A Realization...
Karna's P.O.V,
Haaa….
We really are strange, aren't we?...
Before meeting Devi* Kunti, the one who gave me life, I was concerned about only one fact…
Will I be able to stop myself? Won't my endless hatred and discontent will burst out at a moment? Being abandoned by her not once but twice, will I be capable of control myself?
Or… I would do the unthinkable?
Like, how weird it is to hate our creator?
I know, I understand clearly that… I shouldn't have any negative thoughts about her…
And YET!
The fury, envy, humiliation, misery, or discrimination, I once experienced was all due to a single creature!
She was the centre of everything happened to me!
During the time I was but a baby, such thoughts like them plagued me for years. By the grace of Maa Shakti, I am blessed with two caring Mothers, two silent guardian (Fathers) and lastly, a silly but dependable brother, they shielded me from falling into the chaos and losing the right way.
Haha…
Albeit, even it wasn't enough to prevent me to hide my true self under a veil of ignorance and innocence, making a futile attempt to forgot my dark past…
…
"Attention! Raj-Mata is arriving with her Entrange!"
Tap~
Tap~
'Look, the source of your misery has arrived~ Hehe~'
'She has abandoned you!'
'She is your sinner!'
'Oh, her child had killed you unfairly!'
'Tch! Which mother was incapable of recognizing her child?! Oh, she did!'
'Will let her go, just like that?'
'Let us come out, we will take care of everything! Karna! Let us out! Hahaha!!!'
When I heard her footsteps of that Woman*, numerous chaotic thoughts resurfaced into my mind, they tried enticing me by using lucrative words, trying to deviate me from my real identity and... let that amalgamation of chaos and hatred out in this innocent world!
Thinking that if I gazed at her would've flared the demons by looking at Devi Kunti's figure, thereby… I put my head down and intended to ran far away from her!
At that time, whether it was her shadow, the air she breath and her sight, I wanted to be out from the reach of anything which belongs to her!
"Putra, lets welcome our elders~"
"Hmm."
Regardless of my emotions, I couldn't bring myself to disrespect Mata Gandhari, so I dropped down my unnecessary thoughts and obediently listened to Gandhari Maa.
Then…
Maybe I was influenced by the grievous child was longing for his real mother, that's why I sneaked a peak at her face. Which was… my greatest mistake!
When my gaze landed on her melancholic face, bereft of any joy or happiness, the demons inside me vanished without a trace…
Momentarily though, our gazes met… Her eyes…They were filled with utter devastation and emptiness… Aside from a single unstable flame, which may disappear at any given moment… There was nothing in left inside her.
If not for her sole responsibility as a mother, her soul would have discarded her worthless body without a single thought.
It awakened my merry memories that I had spent with Radha Maa, Pita-Shri, Maa Ganga in this life while the moments spent with my dearest friend Duryodhana, esteemed Guru-Ji or my lovely wives of my previous life, it was all possible because she abandoned me. Otherwise… I wouldn't be able to meet many such precious souls.
Though it was a little tough, my slim longing for revenge died down (Temporarily)… replacing it with just pity…
…
Haha…
Looking back at my past self, I can't help but laugh at my poor past self…
And, how can I not?
The uncountable nights, I've wasted thinking about this was all but for naught.
Heh…
….
Fuuu…
Anyways, it was meaningless to dwell on such thoughts.
From now on, I shall focus solely on my purposes without any burden from the uncertainty stemmed from meeting my adversaries.
Let us step towards a wonderful future, awaiting us with open arms!
Though, we have to pass through a multitude of trouble along the way…
Haha!
….
To be continued...
{Next part- The Kauravas}
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Author's note:
So….
Yeah. It's done. The break is finished. I had overcome the great Ashura known as Jee-mains and is on my way towards the greatest Demon known as THE RESULTS!!!
I am really thankful for your encouragement and will forever remember them, deep inside my heart. After all, there's a little time left before the descent of lord Yama.
Until then, let me present you a great work~^^