238: What If?

                      "Fuck love?"

Damien asked glaring at me with a surprised face. What's wrong with him, it's like he wants to jump at me and tear my face away. 

"What about it? That's what it is, I am not loving anyone," I said and stood from the table admiring the area. They had very nice land for their building.

"Stop pretending Davids, I know you still love Daniella, you just don't know where she is, I bet you would go there and get her back, too bad she got pregnant when she run away and I guess Vin was behind that," he said and looked away.

I could feel the blood boil in my body as he said that. Why would Vin do that to her? Impregnant her so that I can feel the pain so that I won't be able to take her back? 

"Fuck!" I shouted as I threw everything on Damien's table down just leaving the laptop standing.

Damien jumped out of his chair and walked aside leaving me bending on the table, I couldn't feel anymore. 

What was even the need of coming out of prison if they already have a family? Looks like Vin achieved what he wanted. To show me that he can have her, he won, and they now have babies.

I can't believe that is all that Vin wanted to achieve, what am I even saying? I don't love her anymore, that should be the deal. I need to focus on myself and get myself a life instead of loathing Daniella who already had her own family and doesn't even care whether I am here or not.

I quickly wiped my tears and looked outside, there was nothing to be done, everything is gone and now, I have Rose with me, maybe this is all for good. Have a new beginning and start afresh.

I turned around and Damien was in the corner, scared out of his skin as he looked at me. 

"Jeez, you are still afraid of some little things," I said while walking to pick up the things that had fallen on the floor as if nothing happened. 

"Are you sure you are okay?" He asked still in his corner not moving.

"I am fine, I have been told that I failed to close the door and someone just got in and stole my plasma television and other things," I said and picked his things back. 

Damien laughed and walked to his chair, patting it before settling down, I don't know what he was trying to say with his sarcastic laugh but I know it was nothing funny. 

He cleared his throat and placed his legs on the table. Smiling while looking at me.

"Don't fool me, I know you still love Daniella and would love to have her back man, the thing is, we don't know where they are, maybe we should start looking for them you know."

                       'Looking for who?' 

I am not wasting my time trying to look for people who don't want to be found. If Daniella truly loved me, she would have sent me a message, a smoke signal or anything, I don't know, but me wasting my time trying to look for someone who doesn't want to be found, that's wasting my time for nothing. I have other important things to do.

"You do that yourself and tell me where you get. If those girls still loved us, if Clara had feelings for you, trust me, they would have sent you a message or even stalked you on social media but they haven't which means, they are not interested in anything Damien, focus on your life, just don't get another fucking blondies to cause that is stupid," I said.

"You think I don't want to get over Clara man? I do, I just don't know —"

"You just don't know what? How to get over her? For seven years man, you don't know how to get over a woman, you need to man up for christ's sake. Don't tell me you are going to look for another blond for your night."

He sat frustrated on his chair and just swung round and round as his arms went by. Not replying to anything I wanted him to say, avoiding me in all ways like I didn't just say anything.

Then I got an idea, it's going to be an easy one but he might regret it.

"Come stay with Rose and me, maybe we can keep you busy. That will make things better you know, instead of living alone with your staff whom you don't communicate with. Come with us, the penthouse is big enough to host the three of us and leave extra two rooms for some visitors," I told him. I just hoped that he will consider that.

Leaving alone is frustrating and he might find himself drowning in the past, thinking about Clara like she is the important thing. He will still look for a lady, if he stays with us, he will have people around him.

"What if I don't want to get over her? What if I want the feelings to be there?"

What type of stupid question was he asking. He doesn't want to get over Clara? I am over Daniella and I don't care a fucking thing about her.

'Calm down there, you just threw some things on the floor because of her,' came my thoughts. 

I hate this, why can't she just stay away and let me focus on making sure that this gentleman gets in his right mind and comes home with me?

'Can you just go back, when I need you, I will call you over, right now, just chill,' I said to my thoughts trying to calm him down?

