chapter 1

Chapter 1

The empty space, the silence, the cold unbreathing night, endless echo of the pain flowing through my body; I had to ignore the dead shaking warth of fear rising from within me, maybe the thought of knowing I was dying slowly with no hope of being saved added to my sinking thought of regret.

Sometimes I wish the walls would not mock the misery of an ordinary girl like me as they watch me in my argony not being able to help in any way. It felt like, if I was actually being followed by one terror or the another, and scream out my lungs in fear ,no one would actually care about a wired looking black girl running endlessly or even go missing.... right.

If only I hadn't taken two shift ,I would have closed early and go hope maybe Abit more early and not at the dead of night when the streets look more like a deserted area at world's end.but I needed the extra money... and I mean needed it bad, I guess it no lie that bad things happen to u when u become desperate.alot was going in my life lately, not the good a lot ..... the stressful a lot

My house rent was due and I was yet to pay, Mr.back has seen this as a reason to knock on my door every night to give me options, if u know what I mean, I can bearly feed or even take care of my self from the take or live salary I was getting as a waitress and to make matters worst, my stupid aunt decided to bring the lone company my parents own money to my place, claiming she couldn't pay anymore since am no longer with her,and now they were on my neck with millions to pay,so when lily told me about a night shift at here company with weekly pay, I knew I had to take it ,it fitted my time option and the pay was good....hell I needed the money.

Lying on the cold lonely miserable floor I began to recall my past few years of endless misery.... the painful torments of living with my aunt, the unending argument with my foster parents and endless reminder of how unuseful , ungrateful, unthoughtful miserable child I had always been in their eyes, the pain and depression that made me think living and going of on my own would end it all..... but I guess I only lied to myself

All this years of my inner pleas to be long gone and off this world has been mistakenly granted to me I looked up to the dark sky and then smiled at the shining little stars , thinking through my past,I began to reason at how luck has made it away from me , how hope and faith left me behind only as a little 4 years old child to care about and see what colors where really in this pit of hell , called world, maybe am the only one seeing it to be this empty; sometimes I guess wish do come through thou.....

My eyes closed slowly giving up on the world, I drifted to who knows where