50 50 Alone in the Dark Room

“Rafał” Damian didn't think about what he was saying, his words just came straight from his heart “despite what happened between us today, I hope you will still consider me a friend. You know, friends have different experiences between them. Maybe most of the time they're not that intimate, but even if they are, let's make them only strengthen our relationship, not spoil it, okay?”

Was that even possible? If Damian had slept with a woman, could he dare to expect friendship from her yet?

But Brylski was not a woman. He was a man. After one night together he should not expect any particular emotional closeness, Unless, in fact, with his asexuality he had developed a romantic feeling towards Radosz that allowed him to become demisexual.

However, Damian could not know that for sure, although somewhere deep in his heart he hoped so.

Rafał smiled at him, however, and something unpleasantly squeezed Radosz's stomach and heart.

Would they both be able to act as if nothing had happened that night?

Would they be able to think and... feel that way?

No, that was probably not possible - going back to the way things were before. Looking into those blazing green eyes, adorned with diamonds of tears, Damian knew himself that they wouldn't be able to go back. He himself had become too involved for them to return to an ordinary friendship.

Those beautiful green eyes of a frightened, wild kitten that longs for human touch but is afraid of it.

Only a caress can tame him and take the loneliness away from him.

Only a caress...

The thoughts drifted from Damian's mind.

Rafał's eyes, moist with tears, his lips, too scared to form a smile, the warmth of his cheek...

Wild, scared, alone and so absolutely beautiful...!

Their faces moved closer together and Damian didn't know who initiated the kiss, but after a moment they were both drowning in his moist, hot breath.

The last lights of reason were extinguished in Damian's mind. Rafał was taking his mind off of him.

***

Jakub Wolak's body hurt no less than his offended pride. Rafal Brylski was supposed to be the laughing stock of the whole set today, and Jakub was supposed to shine, but that damned Damian Radosz spoiled everything! Not only did he protect Brylski from total humiliation, but also he threw Jakub off his rhythm and, most of all, he made director Różycki furious. Różycki was never able to deal with his anger in any other way than by taking it out on someone. And although Brylski and Radosz were to blame for the whole situation, Jakub became the object on which the director vented his frustration.

Bloody pervert!

After an argument with Radosz, Różycki almost forcefully dragged Jakub to a caravan and took him without preparation, dryly and forcefully, bringing pain to the young actor. Wolak tried to resist, to defend himself, but Różycki told him to shut his mouth and be a good boy. He squeezed his hands tighter and reminded him who had more power here and thanks to whom Jakub got this role. As if Wolak could ever forget that.

What Różycki did to him that day was not pleasant. It probably wasn't even legal. However, Jakub couldn't object and he couldn't complain to anyone because he would have admitted that he got the role through bed. There was sex and there was a tangible benefit - the gossip media would make him a whore. Not that Jakub had anything against whores, he had once taken advantage of a male prostitute himself, but he definitely didn't want anyone calling him that term. Being a whore would ruin his reputation and career and that was something Jakub could not allow to happen. He couldn't ruin a career that was just beginning.

A man sometimes has to grit his teeth to make the right gains. Life is full of small sacrifices. Jakub was willing to sacrifice even more to achieve his goal.

However, it looked like getting rid of this amateur from the set wouldn't be that easy, at least as long as Radosz was hanging around. The guy appeared suddenly and unexpectedly stuck to the production as if he had nothing better to do. He disrupted the entire order of the set and the entire plan of Wolak and Różycki to get rid of the actor currently playing the lead role. Radosz simply brazenly got in their way.

Brylski, by the way, behaved strangely on set. Jakub was sure that if Radosz had not interfered, Brylski would have run away from the set crying. The amateur was definitely hypersensitive. To cry over a failed scene! Not being able to play a kissing scene! Pathetic!

Yes, Brylski was definitely pathetic and everyone without exception will regret him being cast in the lead role. A movie set is not a place where you can learn from scratch. Here, you have to be professional right away so you don't waste anyone's time.

Jakub went on his other social media account, the one where he pretended to be a fan to secretly direct the movements of other fans. He was officially the unofficial liaison between the star and his fans - or was it the other way around? Everyone knew that he always had good information, always firsthand.

There was a private message waiting for him on his account from Keyboard Warrior 00880, a message that said one of Brylski's friends from years past had his dirty secret to sell.

His heart immediately jumped in Jakub's heart. Adrenaline rushed to his head. There was nothing more scandalous than a dirty secret and nothing that would destroy someone's career faster. If this information was really worth anything, Brylski would be destroyed within three days.

***

Rafał was unable to sleep. He thought the emotional and physical exhaustion would plunge him into sleep, but he was unable not only to fall asleep but even to close his eyes. He lay curled up in his bed, trying to understand what was happening to his mind, to his body and to his heart.

Today was the first time Rafał had given his body to someone. On top of that, he gave it away... to a man.

Damian left Brylski's room the same way he got into it. He did it quietly and efficiently, clearly enriched by the experience. He didn't leave immediately after their passionate intercourse, but later, when he showered Rafał with kisses and caresses marking his body with fiery lips and when the sky outside the window took on the gray of early morning. He said goodbye warmly and tenderly leaving Rafał trembling under the light comforter.

Rafał wasn't shivering from the cold at all.

Every spot on Brylski's skin that touched Damian's lips burned with a living fire. His penis, agonized by the caresses, was transmitting strange, unfamiliar impulses to Rafał's brain. But most agonized of all were his buttocks, or rather, what hid between them and deeper... When Damian put his manhood inside him, when he pushed and pressed, Rafał almost screamed in pain. He held back because he knew that the process of being entered for the first time is almost always painful to some degree. The second time is easier now. Well, it was, just a little. But both entrances could probably be counted as one time, just with a short rest break.

A true second time would be if they started all over again....

Rafal's trembling fingers tightened on the sheet.

Would there be a second time?

Damian made love to him tenderly and then showered him with caresses. He acted as if the question of a second time didn't exist because the answer was too obvious. For Damian, it was certain that there would be a second time, a third time, and more...