"it's my turn to holds your hand" Alex POV

4 years ago, I was a seniors at middle school, 3rd grade.

at empty store alley

" ack" a girl moaning in pain

three girls surrounded her. all of them wear high school uniforms.

"you, you better know your place" a girl with wavy brown hair grab Hyo Joo hair's

"aaack, it's hurt" Hyo Joo moaning again

"who are you actually?" the girl with black hair and wears Channel ribbon at her hair ask Hyo Joo

"I, I'm Kim Hyo Joo"

a girl with a bigger body and tie her hair to ponytail step on Hyo Joo leg

"you just a a 3rd grade middle school student, but you already acting as a bitch" she said

"I'm sorry, but I didn't know why all of you treat me like this?" Hyo Joo speak

"hey, help her stand" the girl with Channel ribbon command others two.

"you didn't know? or you pretend not knowing the reason why we do this" she touch Hyo Joo face

"I think this pretty face must become a canvas for my arts" she take a marker from her bag and begin to write something in Hyo Joo's face.

when she want you start someone grab her hand and stop her.

she pull her hand

"let my hand, how dare you" she turn around her body and got really shocks

"A...Alex oppa" she said

"how dare you call your sunbae (senior) as oppa (older brother)" I said

"I'm sorry sunbae " she said

"what you doing ?" I ask

"I, I just.. hey, let her go" she ask her friends to let Hyo Joo hand immediately . Hyo Joo fall yo the ground.

"ah, we just playing, don't get wrong sunbae"

"really?" I said

"yes, this kid is a middle school girl but she already seduce many boys at our school. so I just give her a warn" she really nervous hears from her trembling voice

"hm... is that so?" I said

"then who is she seduced?" I ask

"Yoon and you" she said

"me " Yoon walk closer , he's been waiting behind the alley

"I told you not to interfere " I said to Yoon

"but she said my name, so I came. cool right" Yoon smile

"actually you'll need my help" Yoon said

I push the girl with Channel ribbon to the wall, her friend is freaking out.

"who are you to judge someone is seducing or not seducing me?" I ask her

"but, but, she just keep following you. I just, I just" she speak stammered

I put my hand on her neck

"if you don't know anything, don't pretend to be. as you plays with my sister" I said

"uhuk...uhuk" she begin coughing cause I strangle her

"we are sorry sunbae, please forgive us" her two others friends kneeling down

"ah so you said just because she's Alex sister so you won't annoys her. as if other close with us you will tortures them?" Yoon said

"I...it..hu...hurts" the girl almost out of breath from my strangle

"Alex, stop it. I think it's enough " Yoon take my hands of from that girl neck.

she's falling down to the ground

"if I see you disturbing my sister or anyone. I won't let you all. I'll make sure you'll live miserably at school, and you will transfer as your own will" I said to them

"yes, we won't do it again. we are sorry, truly"

"uhuk...uhuk..."

"and for you, get out from school as fast as you can, or my father will take our investment from your father company. I don't want to see your face tomorrow " I said to her

I walk to Hyo Joo

"Hyo joo, hyo joo-ya..." I try to wake her up. I piggy back her and take a taxi to nearest hospital.

next day, at my bedroom

ring...ring...ring... my phone is ringing

" ah, hee jin-a, I'm sorry I leave you at the Cafe yesterday. I..."

"let's break up" Hee Jin said

"what?" I said

"l said let's break up, I won't repeat it again" Hee Jin said

"but why? if it is about yesterday I'm so sorry I'll explain to you" I said

"no, I don't want to hear anything. we're done. you think just you is the one who has big role in our relationship? you think I'm a joke for you"

"Hee jin-a calm down" I said

"why I'm the one who must humiliated. why I'm the one who always back down for you, why I'm the only one who loves you?"

