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Karamihan sa babae ang gusto maiharap sa altar at ikasal, mahalin ng isang tapat na lalaki.

Isa ako dun. Isa ako sa nangarap.

Nangarap din ako na someday i'll be infront of the aisle and marry the man whom i really love.

Siguro malupit talaga ang tadhana saakin at binigay ang lalaking kasal na.

Babae lang din ako, nagmamahal. I didn't expect this. I didn't expect to love him more because all I knew is make out make out lang 'to.

I was once called dumb, stupid, and desperate for loving someone who's already married.

Lahat naman siguro nagiging tanga't bobo sa pag-ibig diba? Kasi if not maybe hindi talaga nila mahal yung isang tao o di kaya mas mahal nila ang sarili na, they don't want to take risk kasi alam nilang masasaktan sila.

When my friends knew 'bout this lagi na kaming nag-aaway, I get the point na ayaw nilang mapahamak ako dahil nakasalalay ang trabaho ko do'n. Nakasalalay ang lisensya ko dito.

I don't want to listen, I love the guy so much at dumating sa point na di ko siya kayang iwan.

THE coldness wrapped us and it was already midnight. I was sleeping beside the guy whose name is Lucas, his arms wrapped my naked body so as my blanket. I was happy with it but conscience also wrapped me, halos araw-araw pa nga eh.

Ramdam ko ang tulo sa mga mata ko, hindi ko maiwasan isipin na kabit ako at wala talaga akomg karapatan. Once na malaman 'to ng asawa niya sigurado akong babawiin niya ang asawa niya or worst pwede niya kaming kasuhan o di kaya isawalang bisa ang lisensya naming dalawa ng asawa niya.

Bagyang gumalaw si Lucas at tinanong kung okay lang ako, and I answered yes. He's wiping my tears using his fingers.

He kissed my forehead kaya napangiti ako.

"Sleep." He said and I nodded, kaya pinilit ko na sarili ko matulog.

Before, when I was a child, I never saw myself as a mistress but I saw myself as a wife. I see myself like my mother, like how did my mom and dad loved each other.

But now, I never thought that it would became like this. It's like—this is the most difficult commitment that i've took.