Trapped

𝑿𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒓'𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽

Driving in a boner to the office was torture for me, and not being able to concentrate on anything else made life difficult for me. Ever since she walked in that door, all I could think about was her.

How little she looked, how terrified she seemed, how shy she was, how beautiful she looked when she walked in the hall, how cute she looked when she blushed. How attracted I immediately felt with her, it made me pissed.

Maybe I would have gone easy on her if she wasn't so shy and reserved, like she had a dark past she ran away from. The same way Alesia looked when we first met, I'll never forget that day in my life. She reminded me a lot of the woman I wished I forgot about and that made me hate her and want to make life hard for her. Or so I thought.

No matter how much I tried to not stare, I found myself getting lost in her eyes whenever she looks at me, I find my wall slowly cracking just at the sight of her eyes. The same way I got lost in Alesia's eyes. I found myself comparing them both but she always comes back better than that bitch.

But still I didn't like it.

I got to the office late than expected and went straight to my office to find a busy Rosaline, with her face glued to her little notebook, writing what I assume to be the activities of today while being so occupied with it.

I decided to use the opportunity to take a closer look at her fragile face. Her lashes were so long and thick, her lips so plump, her brown skin so smooth, she looked like she lost hella weight and was so small compared to my height. I towered over her and she always looked up to me whenever I talked about anything, and I loved that feeling of her looking up to me.

She noticed me somehow and immediately stood up startled, I sucked in my cheek to stop myself from smiling at how cute that was and just dropped some folders on her desk whilst taking my coffee and taking a quick sip from it.

I'm well aware of the things other employees say about her and it's enough for me to know that they don't like her, I mean I was very partial in my selection. No matter how much I try to deny it, I just couldn't let her go especially when she reminded me so much about Alesia my ex.

Watching Rose leave in that taxi and in her state made my heart hurt. And knowing I was the cause of her pain made me even more mad at myself. Why did I embarrass her that way? The document incident wasn't as serious as I made it seem. They could have sent someone back to the office to retrieve it but something in me got mad.

The look in her eyes when she said those words to me, pure hatred. Is this really what I wanted? Am I satisfied with the outcome of my outburst?

Of course not. I feel bad, sad, empty? I felt rage, and I needed someone to lash out on and I knew just the right person.

I drove like a madman to the building and when I got there, I didn't bother to lock the door of my car, I left it open for the valet to take care of it. Walking inside the building, I went straight to the media floor and immediately they all saw me coming, they stood up immediately.

I scanned around the room for one person and when I found that person, I felt my inside burn with anger.

"It was you, you switched the documents and cost me half a million dollars. You're fired and before that, you're expected to pay the company 500 million dollars through anyway possible. I don't care how you do it, you can always call mommy and daddy for help." I said in a dangerously low voice.

She immediately started stammering a few incoherent words and I turned to leave when she spoke..

"But I didn't switch the papers, I sw-swear Mr Woods I wasn't the one who switched the documents. It was Lily!" She points to a girl I assume was Lily.

"Wait what? I did? You instructed me to do it, you wanted to get rid of her the most so why are you suddenly blaming me?" She spat, but made zero effort to beg like the first girl.

"I only did what my superior instructed me to do, I was only following orders."

Tired of their bickering, I walked out of the building to my car and finally drove off to my best friend and childhood friends club. I needed a drink right now, I feel like I'll go crazy any moment from now.

I felt sick to my stomach.

What have I done? Can I correct my mistake? Will she ever give me a second chance? I can't lose her, not like this.

I felt trapped in my own heart.