21: Shaking

PORSCHE

I began to stir because of the noisy surrounding but I'm too lazy to open my eyes. I hid my face deeper into the warmth in front of me, both the scent and the soft touch of skin against my face lull me back to sleep. 

"Porsche? Porsche?"

I heard the whispers followed by gradual poking along my arm that annoyed me. I opened my eyes lazily and looked at the person who dared to disturb my sleep. 

"What?!" I asked glaring up at the person who woke me up. Trying to focus my blurry eyes, I didn't remember the events last night but I really want to go back to sleep.

Kinn loosened himself away from me and puts an arm behind his head grinning down smugly at me. 

"Shit!" I jumped out to sit immediately and Kinn flipped his numb arms that I used as a pillow the whole night.

"Uhm, you seem busy. Let me leave first." Said the voice that came from the direction of the door where I found the shocked face of Time with the equally stunned Tae, Mew, and Pete.

I quickly got out of bed as I heard Kinn's hysterical laughter. I lowered my head in shame, not daring to look up at anyone's eyes as my face was hot and flushed from the embarrassment. I hurriedly crossed l the distance between me and the door, with them looking back and forth between me and Kinn. I don't care anymore! The idea to hit my head against the wall was very tempting. 

What are you thinking Porsche?! Ugh, I am so fucked up!

I came back running to my room, washed my face and eyes in the bathroom then do some personal stuff. I stayed there for a long time thinking about 

what reasonable excuses I can say to my friends.

Fuck it!

The scenes they have seen would have them thinking the obvious. Me and Kinn, sleeping together in a hospital bed! On top of it all, we're hugging each 

other! What should I do now? 

I leaned against the sink, looking at my reflection in the mirror. Staring back at me is the look of a well-rested guy as I noticed my skin glowing and my 

face and lips are plump. I stand there and meditate for quite some time. This wouldn't have happened if Kinn didn't force me to sleep there, but at some point, I accepted it as well. 

Damn! I'm really fucked up!

I tried to calm my mind to act normal as possible when I walked out of the bathroom to my bed quietly. I managed to eat at the table provided. My heart beats like crazy but I acted as if nothing happened and continued shoving the rice into my mouth. Jom, Tem, and Pete stormed inside my room and stand 

beside the bed, looking at me accusingly.

"Oi." I jolted when Pete breaks the silence.

"Arm said he left you there all night." He said laughing teasingly. I scooped some more rice into my mouth 

pretending I didn't hear anything.

"How is it sleeping in the Master's room?" He asked with his arms crossed along his chest. I glanced up at him but didn't answer then bowed down again.

"Hey!" Tem and Jom said in unison. The air conditioner was cold but why does my sweat drip like crazy?

"Has your class ended already?" I asked them to try and change the subject then glanced at the wall clock that shows it's already eleven o'clock in the morning. Diverting their attention would need a lot of willpower.

"Well today, I just submitted a report then met accidentally with Phi Time, so he invited me to come together." Said Tem looking at me. 

"Now, answer my question." Pete laughed as he grabbed a chair, dragging it towards the side of the bed then sat on it looking expectantly at me. 

"I opened the door and didn't see you here, so I thought to visit Mr. Kinn first, but then I saw both of you cuddling." 

"Why? What are you all thinking about?"

"Well, we were shocked Porsche. You... What are you hiding?" Tem asked suspiciously.

"Nothing! What am I doing in his room? I visit him but then it was so late that felt lazy to go back here. Besides, my feet were in pain." 

Tem, Jom and Pete laughed all together at me 

"What are you laughing at? Want me to kick your asses?" I raised my feet pretending to kick Pete, but the bastard just kept looking at me and laughing like a moron.

"Uhmm, are you done eating?" Jom came to ask, and I nodded in response. So, Tem slides the table off my 

bed. They didn't ask any more questions and I was relieved in the meantime. I leaned over the headboard and turned on the TV, trying to figure out what to do to cover up the story as much as possible.

"What are you doing?" I asked Jom when he suddenly climbed up the bed and sat beside me. Fortunately, the beds in VIP rooms were big and spacious. But even so, what is he doing?

"Oh, you keep telling yourself that between men, it doesn't matter and shouldn't have any malice over it." 

The statement made me frown immediately while Pete and Tem looked at each other smiling. 

"But I'm sick, get down." I tried to push his head as he was about to lay down beside me.

"Kinn was sick too, plus he undergoes surgery too but still he allowed you to sleep beside him. I don't see anything wrong with it." Jom sat straight up explaining.

"Why? I am your friend, and I don't see anything wrong with men sleeping together." I was a little upset by the fact that I know they were teasing me.

"There's the sofa, go sleep there." I said in frustration. 

"Well, your bed looks softer and more comfortable. I just want to sleep. Or, is it? Did you go to bed with Kinn because?" His words hang mid-sentence and I hurriedly stopped what he was about to say. 

"Fine! If you want to sleep, go ahead!" I said cutting him off. Frowning, I crossed my arms and looked flatly at the TV screen.

"I'm really comfortable here." The bastard flipped around and pulled the blanket from me to cover him up as well. I don't know why I felt so uncomfortable. 

Man up!

I tried to lay down as well but felt that we were both awkward. We kept flipping up and tossing around. I get annoyed and irritated but still held my emotions longer until I can't take it anymore.

Pluck!

"Aw!"

The bastard cried out loudly as his body rolled down from the bed. I kicked his hips hard to push him out of my sight. Pete and Tem laughed out loud in unison.

