Day 2

I guess there are people who know and don't know at the same time. Consider the case of a guard of a psycho hospital where the doctors conduct life threatening experiments and one day a patient disappears. The guard will report it to the police and everything.... That guard knows the patient disappeared but doesn't know that the patient's been killed last night in an experiment where the maximum amount of electricity safe for numbness enough to cut out an organ was being tested.

The experiment failed, the doctors will do it again on someone else, the guard will report it again.

But that's not the point, i was trying to give an example of "I guess there are people who know and don't know at the same time." I still think a one sided love example would have been equally effective or even better but that's too out of style for me. There's a cure for everything, I saw a clip on internet once where a solution to every sexual harassment was shown, it goes like - " there wouldn't be any rape if you just said "yes". It was to be taken as a joke ofcourse but the heaviness of the words were... discombobulating.

The more I go towards that voice, i think the farther i am from it, from myself. Make a plan, work on it and if everything goes according to it, you'll think I did it right. I was getting addicted to that feeling, or maybe I wanted to.

I know this is not where it feels like Day 2 should end and you want to continue reading into it more, reading into my mind more.

Signing off

-sidhant