He was just there staring at me with her wicked smile.

"You need to get over her or just do something but I don't want to see you alone. I want to be here to make sure you are not getting some other blondie just because you can't over your girlfriend. Focus man," I said to him.

I just don't understand him. This needs to stop. 

"Okay, I will come to stay with you guys, I hope Rose won't start throwing words around and asking me some fucking hundred questions."

"Sorry, but, he will ask over million questions and you better answer them. One reminder, don't swear in his presence and make sure you don't watch porn around when he is awake."

"Jeez, who said I am going to watch pirn man? I am okay."

"Whatever, I need to see Rose, I need to take him home," I said and walked to the door.

"Don't worry, I am also done here, maybe we can go home together, I will ask for my things to be brought over."

We left his office and started walking in the direction that Rose had taken. I just hope he didn't ask question after question trying to know what is happening in the area and if he can get to model for the company.

We talked about the advertisement that I needed Damien to work for me and when they should be ready. We agreed to do a very good deal but after seeing the final product. 

"Why would I stand this way, I prefer a normal and original pause, this is so fake and it won't entice your audience," 

That is Rose, so bossy and he knows what he wants. 

We walked in with Rose after watching him take some pause from the window. He is a natural and I still wonder whom he got that from. I have only taken him to one photoshoot but I was not the one, it was Brian. Maybe they have gone to other photoshop to have him know a lot of things about posing and camera.

"Hi, daddy?" He shouted making everyone turn around and look at me. 

I wanted to reply but everyone widened their eyes in shock, some taking pictures while the rest were murmuring something to their fellows. I am used to that. Ever since I got out of prison, people would talk behind my back as if I were some ghost they have never seen. I know my face is common for being labelled a 'rapist.' 

Rose run from the station and came to hug me. 

          "How is it going?" I asked him.

"Can I please finish the shoot first then we will talk about it?" 

I nodded to his request. Damien shouted to everyone to go back to work because they were shouting a lot. The kept quiet and focused on what they were doing.

A lady walked toward Damien and handed a file to him. They chatted a little but I didn't care what they were talking about. I was busy watching Rose making various poses. 

Damien walked to me with a folder and asked me to take take a look. 

It was a contract for Rose, he was supposed to sign it but since he was underage, I was the one supposed to do the signing. I held it and looked at it. I didn't know what Rose wanted, but all I knew is he wanted to be a good person and do everything that is required of him.

"That girl is asking for your number?" Asked Damien while looking at me. 

"Tell her it's number thirteen and I love black shoes," I told Damien.

Damien also went ahead to her that. 

I don't mind that girls are throwing glances at me and wanting me. I don't want anything to do with them. Sometimes they are just here to seduce you, take your money and be done like you never once had them in your life. I don't want to be called names, I don't want someone's daughter going to the media accusing me of raping her or doing something to her. My name has been tainted enough, enough to mess everything up for everyone, I was not going to let that happen anymore. 

"Oh, she has said it's your phone number," said Damien. 

"Are you stupid?" I asked. 

"She wants your number, is that bad?" Asked Damien. 

I signalled the lady to bring her phone. I quickly inserted a number inside and she went back smiling. After two minutes, I could see Damien busy texting back on his phone. I was not stupid, I gave her Damien's number. Maybe he can help him solve his stupid problem with girls.

Rose was done with the shooting and he got an opportunity to walk in the clothes that he was using. That is the good thing about being a brand ambassador, you get free things from the company and Rose was here with new things, he placed the school uniforms in a bag and we went home. 

"I have your contract, at you sire you want to model for the company?" I asked him once we arrived home.

"What do you think first? Will it interfere with my school or anything?" He asked.

I don't think this was going to interfere with anything that he was doing. He will just need to be disciplined and Damien will make sure the photoshoot happens on weekends, not on school days.

"I think it's good, it will help you connect," I said to him.

"Good, because I would love to know other people outside."