"Why did you kick me? It hurts!" Jom asked. The bastard sat on the floor rubbing his butt in pain. 

"Well, you're annoying!" I yelled back. 

"Hey, with Kinn you're not bothered at all. Or should I say–" He pointed at me and smiled sheepishly. 

"Shut up! Go out and sleep somewhere!" I hurriedly ducked under the blanket to cover up my reddened face.

They continued teasing me relentlessly. I was annoyed by their noise, but it lets me think more about the situation. With Jom I get awkward and annoyed but with Kinn, I didn't feel any remorse at all. I'm quite comfortable with him around too.

Click!

The sound of the opening door startled me. Who is it this time?

"Time, come in first." Tem said as he called for the newcomer. I knew he was Kinn's friend. What am I going to do now? These people were even more frustrating!

"Hey, Kinn asked me to bring some snacks for Porsche. Here it is." I heard the sound of a plate being placed on the side table, but I didn't bother to peek out of the blanket. 

"Thank you." Said Pete poking my back. 

"I don't want to eat." I said sternly. 

"Well, Phi Time, did you ask Phi Kinn why Porsche was in his room?" 

Shit! They asked me to laugh! 

"Why do you want to know so much?" I flipped up the blanket and snapped at them. Time did look at me and grinned sheepishly. 

"I didn't ask but I already know the answer." 

"All of you, get out! I'm sleeping!" 

I got back under the blanket in embarrassment and annoyance. I gave up talking. The more they teased me, the more I feel awkward and piqued. 

"Don't forget to eat the snacks. That will make Kinn happy." Time said before I heard the retrieving footsteps then the sound of the closing door. 

"Why did you have to bring in his friends?" I asked Pete frustratingly.

"Oh, we met more often than you think. Besides, I have better social skills than you. When I'm with them, it's flooding with delicious foods." I glanced at the food on the tray. A puff of cream over a large piece of cheesecake is arranged into a beautiful platter. 

"You want a taste of it? Let me give you a spoon." 

"No!" I said quickly. 

"We shall eat it then, give it to me Pete." Jom said as they split the spoons and dive into the cake happily. Tem looks like a kid cheerfully spooning into it. I couldn't help but look at the cake on their plates. Why did Kinn have to send this? Well, it's just normal for him to share food with me, right?

What did he do? What to do? 

Why? 

"Give me a piece." I said in a soft voice. Pete looked up smiling. He sliced a portion and put it on a plate then moved the table for me. 

"With love and care from Mr. Kinn." Pete said teasingly which has me raising my middle finger at him.

I grabbed the spoon and scooped it up then shoved it into my mouth. It was delicious. I'm a man who eats desserts. I like some but not as a favorite, like the 

chocolate in Kinns room. At first, it tastes weird but after I get used to it, I usually sneak in and eat a lot in secret. If he knows about it, he must have cursed at me multiple times.

"Eat and smile, you're in love." Said Tem holding a spoon in his mouth.

The smile on my face fades instantly. Now I can't smile around them either! But I can't help it, what to do Porsche! 

"Between the dessert and the giver, what is more delicious?" 

I grabbed the remote then threw it hard on Pete's head. He just keeps on teasing me fuck him! 

"Damn! Give me my medicine so that I can take it and sleep!" I hurriedly scooped the last piece of cake into my mouth, drank water, and the medicine Pete handed to me. 

I quickly bowed down and leaned back to bed but didn't lay down immediately. Wait, I think I'm having acid reflux. My heart beats fast and it felt like my chest will burst any moment now, so I just chose to sit on the headboard.

I sat there staring at the television, trying hard to understand the show but I ended up just staring into blankness. With them whispering and laughing at 

the bedside but I don't mind, trying to focus and meditate in order to understand the rap show as much as possible.

Click!

Oh damn, who is it again? Do you want me to get well or what? Why do I have so many visitors? I want them of course but today; I've had enough of frustrations that I want some privacy. 

"Helloooo!"

I closed my eyes and sighed tiredly.

"Hello, young master." Everyone said in unison on behalf of me. I turned to raise my arm to pay respect too but didn't say anything.

Doesn't the hospital offer a mercy-killing vaccine or formalin? Give it to me quickly.

"Pete you're here all the time to just sit and laze around." Pete made a strange face as he was being scolded. 

"I just pay a visit to Mr. Kinn and Porsche young master." 

"Hold on tonight, I will be the one to accompany you." Phon came beside my bed and whispered at me. 

"You don't have to, my friend here already has someone to sleep with tonight." Pete teased again.

I hate them! I hate all of them. What's wrong with everyone today? Because of Kinn they looked at me differently now and teased me at every chance they could get.

"What are you saying?"

Damn. Instead of you being nosy, why don't you shut the fuck up? I sigh in frustration for the hundredth time. Khun reached out to touch my arm, squeeze and massage my body. 

"How are you doing? Where does it hurt?" He asked. 

I looked at the area he was squeezing, the gauzed part. Do you think that won't hurt? 

"It hurts here." I said pointing at his hand, so he immediately raised his hand and smirked. 

"And I have something to give you as a token for the visit." I glanced over at Phi Jet who carries a basket. I frowned slightly.

Buzz Buzz

Khun dance cheerfully as I sat up straight and took the basket from him. It was huge, arranged with the familiar chocolates I found scattered around the 

house. 

"With love and concern from Mr. T.K. Arm take a picture so that I can upload it to the page." I was confused but still looked at the camera as if I was receiving the basket from him.

"1..2.. Smile!" After taking the photo, Arm handed him the phone to check the photo. 

