Xing who had realised the mysteries around the Gods' interference in her life felt her heart break when she thought about Shengli.
Xing remembered his jumpy behaviour in the past few days and she knew it must be because of his knowledge about her becoming infertile because of the Poison. He must have tried hard to conceal the fact to her because he knew it would break her and that's why he stayed away from her. His refusal to let her interact with doctors and also how his heart felt sad beneath his smiling face... He knows!
Xing knew Shengli. He won't abandon her for this reason. She was sure of that.
But am I worthy of him?
Xing remembered how from the day she met him, he was the one who had given her a lot, protected her and loved her more than anyone else she knows.