I Need You...

It's been a week since Kazu left. At first, Izaya couldn't notice that he took his things and just judged it a situation that he needed a vacation. But as days went by, he felt the tiny hole he left in Izaya's heart. It was small but he treasured it, Kazu even said he won't leave him so why… that's what all Izaya thought. When he finally noticed that he wasn't coming back, it took him a week to finally agree with himself that he was abandoned.

It brings back the memory of his childhood days, the sweet and nightmare days. He tried what he could do, he called Kazu many times, texted him, and went to places he thought he'll go. He even tried his relatives but he wasn't there. It made him realize how much he doesn't know about Kazu.

'Maybe… he's at the bridge?'

He hurriedly went down to the bridge they first met however he wasn't there.

'Where he could be… don't leave me please…'

Izaya was restless. He didn't eat, he didn't take a shower or even clean his apartment. He was too busy thinking about Kazu. Kazu is all he has. Even though at first he just took him for fun and that he resembles him when he was abandoned but as he knows him, he was different. He can see from his eyes a cuss and also when he teased it just made him feel weird and fun. If he can have a chance again, he'll try to lessen his horny stage, less the slaving dog, and the promise that he can go back to university. You could say he will do everything if he goes back.

Suddenly he heard a ring. His phone rang, he took it out from his pocket and then he saw his name. My Mutt.

My Mutt

Hello? Are you the asshole? If you are, Kaz is here at Naroco Bar. I don't think I can keep him here for months, he'll make this place gay free.

He got a text message from Kazu yet the one who did wasn't Kazu, even so, this is was his only clue. He went to find Naroco Bar.

***

He arrived at his destination. He went inside and saw no customers. Then suddenly a petite guy went closer to him. He stretched his hand as he smiles "I'm Kim Jaemin, Kaz friend"

Izaya shooked it "Izaya, his boss"

Jaemin clicked his tongue many times as he waved his finger "No-no-no. You are the asshole, who changed his life"

"Asshole?"

Jaemin nodded "Anyway, before this becomes gay free, Kaz is at the back over there, at the black door. I made him prepare some food as I make this a private meeting with you. So take him away before I—" he went near to Izaya ear "force you to have fun with me. Although I eat virgin like there's nothing wrong with an experienced one" He winked and left the bar.

'I should be careful of him'

Izaya followed Jaemin's advice. He stood there, waiting patiently for Kazu to come. He could feel sweating forming on his head, he was too nervous. It has been days since he last saw him. It felt years for him, yet he can't just let him go. He gulped and pushed his hair down. He looked straight at the black door.

All of a sudden, it opened roughly. Kazu kicked the door as he bought a plate of Spaghetti.

"Fuck you, Jaemin. Why did you leave your leftover condoms in the fucking kitchen, you bitch"

Kazu put down the plate and looked at him "Why can't you fuck somewhere else, fucking Jaemin. God you—"

He paused. There was no tiny guy inside the bar. There were only a good looking guy, five foot tall and eyes who couldn't stop tears falling. Kazu's eyes widened and shaken.

'How can this be? How did he find me?'

Kazu took a step back as he looked around. He tried to find Jaemin but he wasn't there. On the other hand, Izaya tears won't stop. He wiped them off and went closer to Kazu yet Kazu was also staying away.

They did it back and forth until Kazu was stuck on the door. He knew he messed up. It has been days since he ran away, he tried to understand his feeling and he accepted it partially however, that does not mean he was ready to face him. He doesn't know what face he should do, either way, his face was already flustered just seeing him.

Izaya slammed both of his hands in the door to prevent him from escaping. This was his only chance to get him back and if it doesn't work, he'll use force such as the contract.

"Why did you leave?" Izaya asked.

"..."

"Why didn't you come back?"

Kazu didn't respond.

Izaya grabbed Kazu's chin and lifted to fix his gaze.

"Answer me. Why did you leave?"

Kazu's face was hot like on fire, he could tell himself how he drowned from the deep sea of Izaya eyes. He was too mesmerized to answer but to avoid him falling further, he averted his eyes.

Izaya narrowed his eyes. All the grief he suffered would not go down. He was desperate yet he was relieved he found him. Izaya went closer to his lips and kissed him deeply.

Kazu eyes widen, he tries to escape but his ownself doesn't want to. They continued kissing until Izaya slipped his tongue and licked up and down his mouth. He devoured him like he hasn't been eaten for years. He sucked him up and kissed him again. Kazu felt the pleasure he half missed. His whole body couldn't contain the pleasure and fall off. He lost his energy.

Izaya stopped to look at the miserably Kazu, fall on the ground as he wiped his lips, his eyes were full of rage. Izaya misses that. He immediately hugged Kazu tightly, patted his head.

"I wouldn't ask anymore. So please don't leave me again"

"I–"

"Oh come on, you aren't done yet? I have customers waiting outside, I can't let my lunch go spoiled you know"

Jaemin interrupted. He grabbed Kazu and went upstairs. He took out the bag, clothes hanging in the closet and some stuff he can find.

"Since you are having a conversation with Asshole, I'll take it you guys are good and you are ready to go"

He slammed the bag on Kazu's chest "It is not because I've grown tired of being forced to have sex at Kitchen. No not at all"

Jaemin pushed Kazu to downstairs. He smiled and waved "it's nice seeing you again but for real. Leave"

Kazu's eyes scattered as he regains himself from numerous happenings. He was too scared to go back with Izaya, he knows this will leads to the dirty stuff. He gulped as he looked at the smiling Izaya.

'Am I really going back?'

Izaya didn't question anymore, instead, he reached out to get Kazu luggage. Kazu refused, he pulled the luggage as he nervously back away from Izaya. Right now he still does not know what he should do. Does he only just leave? Or get away from Izaya.

"You know, we still have a contract. You're not going to break it are you?"

Kazu flinched. That right, he has a contract he needs to follow. He slowly gave in and let Izaya get the luggage.

"I'm. I'm going back not because of the contract. I'm just worried the mess you did in the apartment"

Kazu excuses, for now, he wants to know what he feels. Why is he okay with Izaya touches? Why isn't it disgusting like others? He was mean, yet he was just lonely.

"Let's go home… Kazu"

Kazu's heart beat fast. That was different. It was a sweet tone and was this the first time he called his name? His lips curved as his face flushed. He will not get used to it, blushing at every word he says.