CAN YOU FEEL IT?

we have been friends for four years, and when the awkward situation arose between us, I felt uncomfortable.

PRISHA: What transpired?

ME: I'm happy to change to what he likes about me. I always show him the results, but he never seems to pay attention.

PRISHA: How does he ever notice you?

ME: Even though I'm not sure, I tried to let him know that I like him. He never gave a thought to his actual actions, though! I made an effort to remain patient despite the circumstances. He got so close to me that he treated me like a friend and confided in me about everything. .

he calls me and talks to me on a daily basis, as is his custom. He never treated me disrespectfully when talking to me. He accepted my attention and immature behavior with joy.

He used to say, "Please be with me as a friend." I'm really happy to share everything with you because doing so relieves me of my burden. I accepted his offer to stay by him! .

PRISHA: I 'm glad to hear that you can at least be with him.

ME: Yes, on the inside.

I'm too shy to express my feelings to you. Therefore, I'll hide behind hesitant smiles and hellos. I'm hesitant to inquire about your opinion of me. You'll say "I don't" in response.

I've known we were unique and different from other people because of the way we talk and laugh when we're together ever since we first met. that I have never met anyone who I can trust as much as I do you, and that most people spend their entire lives looking for what I've already discovered.

I've given in to your infectious laugh and your contagious smile, which makes me giddy for no apparent reason. I've become enamored with our conversations and jokes, which I remember days later and laugh at. I wanted to cry a minute before the start of the meeting, but I've fallen in love with how you can brighten my day. I also love every moment I get to spend with you, even though it always leaves me wanting more.

PRISHA: Do you really love him that much?

ME: Even though I'm unsure, the answer is the yeah.

I just want to talk to you, regardless of what we talk about.

NEYHAN: Why do you seem so content? ME: You know, how do you know?

I sense it, says NEYHAN.

ME: ohh .

NEYHAN: Do you have a boyfriend, little one?

ME: No, why do you ask it at this time? NEYHAN: Try me if you don't have, hehe. ME: Hold on, what?

screaming inside.

I'm hitting you, yes. but you're not paying attention to it.

NEYHAN: Just kidding, haha. I asked if you have a boyfriend because you were in too much of a happy mode.

ME: So if people find love, they'll be content?

They did end up being the most significant person in your life, says NEYHAN.

ME: THEN IT'S YOU, YOU'RE MY IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE, I'M SAYING INSIDE.

Don't worry about me, but sometimes I like to flirt : NEYHAN.

ME: There is no issue. .

Anybody feeling it?

Ever had a connection with someone? not just in their appearance, but also in the depth of their souls and the vibes they exude?

Along with him, I felt the emotion!

I finished my 12th public exams and am currently awaiting my results.

"Hey, I wanted to introduce my friend",said NEYHAN

ME: I'm actually not that interested.

NEYHAN: No, he genuinely desired a conversation with you.

"THEN IT IS OKAY!", I said

Meet "vas," my friend," says NEYHAN.

I really dislike the current situation,for the NEXT FEW DAYS.

NEYHAN: Do you like that person?

ME: What do you mean?

NEYHAN: I introduce him to you!

HUH WHAT DO YOU MEAN, I asked?

NEYHAN: I figured you might be able to resolve things with him.

ME: I'm not the type to go date with a stranger.

NEYHAN: It saddened me that you didn't speak to anyone in that way.

ME: I stopped talking to him because I was so furious.

VAS: Hey, what's up?

ME: HEY!

VAS: I'm kind of telling you that talking to me isn't your thing.

ME: I know, but I can speak.

Don't put yourself under pressure, VAS.

ME: No, LOL.

VAS: There is something I wanted to tell you. WHAT IS THAT?

I asked NEYHAN to introduce you because I think you're cute, VAS.

ME: I mean it seriously.

Yes, VAS.

ME: OK, thank you.

Can we go on a date?

ME: oh, nooo, yuck.

VAS: Why? What happened?

ME: I like someone.

whom is VAS?

ME: NEYHAN, don't say anything to him! VAS: DO YOU LIKE HIM, WHAT?

ME: Absolutely.

VAS: But he had a girlfriend!

ME: WTF?

VAS: Yes, he did.

ME: I was unaware of that. He never told me, and it seriously hurts.

I started to completely ignore him because it hurts so much and makes me feel like hell. He finally found his girl, and I'm happy for him!

however, despite not understanding why, I'm not pleased with the news. I find it annoying that he never mentioned having a girlfriend! That other person telling me that didn't make me happy. Would he hate me?

He didn't seem to value friendship, did he?

He may not have thought she was worth the news, though.

Did he believe she might interpret it differently?

I haven't spoken to anyone for a month and haven't even smiled because I'm completely out of it.

NEYHAN BEGINNING SENDING MESSAGE. I read it and immediately reprimanded him for keeping the news to himself. and for two years, I paid him no attention whatsoever.

I really consider how he is doing and how he is taking care of himself every minute.

Are she and he content?

If you have an ex, I can deal.

If you're upset, I'm not a problem.

I don't care if you despise me.

I don't mind if you've had any romantic experiences.

Your past doesn't bother me at all.

I accept your gift without issue.

Your future is alright in my eyes.

I don't care if you're wealthy or not.

I don't care if you have money or not.

I don't care if you have a bike or not.

If you have a house, great. If not, no problem.

I appreciate you exactly as you are. I truly. loving you. I really, really loved you. .