"I don't really like this at all." Pete whispered in my ear as I took a piece, tore the packaging then toss it 

inside my mouth. I just realized if you haven't eaten this for a long time, you'll miss it too. 

"Do you like it? I set the basket myself!" Khun leaned over and picked one to eat himself. You said just now that it was for me.

"I'm visiting the room next door too, Kinn misses me." 

When the young master walked out with his procession of bodyguards, my eyes were all over Pete.

"What? Do you want to eat?" He asked picking up strange-shaped chocolate.

"Hmm, I found it quite delicious. I really didn't like it the first time I ate it, but once I get used to the taste it's quite good." I said picking up a piece, laying down on the bed, and eating. 

"Do you like it?" Pete asked. 

"You can say that." I said looking at the cartoon drawings on the wrapper. I still think these characters were funny. 

"Yeah, good right? As good as." 

"Well, why do they have a lot of these in the house?" 

I asked, interrupting whatever Pete has to say.

I'm sure he would say the chocolates were as good as Kinn. Damn asshole. 

"Oh, don't you know that the family owns the chocolate factory? So, it's basically scattered around the house." I looked at him in surprise. Even thou it's all over the house, it didn't really cross my mind. I couldn't believe that a large mafia family could produce such delicacies.

"So, the face on this wrapper is–" 

"This is Khun Kim." He pointed at the one sticking out his tongue.

"And this is Kinn." I said pointing at the one on the left looking sassy and motionless. I laughed at the graphics unintentionally and Pete squinted at me as if I have done a grave mistake.

"Even their product tastes awful." Just like the owners. I said in my mind as I took another bite. This is the kind of food that won't satisfy your tongue but could get you through hunger.

"Ugh, you said it sucks but you eat heartily. Your mouth says you don't like it but be careful, that could be addicting." Pete warned me. 

"What are you talking about?" I snapped at him. This bastard keeps messing with me every day.

"Never mind, just get back to sleep." Pete shook his head and walk back to chat with my friends. 

I was awake, secretly eating and lying on the bed all day with Tem and Jom looking out for me, asking every now and then if I need anything. Pete goes 

alternately from my room to Kinn's. As for Che', he came and watch over me after school. He kept asking about my condition too, talking endlessly until I 

was too tired to answer.

When the evening came, everyone slowly dispersed. Kim came and fetch Porsche' as usual that the later shrugged off but still goes with him anyway. I was alone for a while until Na Phon came by to sleep as my companion for the night. Soon, the nurse came too to check my vitals, gave me medicine then I fell asleep in the early evening. 

I woke up in the middle of the night to find that all the lights were out, the room was dark with only the light from the bathroom turned on. I glanced at the clock and found out that it was only ten in the evening. Had I slept for only two hours? So, I picked up the phone Che' put at the side table for me and played with it. 

If I woke up like this, how can I go back to sleep?

Then why did you wake up in the first place? I feel like I can't sleep anymore. The medicines that the nurse told me to get me drowsy in no time seemed to lose their effect.

Click!

The sound of the door opening gets my head snapping to its direction. Who would the hell visit me at this time of the night?

"Are you asleep yet?" 

I frowned and sat up on my bed. "Why did you come? What do you want?" I asked him to watch him stroll toward me. I immediately moved to the other side of the bed to make room for Kinn.

"Phon came to accompany you?" He didn't answer my question and instead look at the sleeping Phon on the couch.

"Uhmm." I don't know how to answer so I just nodded. 

"Phon, come here." He called the man who stirred in his sleep and got up rubbing his eyes. 

"Why are you waking him up?" I confusedly asked. 

"Phon!" Kinn repeated and his voice sounded harder than before. Phon opened his eyes, blinked repeatedly, and bounced off the sofa.

"Kinn." He called his boss's name and was shocked after realizing what he did. 

"Go to my room and sleep there." 

"Hey! Why?" I quickly asked Kinn. Why do you have to send my friend to sleep in your room? 

"What? You want him to stay and see me cuddle with you? If you can endure that, I can ask him to stay." Kinn whispered in my ear as he smirked down at me. 

"And who will let you sleep here?" I think my voice sounded tiny as part of me was worried that the one taking his pillow and getting ready to leave would hear me.

"Phon, don't go!" I said but he just turned to look at me with a smile and immediately walked out of the room.

"Hmm. How was that?" Kinn silently laughed at me as he slowly laid down on my pillow. 

"Get out!" I tried to push him using my arms and legs to prevent the bastard from sleeping. 

"Don't kick me, you might hit my wound." He said as he closed his eyes and I saw his eyebrows frowned. 

"Get out of my room now." I stopped struggling and glared at his face instead. What do you want bastard?

"I know you can't sleep either. It's late." Kinn quickly grabbed me and pushed me into the bed.

"Shit Kinn!" I shouted loudly.

But the sassy person like him wouldn't bulge. He laid on his side, tucked my face into his chest, and put his arms around my neck. Now I can feel the familiar warmth and smell causing me to pause for a while 

because my heart started to beat frantically again.

Shit!

"Don't struggle. It's about time you stop fighting me. If my wound hurts, I'll make you pay for it." Kinn threatened but I was stubborn enough to continue struggling.

I am surprised by the fact that he actually has just gone surgery but still has this strength. 

Why is he so strong? Where are the blood bag and the pulse meter? Doesn't he need it anymore?

The thought of him dying here in my room makes me nervous.

"Let me go!" I squealed from time to time until–

Fuck!

