Her POV

I was dreaming, I know, I'm concious but my eyes are still closed, my body can't move, my mind is working. Mom's calling.

I can hear her shout.

"Steph! Wake up!" She cry.\

But I can't, my body collapse, I can't move even my finger.

Numbness succumb my whole soul. I can't feel anything but loneliness. How sad I am.

Oh dear Julian, it's too early to leave. We haven't yet fulfill our dreams and goals as one. We haven't yet started a family that we once see in our vission. I miss you so much my love.

Why did you leave without saying goodbye, without warning, and no coming back? Why?

If only I could visit heaven I would always remember the time where we can see each other again.

But no Julian, you leave me so sad, so lonely.

I have nothing but you. I really miss you babe, I wish this time, I can see you, even just a peek.

Even just a peek, it will be more than enough. I will be more than happy if I see you again, even just for a little moment. If only I can touch the tip of your finger, if you only know how much I long to be with you again darling Julian.

"Steph, anak, wake up!"

I heared my dad shouting and cryin that brings me and my body to real conciousness.

I felt pain burning in my cheeks and my knuckles are red.

"I miss Julian Dad, I'm sorry." I cried and he hugged me.

"Shhhh, my love, I'm sorry." he patted my head and that, I started to feel that I am not alone anymore.

Maybe I just need a hug. A hug that will warm my heart, that will fills my loneliness. A hug that even it can never understand what I feel, it will always be there.