"Hee jin-a it's not true" I said

"...." shut the phone

"Hee jin-a..." I call her name

she end the call without even give me a chances to explain.

knock...knock...knock...

someone knock my door

"just get in" I said

a girl with many badges come in

"oppa, " it's Hyo Joo

"ah, have you fell better?" i ask

"yes, because oppa " she said

"hey, it's my duty, come sits here" I ask her to sit in my study chair.

"I'm sorry that I came so late" I said while holding her hands

"I'm sorry cause makes you got into trouble "

I said

"it's not oppa faults " she said

"listen, if I get 1st at exam dad promised to me to let you enter the main house"

she let her hand from my hold

"oppa doesn't need to do that. I'll come back at my mom's house" she said

"no, move here. I'll protect you and I promises you won't be lonely" I said

"so pray for me okay. I'll get 1st this time"

I stroke her head.

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now

I look at Hyo Joo, she's getting better. it's been a long week, but she always smiling and never give up. she doesn't have nightmares anymore, she even walk with Leo around neighborhood.

our psychiatrist put many things some of them relate to kidnapped. she begin to sort out that thing, and we can see she's can deal with several things that connects with the incident.

at the way back to Leo's house

"Hyo joo, you remembered Hee Jin?" I ask while driving the car

"ah, is that oppa first love? never meet her, but oppa have told me before. oppa will call me everyday and talk about her"

"yes, you right" I said

"why oppa suddenly ask about it?" she ask

"no, just, i meet here several days ago" I said

"really, here in LA? wah..." she's looking happy

"can I meet her?" she ask

"why? she's not my girlfriend anymore " I said

"but, she's a girl who dated oppa before, someone who made oppa happy back then" she said

"really" I said

"you really my beloved little sister. let's go, let's eat dinner together. I'll call her, but is it okay for you to eat at the crowd?"

"ah, I'm okay oppa. I'm good. I can endure it" she said

"okay, i will ask her if she can go for dinner with us"

"oppa ask it because of me or because oppa want it?" she ask with clingy expression

"hm..." I coughing

"oppa, don't worry so much about me. I'm grown up girl, this is the time for oppa happiness. cause oppa happiness is mine too" she holds my hand

"but, how can I be happy if you like this. as a brother I failed to protect you" I can't look her in the eyes. I keep looking the road

"oppa..." she calls me

"why?" I said

"oppa, promised will always protect me and grant my wish right?" she said

"yes, of course " I said

"then promises me you will grant anything I wish" she said

I pull over the car

"i wish, what do you want?" I said

"I'll tell you later. let's makes a promise sign" she said

we link our pinky and put our thumbs together

"yes, I promises" I said

"now let's go home" she shout happily

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2 days later

"wah, oppa looks so handsome " she said

"yes, you really look handsome bro" Leo said

I wear fancy suit, we will have dinner in fancy place tonight. we can't eat at regular place cause it will to crowded and I'm not sure Hyo joo can handle it. I look at the mirror, why I'm so nervous to meet Hee Jin, we just eat dinner, beside Hyo joo and Leo join us too.

I drive the car, Leo and Hyo Joo sit at the back. they keep talking about game and fighting like a kids. why I feel so old suddenly.

after 30minutes we arrives at the restaurant. we enter the restaurant. the first thing I notice is Hyo joo take a deep breath before entering the restaurant. she keep holding Leo's hand and hide it. we go to VIP room, three of us sit at the chair waiting for Hee Jin. 5 minutes later Hee Jin came. she wears black dress simple cut but looks so elegant and fit with her. I spontaneously stand when she enter the room.

Hyo Joo and Leo just giggling.

we finally eat our dinner together. after dinner we talking a little.

"just like I imagined, Hee Jin Unnie (sister/older girl) looks so beautiful " Hyo joo said

"thank you, you too" she said

"ah, I'm Leo. Alex cousin " Leo introduce himself

"nice to meet you" Hee Jin said

"oppa always talk about unnie to me. unnie so special for him" Hyo Joo said

"Hyo joo..." I said and give her a code to stop

"ah, it's been a long time ago. when we still together " I said

"really" Hee Jin smile

"excuses me. I need to go to a restroom " Hee Jin said

"ah, let's go together " Hyo Joo ask

after several minutes Hee Jin and Hyo joo come back.

