I officially hate my one and only friend
Now
The cast is celebrating holidays this year together, the filming is crazy, we are so busy and so behind schedule that vacation isn’t really possible. Tonight we are celebrating Christmas, and because everyone was so busy filming I had no time to buy presents, so last minute, as usual, me and Sharon went into London city and spent our money like water, but we are not done yet.
“What should I buy Violet?” I ask Sharon as we look through racks of clothing. Thrifting is so much better in England than in Australia, you have so many good products here for such a responsible price and I can’t leave good stuff hanging so I buy everything I like.
“Are you going to buy her something at all?” Sharon states, she gives me a frown.
“Well, yes, she is still someone who we work with, she’ll probably get us something so let us return the favour.”
“You are probably right, it is just that I find it ridiculous, I don’t like her.”
“You remind me of someone.”
“Really, who?”
“A child.”
We both giggled our way through the city, bodyguards guarding us from afar so it’s not so obvious, but we are still safe. For Felix I bought a tea cup which said ‘male tears’ . I laughed so hard with Sharon that we almost spilled female tears in there. For Roman I bought a toy pen, it is a pen you can take apart and then put in new details, something with magnets. For Zelda, a mini pocket projector, she always streams videos through her phone and everyone wants to watch it with her and then we all sit together and watch videos on the smallest screen evere, so this present will even do me a favour. Otis will receive a knit cuffed beanie that’s red with a cherry imprinted on it, he always has one on and I think that this one will be the best of all. Violet, a mini waffle maker, was on sale and cost around 10 bucks and I have no other idea for what to get her. At last but not least Vincent, a tie. It is black and has written on the back of it.’V.D’ I didn’t have it specially made, Vincent is just so popular that there are ties named after him.
Mental scoff.
When we get back to the apartment that all of us are staying in, we see Violet lying on the floor with her legs on the sofa, a creepy face mask resting on her face and her reading Vogue. Sharon and I share a glance before we walk to our room as quietly as possible. Our plan fails.
“Girls!” Violet. Sharon and I turn around slowly and she’s still lying in that same position.
“It is kinda rude to walk in and not greet me, but I forgive you, now, come sit.” She says.
“What is it Violet, we want to change before the celebration begins.” Sharon tells her, her voice is on the edge.
“I think Vincent likes me.”
What. I feel my heart somewhere it shouldn’t be. I shouldn’t believe this little psychopath but I still have doubts. This shouldn’t bother me. Since I came here to England my head has been possessed with thoughts about Vincent and I need to understand that I am not a part of his life.
“That is great for you.” I say calmly.
“No, that is great for us.” She says and gets up while giving me glare, I can’t see it but I can feel that she gives me one even through her face mask that makes her look like peppa pig.
“It sure is, now we are going to change.” Sharon said irritated with her as usual.
“Why aren’t you happy for me?” Violet almost demands. Oh god, this stupid ass woman.
“We are happy for you both.” I say, exaggerating ‘both’. She scoffs and comes closer to us.
“You need to realise that he isn’t yours and he never was.”
“Of course.” I muttered sarcastically before I walked into our room with Sharon.
The evening rised fast. Before the presents would be exchanged and gifted we all decided that we would want to watch a movie first. Because we didn’t have a fancy television where we could watch netflix or youtube we had to do it with the channels. Because contemporary Christmas movies are very, very fake and not interesting at all, Sharon, my best friend from now on not bestfriend, found a channel where ‘beautiful lies’ was playing.
Which leads us to this incredibly awkward situation. It’s good that Vincent isn’t here yet. But everybody else is, and soon Vincent too. I only watched the premiere and that’s it, I find it strange to watch the movie, after what happened and all. So this feels very strange. I remember scenes and what I did after and before, when I studied the script, when I was with Vincent laughing in the background.
“It’s not that simple.” Said my voice from years ago. I know what’s going to happen, and I know that I don’t want to be here when it happens.
“What are we watching?” Oh, god, Vincent is back.
12 Years ago.
“It’s not that simple.” I say. I hope my voice doesn’t crack. I am nervous. This will be the first time I will kiss, and also in front of the camera, with my crush! Vincent stands in front of me, with a bouquet of flowers. He doesn’t seem nervous at all.
Lately we have grown apart from each other, he has a lot of interviews and photoshoots, and I do too but not as much. Also filming has been quite hectic and I have been busy as well, I have seen him once these past two weeks and that is today.
“Why?” His voice is full of emotion, like he is really begging his lover to be with him, but this is all just an act and I am part of it in real life.
“Because you are a duke, a person who owns the land my family lives on. I can’t just be with you, I see you as a… as a…” Just read the script, just read the script.
“As a what? You know my feelings, I just confessed to you for god’s sake!”
I stayed quiet. He looked really frustrated, I would really fall for him if this was real.
“I am going to do something, and if you don’t like it, you must push me away.”
This is the moment. He walks closer towards me and I start to tremble slowly. He notices but doesn’t stop acting, to my surprise his lips turn towards my ear as he whispers “just relax, I don’t want to hurt you” in my ear and I do, I immediately relax and when I feel his lips on mine, I don’t push him away, in the contrary I hold him closer.