Clayton but after experiencing his bratty attitude, I rather not. I'm not a type of person who adores kids that much. If they don't like me, so be it. I don't like them either. I'll never squeeze myself into someone's interest.

Since it's so silent, I turned on the radio and listen to some music.

'~Do you remember, we were sittin', there by the water?

You put your arm around me for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best-'

Before even the song finish, the brat beside me spoke. "Turn that off."

I frowned. "What?"

"Are you deaf? I said turned that off."

I bit my lower lip to surpressed my annoyance and just followed what the brat said. I seriously want to smack him right now. He's 10 times worst than combined awful attitude of Lincoln and Calix.

"The fuck..." I mumbled.

"I heard you." He butted in. "Mama said it's bad to cursed."

I harshly blew air through my mouth. "Says the one whose too cocky for his age. Don't your Mama told you to respect me?" I trued to kept my cool.while saying that.

"Why would I respect you? You're looked like a ferret."

"F-ferret?!"

He shrugged. "You looked like one."

I narrowed my eyes. "You..!" I squeezed my eyes closed the sighed. "Yeah, whatever." I said then rolled my eyes at him.

Silence. Again, no one's speaking. I'm really pissed off right now. I starting to be annoyed with this kid's bratty attitude. I don't want to gave in with his teasing so I just kept myself from talking. It's better than to argue with him.

I thought he'll kept his mouth closed but he didn't. He spoke to me first. "You..."

"What?" I asked in annoyance.

"Why are you here with me?"

"Ain't it obvious?" I said then turned the steering wheel. "Your mama asked me a favor and that's to accompany you today since she have work. Your mama did a huge help to me, so I'm just giving back the favor."

He went into silence for a moment. "Honestly, I don't want to be with you."

I rolled my eyes. "I feel the same, brat." It's not true. If Chris didn't asked me to babysit her son, I probably be at home drowning myself with thinking about my problems. This trip made me forget about my own issues. I was thankful except from the fact that this kid has a really rotten attitude.

"Yeah, of course..." his voice suddenly changed. "Trips like this should be done with family..."

I frowned. "Didn't you have trips like this with your mama?"

Through my peripheral vision, I saw him shook his head. "Mama is busy with her jobs. She always to promise to accompany me but our plans always ended up to nothing since she's too bonded with her job."

My mouth instantly frozen, I don't know what to reply. I cleared my throat. "But... but your Mama's job is important."

"I know." He sounded so sad. "That's why I always told her not to plan anymore. I'm fine. But she kept on insisting. She said, this time we'll make it, but she didn't." He added.

"Clayton..."

"It's okay, Mr. Ferret. You won't understand me. You have complete family, right?" I hesitantly nodded. "Sometimes, I wished I have a father. Well, I asked for him but mama said he'll never come back to us. She looked so hurt everytime I asked for my father so I stop asking her." He added. "Hey, Mr. Ferret. Is it happy to have complete family?"

"Y-yeah... it is."

'This is kid... he was suffering because of his father's devilish deeds.' He's talking as if the topic was nothing to him.

After we fell into complete silence. We even when we arrived at the amusement park, Clayton kept in silence. He just removed his helmet and seatbelt, he was about to moved out of the car when I stopped him.

"Wait."

He looked at me. "Why?"

I removed my seatbelt and held his shoulder. "I have something to tell you." I said then whispered something to him. After hearing it, his eyes widened.

"What? You too?"

I plastered a sad smile. "Yeah. Me too."

-DriewNrocinu

DN's Note:

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