Stop crying

I didn't expect what I saw. I couldn't hold myself from shaking. I fell on the and tears stated to roll down my cheeks. That's when they noticed that I'm there. I said " Jake why did you.." I suddenly stopped. I tried to make it seem that I don't need him and said " please—continue " uttering every word. I opened the door it made a loud squeaking sound. The tears came back " why are you back you stupid tears I don't need to cry over this chatter" I said trying to comfort myself. I went to the park because that was the place me and Jake met. I wanted to erase the memories but it always keep coming, al the happy times and the fun we had together. At some point I saw myself crying again and then felt a hand on my shoulder....