"oppa, I feel unwell. I want to go home" Hyo Joo said

"okay, I'll take you home" I said

"no, I'll back with Leo" Hyo joo said

"no, I can't let you drive" I insist

" don't worry, I have my license " Leo smile widely

"No" I said

Hyo Joo hold my hand

"oppa said will grant all my wish. then please stay here" Hyo Joo whisper

"but I..." I said

"I'll call oppa when we reach home. promises me you will enjoy your night. don't make a silly mistake. bye"

they leave the room. now just me and Hee Jin at the VIP room. I stand at the corner looking into some paint.

"if you not comfortable we can leave this place and back home" Hee Jin said

"no, no. please stay" I said

"why you can't look at me?" she ask

" I'm sorry Hee Jin for every..." I turn my body and suddenly Hee Jin hugs me

"I'm the one who should say sorry. I was so selfish back then. I broke up and dumped you without give you a chances to explained. I just cares about what my friends thought and not yours" she said

"and said heartless words to you. if I can turn back the time. I won't say that words. I won't break up with you"

"I'm sorry Hee Jin, that's the only thing I can said" I said, I still not hug her, I just let my hands hang in the place.

she let her hug and walk back

"Hyo joo told me everything. what happened that day. the reason why you leave me that day"

she said

"and I'm so sorry, I will regret all my life if I holds you back that day" she begin crying

"let's sit first "

we sit

"can I ask something?you said you feel guilty to Hyo joo. but why? it's not your faults"

I take a deep breath

"Hyo Joo's mom is my father first wife. but she's not able to give my father a child. cause of family pressures my father married again with my mom, several months later I was born. at that time my father thinks his life is complete and begin to forgot Hyo Joo's mom presences. but one day at hyo Joo's mom birthday he spend a week there. and we hear good news after that, Hyo Joo's mom pregnant, along with bad news that the pregnancy have high risk. but hyo Joo's mom still want to keep it. after that Hyo Joo's born, but just 2 hours after her mom passed away. my father who really loves Hyo Joo's mom can't bear the pain. my father leave Hyo joo with her aunt. my father blame Hyo joo for his wife dead. year after years I'm searching how to contacting her. finally I find her and we begin to talk from phone, texting or playing without our parents know. until that day I'm too excited, I drop her at her school and rumors also gossip spread. she's getting bullied. so I try to bring her to our house. the place she should be live. I feel guilty cause I can't protect her, I feel guilty cause my mom take her father and just if I not fall from the stairs that night my father can go earlier to hospital and be there with Hyo Joo's mom. that guilty feelings always haunt me"

Hee Jin holds my hands

"I'm sorry, I never knew about it. as long as I can remembered I'm the one who always act selfish. I never considered your feelings"

"as I said before she is my sister, we have same father, we share same blood after all. although at first I feel guilty for take her place as legitimate heirs ,but it's grow become real brother sister relationships. and if you ask again about my priorities. then the answer still same, she, Hyo joo still become my first priority"

"Alex..." she puts her hand at my right cheek

"you always holds my hands when we together, you always give me a couraged and cherished me back then. you are the one that always holds me when I'm losing my way. now it's my turn to holds your hand, and I'll never let it go" she said while smiling

I get closer to her and kissing her. we close our eyes and enjoy the sweet kisses.

"now I don't have a car to take me home" I said

"then, don't go home" she said

I look at her, she seems so shy

"come to my place" she said

I kiss her again

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meanwhile

"I said turn left"

"no GPS said turn right, are you crazy?"

hyo joo and Leo fight over a road map and ended hit some tree, the car get towed and they back home with taxi.

"cih"

they both sighting

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