Letter Two, Dear Jake

Dear Jake,

I'm all alone here

I don't know anyone

But the loneliness I'm feeling now compared nothing to the loneliness you made me feel it when I was with you.

I always wondered about people who always say that they're feeling alone even when they're with the person they love

I had this feeling when I was with you but I tried so many times to ignore it and put the blame on the place we were in or the people we were with...

You're one of the famous guys in our school and that means that there was no party without you

You always made me go to every party you were in

Not take me with you, but make me go there

you always made sure I'm right in front of your eyes

Was it a trust issue or you just loved to control me like you control everyone else?

I'm not gonna say it's love because I know it's not!

Look, Jake, I don't like partying okay....and what made me hate it more is your attitude whenever you're there.

I went to them because of you

Because I love you and I love to be in every place you're in

But it seems that it was useless...

You left me alone whenever we are at a party because I "don't fit with there" as you said

Listen, if you ever felt that you're ashamed to admit that I'm the girl you love, you shouldn't have given me hopes for that from the beginning

Crystal

Crystal's P.O.V

I saw Jake leaving the party and going to with Cathy to fix her damn car. There's someone called mechanic, why she asked Jake specifically to fix it??! Jake told me that it's late and no workshop will be opened right now so he has to help her

I know what is she planning to do. She wants Jake! it's obvious

Are my thoughts are childish like Jake always tells me or is it my right to act this way?

Ugh, I don't know what am I thinking of right now

Guess I have to leave now and get some rest

"Crystal wait!" I heard someone calls my name and when I turned around I found the one and only Peter

"You're leaving already?" He asked with this smile that never left his face

"Yeah, partying isn't my style besides there's nothing to do here, and it's getting late so.," I said

"Okay, Come on I'll drive you home and I'm not taking no as an answer this time," He said and I remembered that I didn't accept his offer at the last party because Jake told me he never liked this peter

And Yes, that's not the first time that Jake leaves me to return home all by myself!

Peter had always been nice to me and I noticed him taking a glimpse of me in some of the parties but I didn't think of it as a something because everyone knows Peter and how he thinks of relationships

Peter had always had an issue with commitment because of his parents and how they always had fought together when he was younger so he grew up hating the idea of relationships because he never wants to experience this

You're probably asking how I knew this, well like I told you this is not the first time Jake leaves me in a party alone and Peter was the only one who noticed how lone I am and this is how our friendship -is it even friendship?!- started and we started on getting to know each other