Black Magic-A spirit Fear & life After Father

''Sometimes we will never know the value of moment until it becomes a memory"Those who never believe in Magic and Shadows can never find it,An Inhuman spirit can occupy a Toy,a House,or a Heart. Evil spirit gain strength from our interest and fear, and a Black magic started working on me. I lived happily with my family one day we saw that someone through eggs dipped in a dirty water at outside our home we just checked it then someone told us that it's a Black magic and someone did it to harm your father and destroy his job and career,health etc.And that black magic started harm my father and he become ill and had a heart attack twice. we are getting scared that neither we quarrel nor we have an enemy then why someone do this ,but then we know that the Pursuit of Black magic is about using the power of unconscious for ego Purposes ,which lead finally to the disintegration of society Evil eye is more dangerous then a Black magic (Most Of Those who die among of my Ummah die because of the will and decree of Allah,and then because of the evil eye).A daughter needs a dad to be the standard against which she will judge a men.The bitter truth is that i even forget my father,s face. I'm just 9 years old when that dark clouds of life covered my happiness, At 8:o'clock I'm waiting for my school van and my father Mushtaq asked me that I will drop you Jenni? I am glad to hear this but my grandmother asked him that, no you should sit away here I will go to drop her at van. At 2:o'clock I return back to home and saw that my father can't walk even can't sit and my mother is crying I asked my mother separately that what happened to dad?why are you crying she said,your father is getting Paralysed. I'm getting shocked and start crying, my father called me and said why are you crying I'm here nothing happens to me stop crying I'm with you always but he lies,and after 9 days he died on 11 may and his birthday date become his death day and left me alone in this world of fears. I'm feeling hopeless and helpless in all the matters of my life because no one can support me to fulfil my dreams. After few months later, I continue my school but every single day I miss my day and talk to him I feel that he heard me and I believe that he hear me and discuss all my Matters with him I asked him that although you are no longer with me but I want you to know how much I loved you When I was lucky enough to have you in my life. I want you to know that even though you are no longer with me, I still think about you and love you so much. I remember when I was twinkle in your eyes.but you left me one day without saying good-bye. After 9 years ago, my dad,s friend see some old letters written by my father to him and see the address on it and came to meet him he don't know that my father is no more when he came and know he start crying I feel like I'm dying on that moment I just go to graveyard and said to my father please come back the world is empty without you but he didn't reply me. I had regret that why my mom never supported me is I'm a black fated child?is it I'm wrong somewhere I dreamed to make a history but without support I am nothing All around me called me looser ,jobless,bad-fated girl tell me its my fault?i want a wings to fly within my limits but here I got no one to give me wings to fly safely instead all are ready to broke my wings my choices my decision . I think I don't have my own life my own wings I'm feeling paralysed in this society they all forget that I'm also a human . Gossip is a Black magic because it spreads emotional Poison,perpetuates fear,and keeps others down.So that's why my relatives, always degrade me and want to break down me without any interest and any benefit they want to destroy me in all the situations. When I was 12 Just when they asked my mother to keep an eye on me that I can't escape from house even they made weird situations at my home to defame me and do some black magics like someone gave me a glass of milk and I drink it but I don't know her intentions to give me that ,she do black magic on milk for characterised me and defame me on everyone's eyes. But when I know about this I Recite some Surah to get rid over it I also believe on my self and become more Powerful day by day but always getting feared from bad talks about me. My life journey is starting from U.A.E (Sharjah) there I met a tutor named NOOR Jahan she is a powerful woman and very courageous person she made me eligible to give a admission test and I am directly admitted in 1 class because a teacher made you strong and knows you better than your parents. The bonding between my tutor and me is become best and strong day by day then she is going to perform Umrah and I thought that she left me alone and I cut my finger with fan after that she came back and our bonding become strong i spend whole day even sometimes night with her, one day she said that go and give water and seeds to Parrots I open the cage and few Parrots are flew away,next day in front of all children she asked me how that Parrots are fly? I again open the cage and the remaining Parrots are also flew away.....; she tell me how to speak write and specially give respect and love to my father and mother my father also respect her. That time with her is so beautiful and