PRISHA: That is too terrible. but I can say that he is a very lucky man to have you love him.

ME: YEAH, but I'm not the unfortunate one.

PRISHA: Why, sweetie?

ME: He didn't show me any love.

PRISHA: You're happy that he is now, right? Good things always take time, dear, don't worry.

ME: I'm glad, indeed. I want him to be happy forever.

I'm the type of girl who, in contrast to other girls, doesn't have any jealousy or ego. I'm too kind for others, I enjoy helping others, and I've always been eager to offer full assistance when needed.

Other girls are not like me at all.

Before meeting him, I had never felt jealous. I don't give a damn about appearance, and I won't pass judgment on how others live their lives.

Yes, if you mention any other girls, I'll feel envious.

Yes, if you treat any girls well, I will become envious.

Yes, I will feel envious if you have romantic thoughts for someone, but I won't say it.

I'm aware that I'm difficult to love. I tend to overthink things and react inappropriately. I might occasionally feel a little insecure, but only if I'm in love with you. I can promise you with all my heart that I will love you with such passion and intensity that you will forget how life was before I was there. There will always be someone in your corner. Though I like to think I'm pretty good at loving you, I may not be the best at loving others.

After he entered the relationship, NEYHAN and I didn't speak to each other very often, and I completely avoided him. We each have our own unique ways.

I once wondered how he was doing. So I texted him, asking, "How are you?".

He answered, "Yeah, I'm doing great.

ME: I questioned him about his life because I felt okay.

NEYHAN: First of all, I apologize to you and to for not bringing up our relationship.

Simply put, I forget to say. ME:

No problem, everything's fine.

How are things going?

He sent me some photos of him and his girlfriend, and they really upset me,

ME: I like the way the two of you look together. Yes, I lied once more.

The exchange comes to a close. And there are no longer any conversations between us; it appears that we have become old friends again.

PRISHA: Oh my God, man, you have such patience!

ME: I'm surprised too, you know.

What transpired next, PRISHA?

ME: I MADE A MISTAKE!

PRISHA: Can you clarify?

ME: I thought I should forget about he and started dating his friend, who I loved, so I started doing things my way.

PRISHA: What is the error in that? Your realization that someone can accept your love is awesome.

ME: No, I did it out of resentment and jealousy.

PRISHA: WHAT?

ME: Neyhan and his friend were classmates in school and friends in their youth.

PRISHA: Who is he named after?

ME: I'd rather not mention.

PRISHA: I might be able to guess, but my memory isn't great.

I have a poor memory. .

I began dating friend of NEYHAN. which is the only way to exit the in NEYHAN discussion. And we haven't spoken in months, ME and NEYHAN. I'm trying to understand friend of Neyhan. I genuinely behaved in that way. I really dislike dating people.

What has happened to you, NEYHAN texted me?

You seem to be a little busy right now? Are you ok?

ME: I'm hanging out with my boyfriend right now!

Guys, I tried to make him jealous, but it didn't work.

NEYHAN: Wow, you've got a boyfriend. You omitted to tell me.

ME: Get back at you for what you did. NEYHAN: HAHAHA. Who is that person? ME: I brought up his name.

NEYHAN: What ? are you mad?

ME: WHAT JUST HAPPENED AND WHY? NEYHAN: What do you know about him? ME: No, but we're trying to understand one another.

Who can you love if you don't? asks NEYHAN.

ME: ME, I AM.

NEYHAN: what?

ME: I have a crush on you.

NEYHAN: Hold on, this isn't funny; I'm being serious.

ME: AND I'M SERIOUS. Okay, bye,

NEYHAN. Later, he avoided talking to me. Is he enraged by our relationship?

Is he upset that I have a relationship but he doesn't?

Is he upset because he loves his friend?

Is he upset that he isn't paying attention to him?

He seemed upset when I told him I had a crush on him. . No one is giving me anything.

After a few days, he called me in a rage. Choosing between him and me? WHAT IS HAPPENING?

Tell me, NEYHAN, in a serious tone.

ME: YOU.

NEYHAN: Tell to break up with him, act like a nice girl, and remember that you're is no longer a child.

That is the first time I have ever seen him angry, and I never thought I would. I ended my relationship with one of his friends after that and we never spoke again.

NEYHAN and I carried on talking. He's back, and I'm glad to see him. After speaking with his girlfriend, I felt more confident in her ability to look after him. aside from that.

Why did he advise me to end things with his friend, I wondered?

Is he feeling envious?

or Is the individual I select disliked by him? or was it love?

Anyway, I thought about leaving NEYHAN with his girlfriend, said my goodbyes, and vowed never to bother him again. I promised him as we said our goodbyes that I would buy him his favorite bike in the future.

PRISHA: ARE YOU HAPPY?

ME: NO .

PRISHA: So why did you approve of their relationship?

ME: I have no right to refuse.

PRISHA: Did you forge any information for him?

ME: Absolutely.

GOOD DAY, NEYHAN. I have never forgotten the two promises I've made.

I'll be your well-wisher because I NEVER leave you.

2: I WILL BUY YOU YOUR FAVORITE BIKE.

PRISHA: Do you feel relieved now?

ME: OMG!

PRISHA: Did you put NEYHAN behind you and close the chapter on him?

Me: "NOOOOO.". THIS IS JUST GETTING BEGUN.

PRISHA: WHAT? I'm losing my patience. ME: LOL. .