Kinn just inhaled my scent with his face gently pressed on the side of my cheek like a fucking alpha wolf. I bit my lips tightly in confusion. What is this? Why is he scenting me? My body went rigid as I felt my face hot from blushing so hard. I don't have a choice but to burrow my face deeper into his chest to avoid the rising sound of his laughter.

"What the hell are you doing?" I said sternly.

I don't understand either why would I have to dodge this shameful act by hiding my face in his chest, but I don't know which way to turn so I choose to keep it this way. 

Porsche, you damn bastard! But there's no way to avoid it!

"Don't dig in deeper, or else you won't get any sleep at all." I immediately distanced myself away, but he locked my head in. What more can I do? I'm an invalid next to his bulky body.

"Let go, Kinn." 

"Your heart was pounding so hard, should I call in a doctor in case you have a heart disease?" Kinn said teasingly. I am so lost in this situation.

Fuck! Whatever curses I uttered and no matter how much I fought with him, my body was failing miserably. What the fuck is wrong with me?

"Fuck you. You can sleep well, but can you really sleep well like this?" I tried to negotiate to at least loosen up his tight grip on me even for a bit.

"Shhh! Quiet." 

He didn't seem to listen to me, instead, he strokes my hair as if I were a cat having a pit. I must admit his actions were quite calming, that they halted my struggling until one of his hands that was embracing me left my waist and grab the side of his abdomen. I lifted my gaze to see his warped face in pain. 

"Does it hurt? Should I call the doctor?" I asked worriedly looking back at the wound. 

"No need. It hurts a bit because I used too much force. But I can sleep now." He said as he pulled me back to his arms, putting his arm under my head as a 

pillow then embracing my body in the same locked up position as before.

You can sleep for now, so your Dad better not blame me or anything!

I don't know since when Kinn's unique scent made me feel safe and comfortable, but both the hugging and touching made my heart at ease and even as I slowly drifted to sleep, my heart kept beating wildly.

NO. No. I must not think of anything. I am a man! How can I think like this with a fellow man?

And this guy also fucked me like a bitch, how about the hate and anger?

IN THE MORNING

"Mr. Kinn."

Pete's voice seems to drift away as I started to feel awake but this time I don't dare to look around, afraid that I might see the same scene as yesterday. Shit!

"Hey, Pete." Kinn loosened his hug from me, but I laid still unmoving.

"Excuse me but in ten minutes the doctor will come into your room to check on your condition." Pete said hesitantly.

"Uh. Okay, wait for me in the room then, I'll follow ahead." Kinn said. Pete went silent after that but left anyway.

Kinn turned around to hug me again. 

"Get up" I whispered dangerously. 

"I can't get up." He said then hugged me even tighter. I felt something hard poking at my thighs. 

"Stop poking me with your knee." I snapped at him. 

"It's not my knee." Kinn laughed before speaking with pride.

"Respect the national flag in the morning." He leaned forward and whispered into my ear, giving me goosebumps as I came to understand what he meant. 

"Damn Kinn!" I used my legs to push at him harder. Kinn loosened his hold on me and laid on his back on the bed. I sat up leaning on my arms as I looked down at his body. The tent under the blanket was evident and I have to turn away in embarrassment. 

The fuck?!

"This is natural you know that."

Damn you! 

And then Kinn opened the blanket sassily looking at mine as my heartbeat flickered wildly just like last night.

"Shit! This is not like that." I cursed. 

"Let's raise the flag together." He laughed teasingly. So, I tore down the blanket, wrapped it around my 

body then came down from the bed running for the bathroom to escape from him. 

Bastard!

I spent longer inside the bathroom without any thoughts of going out. When suddenly, a knock on the door broke the silence. 

"Tonight, you won't need any companion. I'll come again to sleep with you." Kinn shouted from outside as I threw a tube of toothpaste into the closed 

door. 

"Damn it! Tonight, I'll bring over all my friends and ask my brother to sleep with me! Bastard!" I heard the closing of the door letting me know that Kinn has left so I quickly got out of the bathroom then slumped back to bed, continuously cursing at Kinn in my mind, the door opened again, and saw Pete get in with a teasing smile on his face that I pulled the blanket to cover my face and pretended to sleep in embarrassment.

"Hey, why are you getting shy? Get up and take your medicines." He poked my side and laughed in amusement.

"Who is shy? Bastard, Someday I'll kick your stupid mouth." 

"Then get up. Sleeping like that, can you even breathe?" He said pulling off my blanket.

As I refused to get up and sit, Pete dragged the dining table with the food on it and the medicines that I have to take. So, I have no choice but to eat with my head bowed down low as I heard his silent laughter from time to time.

Today, I continued my life as usual. Eating, sleeping in bed with Tem. As for Pete and the other guards, they said they were busy with business. I can't wait till tomorrow when I have the doctor's approval to go out of the hospital. 

At first, Tem and Che offered to sleep with me for the night, but I stopped them because of Kinn's words this morning. Kinn is the kind to do whatever he wanted to, and I don't want my brother and friends to be shocked by whatever Kinn would do later. I don't want any more questions, so I chased them away. 

Damn! And why am I getting stressed? 

I sat with my knees up and leaned against the headboard. My eyes can't help but glance at the door from time to time. Since early evening, I've been anxious for the night to come. My hand unconsciously pressed on the remote, changing channels even though I couldn't understand what I am watching.

Shit Porsche! Get your shits together! What is wrong with me?

Every time a shadow walks past the door, my heart twitches. Until I feel infuriated with these emotions. Why am I acting as if I am waiting for him? I should've been praying that he wouldn't come tonight.