full of joy but time is not stop for someone. One day my mother tell me that my tutor knows the magic to bring souls of deadly humans and talk to them I was getting shocked that how someone bring them from heaven to asked them how can you be Mudered ?? but she never told me how can she did that and one day she go war away from me and never met again. My Silence is just another word for my Pain, And you,my father,there on the sad height,curse,bless,me now with your fierce tears,I Pray No one can fulfil the need of father because father is a God gifted Person to a daughter from Allah-Almighty. Even in education,Personal needs,etc mother said that your father is not alive that he fulfil your dreams, because what the father do for child nobody can do but, I wish and that all fathers in this world get a long life to stay with their daughters because what I faced in this imaginary world I wish no one can be. I don't be feared from graveyard because my father lived there but I am feared from this world which is full of sorrows. "Diabolical forces are formidable .These forces are external,and they exists today.The fairy tale is true.The devil exists .God exists.And for us as People ,our very destiny hinges upon which one we elect to follow. Sometimes I can't understand how to live I can't breathe easily because I thought that how can my father live in darkness,and alone in graveyard I want to meet him but no one in this world helped me to do so. I even don't know the date of Father's Day because I am in a Psychological Pain to called my father to return back Please! I still get a lot of hugs but none of them are as warm as yours,As I sit here and whisper, I believe somehow you can hear me . I think that you see me tears above from the 7th sky, but we both are unassisted. The Absent father effects on daughter. But I tried my best to live happily because no one can die with the died ones all have to live their life because destiny decides something new for you But that Black magic don't leave us, after my fathers death my Elder Brother is getting unconscious and leave his job too, and don't talk with anyone behave like a abnormal Person again the Black magic started working on him and he drown into the water and blood shattered from his nose his friends take him to the hospital after 1 year he recovered back to life but When someone do black magic on you,they don't know what they do they did it in their ego and curse to harm someone but it's Haram in Islam religion and it also harmed to the Person who did that. But people can't understand it and ready to harm someone Once again, my brother is with his friends sitting in a car on a petroleum station at 2:o'clock Night a girl with a bridal look came to him and ask for a lift he saw her foots and get shocked she is backtracking they speed up their car and ran away, I feel all that things that's why I trust on it .I have many dreams in my life today I'm going to fulfil my dream to write a novella on my own life it's my first ever experience hope someone understand what I want to speak. Some people are going to leave,but that's not the end of your story that's the end of their part in your story. I'm always waiting for a new adventures,discoveries,and wanted to explore the world but always getting ignored,disappointed so I miss my day in every movement of my life.Tomorrow is Friday and we enjoyed our favourite food name as (Biryani) its a special Pakistani food which is so delicious I cooked it,First time when I was 19 for my bestie and my cousin Faixa she is my bestie but I never tell him that life time experience which I written here today, I Feel some black shadows and spirits in my home I always feared when I smell some fragrance and some kind of voices and always noticed my mobile time show me 11:11 and I search on it then I know that it's a sign of some black magic or spirits around me. I use too much fragrance Powders etc, so the spirit are fall in love with their smell but I have no idea about that I feel ill that day and asked my mother to take to me to the hospital it's night here so we decided to go tomorrow, after sometime ago I can't speak anything my neck is snatched by the spirits I can't eat something nor drink water my mother getting worried about this there is horrible situation at my Place we can't understand what to do because I use all types of medication to prevent but not getting cured then a Person came to me and Recite some Surah to take them away from me after 5 minutes I will speak and drink water I will be fine so it's from black evil I thanked God to cure me from this that time is so difficult for me! I just tell all my matters my pains my sorrows to my dad I know it's imagination but try it,it gives you and your soul a satisfaction. I have a regret that I have no solution of Black magic on that time so I save you from this dad Black magic is a Process of self-transformation through an antinomian initiatory structure, Black meaning the hidden wisdom,Power of darkness ,dreams and staging the reality you wish and Magic being the Process to ascend, become immortal in Spirit The loneliest moment in someone's life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly TODAY A BRIDE.... TOMORROW A WIFE.... FOREVER YOUR LITTLE GIRL... To my Father ( Separated by death together by love).