Is the door open? It wasn't locked, right? What the fuck?

Click!

As the sound of the door opened, I quickly sat up straight, cross-legged in the middle of the bed. 

"Oh. It's you." 

It's not my intention but I sigh with a drop of disappointment as their smiling face of Vegas appears in the doorway with a large basket in his hand.

"Oh, are you disappointed that it was me who came?" 

Am I? When did I do that?

"Hi." I said quietly. He managed to put the basket on the bedside table then dragged a chair to sit near the bed. I was actually surprised to see him visit at this hour.

"Sorry for bothering you so late at night. I just heard the news last night from Brother Beam that you were in the hospital." It's already nine in the evening and yes, he's bothering me from waiting.

Damn!

"It's okay. Thank you for the visit." I managed to smile back at him.

"Have you eaten Porsche? How about your medicines?" He asked cheerfully as if he was ready to serve me just in case I haven't eaten yet. I just nodded from all his questions.

"I came to visit at this hour, it doesn't matter right?" 

"Oh, no." I think I can speak to him freely, right? Since I have considered him as a friend, and he was nothing but good to me. Even if we aren't that close, we 

did see each other often. 

"Has your condition improved or not?" As he asked me, his eyes were roaming on my body as well, as if examining my well-being and I felt something cold crept up my nape.

Weird.

"It has improved a lot but still hurts sometimes." I said truthfully. 

"Where? I want to see it." Suddenly, he gently reached out to my arm, softly stroked the wounded area before his face came closer and kissed it. 

"Perfect, get well soon." Blowing on it lightly, he looked up at me and smiled. I quickly pulled out my 

arm as I felt the weird goosebumps run all over my body. 

He doesn't mean anything about it, right? God, what is happening to me? I must not think ill of my friend. If you look at it closely, it's a gentle and caring gesture so I must not think more of it.

"Thank you." I replied quietly.

"Then, do you want to eat some fruit? I'll peel some for you. Wait a moment." A grin was playing at the corners of his mouth as he turned to the basket that 

he brought.

"You don't have to." I tried to stop him at once. 

"Why? Are you already sleepy? I can see your eyes are still clear. Do you want to eat some fruits while watching the TV? I can take care of it for you." As he said it cheerfully, I can't bring myself to reject him.

So I just let him wash the fruit in the bathroom and get back carrying it on a plate. He peeled the fruit looking awkward with it. The same way how Kinn acted like a three- year-old child in the woods. 

Speaking of Kinn, when will that bastard arrive? I glanced at the door from time to time.

"I'll do the peeling." I quickly grabbed the knife and the green apple from his hands. I saw the way he was holding the knife and it terrifies me that he might get sliced or stabbed. People like him who were born with a golden spoon might not know all these kinds of things.

"Right. Okay." Vegas pushed the table then sat closer to me as he watched how I peeled the apple then picked some grapes to eat. I thought that basket was for me, is he hungry?

"Be careful with your hands. Is there anything on the front door?" He asked so I briskly turned my gaze away from the door. I didn't notice that I have been staring at the door for some time.

"Ahh. Eat this first." Vegas held a piece of grapes in my mouth, and I couldn't help but open it. 

This is strange, really strange. He kept feeding me until my mouth was full. I glanced at the clock thinking deeply. I have a big apple in my hand and actually enjoy peeling it. It is already nine in the evening, what the hell am I doing?

Click!

"Oh!" As soon as the door opened, I slashed my finger in surprise. The blood instantly oozed from the open wound. 

"Hey!" Vegas swiftly pulled my hand. 

"What are you doing, Vegas?" Vegas and I looked up at Kinn at the same time. His face was darkly glowering at us.

"Phi Kinn, I stopped by and visited Porsche." He said smiling but he still didn't let go of my hand.

"I said, what are you doing?" His eyes never left my hand that was held by Vegas. 

"It's an accident." Vegas turned around to look at my middle finger, but we were stunned when all of a sudden, Kinn snatched my hand from him and looked at my wound.

"It's going to be fine." He said sternly looking at Vegas.

"The cut seemed deep, Phi Kinn." Vegas said smiling awkwardly. 

"That's nothing. He won't die from it." Kinn let go of my hand as if he didn't care at all. 

Bastard. Because of you coming in all of a sudden, my finger is now bleeding like hell!

"But I better take Porsche to the bathroom to wash his hand." Vegas suggested, leaning closer to take my hand but Kinn pushed his shoulder away.

"I suggest you go and get some band-aids from the nurse station instead." Vegas seemed reluctant at first but eventually walked out of the room. 

"Why did he come?" As soon as the door closed, Kinn bellowed at me.

"Why don't you ask him? How would I know? Asshole." Of course, he visits me, dumbass.

"Don't push your luck, I'm not in a good mood."

Kinn said dangerously as he took a deep breath, trying to suppress his emotions before pulling my hand and placing it on top of the fruit plate, taking a glass of water and pouring on it to wash off the blood. He pressed on my wound tightly.

"Oi Kinn, it hurts!" I tried to pull out my hand, but his hold was tight, pouring water on it again. 

"Since when did you become so weak?" He asked staring at my finger. I can't read his mind, but his dark expression was seriously making me shudder a bit. 

"Try pressing on a fresh wound on your finger then." My voice came out sounding hurt so Kinn glanced at me, and his expression immediately softened.

"Why did he come so late?" I can see he's still into the topic of Vegas and kept on asking me.

"As I have said, ask him. I don't know." I pulled my hand back when I saw that he was finished washing it up.

"What the fuck is he doing here with you then?" He cursed, pushing me to the other side of the bed then sat down next to me.

"How do I know? I am not the cousin here." I said starting to get annoyed. What does he want with all this?

Kinn sighed as if contemplating something in his head. I ended up getting silent as well.

"I'm back." Vegas announced as he came in and handed me the plaster, but Kinn took it from him. 

"If you don't need anything else, you may leave. Porsche needs to sleep." Kinn said dismissing Vegas a little rudely. Vegas looked at him and nodded after a while.

"Okay then. Shall I accompany you back to your room?" Vegas asked smiling gently at Kinn.

"It's okay, I can manage. Go home now." 

Vegas smiled raising his hands to pay respect to Kinn. From the way they converse, it looks like Vegas hasn't visited Kinn yet. Then why did he come to me first? Shouldn't he visit his relative first?

"Get well soon Porsche, you too Phi Kinn." Kinn stared deadpan at Vegas until the man walked out of the room.

"What did he say to you?" Kinn turned to ask me. 

"He come to visit and asked about my condition." I told him the truth since I don't see any reason to lie at all. Besides, he might be thinking that Vegas came to invite me to work for him.

"That's it?" He raised his eyebrows.

"Uhm." I nodded. "You took a long time to believe that." I glanced at the clock and shook my head. 

"Oh. It's just that I don't want him messing things up." 

He sat there as if thinking deeply. As for me, I don't understand what upsets him. I know that he was raised to hate the second family but what did it have 

to do with me? In addition, Vegas has been good to me all this time.

We remained quiet for the time being and no one dared to speak. Kinn slid his hand on my wrist, and I pulled back in fear that he might do something to 

me. Honestly, it doesn't hurt that much but if it was with Kinn, who wouldn't get paranoid?

"Stay still." He whispered grimly before using his mouth to tear on the plaster's packaging then paste it down on my wound. I stopped struggling as soon as I 

saw how gently he did it.

"Does it hurt?" He raised his head to ask me.

"It hurts when you washed it with water." He smirked at me then leaned forward to kiss over the plaster. 

"Get well soon." 

I bit my lips tightly. I feel helpless at times like this. My heart is throbbing, and I have no idea if Kinn was teasing, provoking, or annoying me, but this was way too different from when Vegas did it earlier.

"Can you turn off the lights now? I'm sleepy."

What the hell did he say? He took off his shoes and laid down glaring at me. 

"Turn off the lights or should I drag my feet off this bed and turn it off myself?" He said it smoothly, but I can feel the underlying threat of it. 

"And what should I do then? The room owner needs sleep too." I said motionless without any signs of doing what he asked. 

"I'm hurt." He used a softer tone this time and tried to push me off the bed. 

"Go to your own bed in your fucking own room then!" 

How audacious of him to come here and ask me to do things.

Bastard!

I got off the bed then stood with hands on my waist, looking at him as if he was the owner of the room. 

up and don't ever think of sleeping on the sofa." He said as he probably saw me glancing at the sofa thinking as soon as the lights were off, I'll be hitting the couch.

"I hope you'd get infected!" I grunted as I turned off the lights and the TV.

Do you honestly think that I will walk back to the bed? No way! I sat down on the sofa frowning.

"Oiii." 

Kinn raised his head to look at me then laughed. I quickly laid down, even without pillows and a blanket. Silence surrounded the entire room and Kinn seem to let go of the issue but then.

"Hey, do you know how many years since this hospital has opened?" I turned to look at the bed and frowned. 

"Who wants to know?" I said, slowly getting annoyed. 

"This is an old hospital. You know the death counts every day."

"Fuck Kinn! Stop it! No matter what you say, I won't believe you." 

I gulped down hard, even though I knew that Kinn was only trying to scare me just like what he did back in the forest but I can't help but agree that the hospital seems eerie, especially at night.

"I really don't believe it, but you know."

"I don't know, and I don't want to know!" 

I heard his laughter, and it irks me to the bones! What a bastard.

"Can you look under the bed?" Kinn said and unconsciously, I really did turn slowly to peek under the bed because the couch was at an eye-level with it.

Fuck it, Porsche! You know better not to!

Thou there was nothing under the bed, but the shadows are playing with my imagination. 

"Stop, damn it!"

"At night, there are strange noises coming from under the bed. Softly at first and then–" Kinn kept telling his lies and I started to sweat really hard from fear. 

"Damn you bastard!" 

"Oh yeah, I better go back to my room. You sleep here in the comfort of the bed."

Then he sat up and put on his shoes, pretending to get out. That's when I quickly jump off the sofa and clung into Kinn's arm. In an instant, I'm on the bed. 

"You son of a bitch!"

I held his arm tight uncaring if I make fun of myself because my heart was already hunted with fear. I can feel the cold creeping up my chest like a clawed hand of terror.

"Just like that." 

He murmured softly and laid down again, placing one of his arms on the pillow and pulling my hair to lie unto it.

"Sleep well. You don't have to hug me, it's uncomfortable." I said lying on my back still slightly away from him. But this bastard wouldn't listen at all. 

He laid on his side and used the other arm to hold me in front of him. As usual, I struggled to let go but he's just too strong. 

"Shh, be quiet." 

As my face came forward to his chest, Kinn hugged me tightly and urged me to stop the rampage. 

"Can you hear it?" He nudged me and I raised my face to look at him in horror.

"What sound?" I asked softly. Don't tell me, it's the ghost under the bed?

"It's loud. Bang. Bang. Bang." At this time, I'm more afraid of losing my sanity.

I squeezed my body tightly against him and scurried my face into his chest. I don't want to know whatever it is, I'm too afraid for my own good. 

"The sound was constantly loud." I lifted my hand to grip my fingers into the hem of his shirt.

"You know what that sound was?" Kinn leaned forward and whispered into my ear. I immediately shook my head in an attempt to stop whatever he is saying. I don't want to know anything, please! 

"That sound is the sound of confusion." He dragged along the words to taunt me even more. "It's the sound of your heartbeat!" 

Kinn bursts with laughter as his head fell on the pillow. I started to loosen up my hold when he suddenly hooked his arms and legs around me that locked me from any movements.

Bastard Kinn! I am becoming a bad guy because of you! 

~~~~

I woke up the next morning and didn't see Kinn lying next to me. I remembered how I squirmed last night until I get exhausted and slid away into the dreamland.

Now the doctors checked on me as Tem and Jom go down to the cafeteria to get some food as a preparation for my homecoming. My body feels healthy, and everything seems fine. I feel excited about this day.

"Hey, we'll put your things in Pete's car, okay?" Che' said, Jom and Tem with him. I just nodded in response and as they walked out of the room, Pete came in.

"Mr. Kinn asked you to drop by at his room before you leave." Pete walked over and checked on me for a bit, then fell on the couch. 

"Can't you go instead for me?" I asked feeling vexed. As Kinn must stay still and was put under observation for a few more days until he can go home.

I really want it to last for a month so that I won't have to meet him face to face and get annoyed every time.

"Go for a minute or so, you're the head of security. He might want to order you something." Pete explained.

I forgot that I still work for him. I haven't even left the 

hospital yet and here he is acting so arrogant ordering me around. Do I really have to do my duty now? 

I heaved a sigh before deciding that a little drop buy won't hurt that much.

"Okay, I will."

"Uhm, Porsche?" Suddenly, Pete said sounding bothered so I looked at him in curiosity. 

"I don't intend to be nosy, but how are you and Mr. Kinn?" He looked at me seriously. It caught me off guard as this character of him was something I haven't seen before. It's the exact opposite of his usual playful self.

"Well, we're fine." I said senselessly. What kind of answer was that?

"Well, I don't want to intrude or something. As you've noticed, I always tease you, but it was just me being playful really. Never in my intention for it to go further."

I listened quietly as Pete continued. "You don't feel anything serious for him, right?" Pete's eyes looked at me worriedly.

"No! Of course not. Why would I? It's not as if I am gay!" I hurriedly countered but swallowed hard down my throat.

"Good. I'm sorry for teasing you. It's just that I believe you wouldn't fall for it anyway."

I turned away from him pretending to put the charger in my bag. "Yes."

"And this sleeping together, you were just sleeping, right? Nothing happened right?" What's wrong with Pete today? He kept asking strange questions. 

"No. What could happen?" I tried to act as normal as possible and kept packing my things. 

"I am saying this because I saw you as a friend. You can't blame me for thinking this much from the accident in the hotel, both of you getting lost in the forest and surviving death together. It's not strange that you will feel attached to him, but it would be better, and I still believe that you don't feel anything romantic towards Mr. Kinn." 

I bit my lip tightly at the last words that he said. Sweat 

began to form at the base of my forehead. What were you thinking Pete? What do you think of me? A stone? Who wouldn't weaver at that bastard Boss of yours? Especially when he does things that make me feel certain emotions, I can't put a word to.

"What do you want to say really? Come on, say it." I said. Uncertainty crossed his face and I realized Pete doesn't really know anything about me and his boss. It was just a fun tease for him.

"I just want to remind you that when you climbed very high, the fall from up there would be fatal." I stared at him and understood what he means. That the boss was too high for someone like me to reach out and catch him.

"Don't worry, your boss is just bothering me and just being an annoying bastard." 

"Because I know Mr. Kinn very well. So, I come to warn you. I don't want to see you get hurt. But I believe you are a hundred percent straight, right?" Pete looked at me with uncertainty in his eyes. 

"Yes! Let's go and talk about what he wants me to do." I said dismissively, swinging my bag over my shoulder and walking towards the door. 

I heard Pete sigh before following me. He has spoken with good intention but I am not sure if I didn't lie out there. 

Bang!

I opened the door to the next room with a brutal force like the man I am. I paused midway my pacing towards the bed as I saw someone unfamiliar in 

the room.

"Excuse me for not knowing you have a guest." I said smoothly looking at Kinn who was leaning on the headboard looking like a freshly squeezed lemon. 

"Nice. Tomorrow, come back here." Kinn said. My eyes were secretly regarding the stranger. He opened the balcony and leaned himself on the door while spewing out smokes. I'm not saying that smoking is prohibited here, but I'm stressed, it makes me want to smoke too.

"Why did you call for me?" I turned to ask Kinn seriously.

"Oh, you realized that you still work for me. I have a job for you, come back tomorrow." He said smoothly as if luring me to stare at him longer and so I did. 

"Yeah, okay." I responded sighing in exasperation. 

"Mek, are you going back? I can have Pete take you home."

The one called Mek was a striking tall figure with a dark and handsome face. I have a bad feeling about him. With his gaze staring at the smoke in the air, I looked at him and I felt strange goosebumps run down my sleeve. Even thou he looks good; I smell something fishy about him that I can't explain.

"I'll be right back."He said.

"Where did you say your subordinates have gone to?" 

Kin asked him and by the way, he talked with the guy, they seemed close. 

"We have a business around here." 

The eyes of the man named Mek swept a thorough check on me from head to toe until the goosebumps, I felt on my sleeve goes all throughout my body. I just raised an eyebrow at him.

What bastard? Do you like what you are seeing? By the way, he's looking, I think he's belittling me.

"Is that all? I'm going now." I turned to look at Kinn and when he nodded in response, I immediately 

darted towards the door. 

I go down the building feeling cheerful as Jom and Tem have taken care of the rest of my medical expenses all paid by Khun Korn. Pete took a luxury 

Sedan and stopped in front of me. I waved goodbye to my two friends before we headed towards the mansion with Che' in the back seat.

"Who was that man?" I asked Pete as he drove away. 

"Mr. Kinn's friend." Pete said smoothly. 

"I have never seen him before." 

"They haven't seen each other for a while, I just saw him today too." Pete seemed to be not in a good mood, so I didn't push the topic anymore until we arrived home.

"Porsche, your new room is on the first floor beside the stairs next to Phi Chan's room. You can't use your old room anymore." Pete walked ahead of me towards the new room.

"Why?" Why do I have to change rooms? 

"Your brother stays there for a while. The room is small, and Khun Korn decided to put both of you here instead since it's bigger." 

He opened the door and walked to lead me in before putting the luggage on the bed. I looked around the space in awe. It was quite wider than the previous one with a queen-size bed at the center and some furniture. It has its own bathroom, and it doesn't look luxurious but is better than having to use the regular bath with the bastards.

"Take a rest and I'll go back lookout for Mr. Kinn." Pete said before turning to leave.

He seems to hold two jobs now, taking care of Kinn and me. How much is his salary really? The loyalty and dedication were astounding given the fact that Kinn was a lot to handle.

"Hey, we really can't go home yet, right?" Che' asked me all of a sudden while unpacking.

"Hmm, I won't dare risk your safety."

"You said you're going to resign a week ago but look where we are now." Che' murmured.

I was too lazy to listen, so I fell onto the bed with my phone and immediately has fallen asleep.

I woke up in the evening with Arm loudly playing a game with Che' and Phon. I got up looking at them sitting on the floor still focused on the game. After a while, Arm sensed me and turned my way to wave.

"Oh, you're awake, let's have dinner." He said and I nodded then got up to wash my face in the bathroom. They were still on the game, so I sit back on the bed waiting for them to finish it first.

"Porsche, are you feeling better now?" Khun Korn came in suddenly and I immediately stand up to pay respect to him.

"Yes sir, I feel better now."

"Then take a rest some more. Porsche' here takes good care of you too." Khun Korn pats my brother's head kindly.

"Papa, what are we having for dinner?" A loud voice came from outside the bedroom and all of us turned to look at the door.

"It must have been snowing outside as you came home often now. Oh, Mek you came too?" Khun Korn asked his son then turned towards the newcomer who was with him.

I frowned as I saw the person again. His presence doesn't sit right with me, and I can't explain why. 

"Hi uncle, I came across Kim, so I asked to ride with him and pay you a visit too." Mek said smoothly but his face showed no emotion at all. Didn't Pete give 

him a ride to wherever he's going?

"Good, let's go eat together then. This time, I asked for more food as Kim came home often." 

"Why not? Our family just became bigger now." Kim said jokingly throwing a glance at me and Che' then headed towards the kitchen.

"Let's go eat together." Khun Korn said again.

"You go ahead, I'll follow behind uncle." He let Khun Korn take the lead before he stopped and take a good look at me then walked inside the room to come closer.

"Yes?" I asked in confusion. My brows lifted as I sensed he have something to say to me. His lips twitched up and smile then reached forward to introduce himself.

"Mek." He said as I extend to shake his hand. 

"Porsche." I said shortly. He stared at me for a bit more before going in the direction of the kitchen. 

"What the fuck?" 

Aphon said as the four of us looked at the retrieving figure of Mek. After standing dizzily for a moment, I walked to the kitchen with Che', Arm and Phon. 

"Why did Khun Mek want to know you?" Asked Arm. 

"I don't know either. I'm confused, do you know him?" 

"I only know the name Mek was Mr. Kinn's friend. He disappeared for a long time and that's it." Arm said murmuring incoherent words I don't pay any more attention to.

I was dizzy the whole time while having dinner, so I retired to my room after taking my medications. Took a shower then laid down on the bed. I was alone as Che' was outside playing games with the guys saying he didn't want to disturb me because they would be probably shouting. I let him be as I know Arm is reliable and could be trusted. 

I tossed around in the dark for an hour. Why am I not sleepy?

I played on the phone then played some music. Why can't I sleep at all?

Usually, Kinn was beside me, so I slept right away. It was like that for a week including the days in the forest. I have to admit that his presence and the familiar smell of his body calm me really well and make me fall asleep instantly. Like a sense of safety blanket, I can't explain.

The hate I felt for him before has now totally gone out the window. Thou I still couldn't accept the fact that I let him do those things to me, I have come to the realization that Kinn went under my skin for quite a short period of time. The companionship we had back in the woods was something to reckon about. 

So many things happened so how can I forget the feeling of him beside me on the bed?

The paranoia I felt every time he come near me had my heart pounding like a drum. The memories that kept repeating in my head as they came flooding my thoughts drowned the feeling of disgust.

The reality shocked my heart.

How quickly can I erase the hate? Within a week, I was a completely different person now. Or did I really hate him from the beginning?

Damn! What's wrong with me now?