-I'M SORRY-

His friend followed behind me the whole ride home. He was what one would call a creep. Mainly because he was stalking me before he even decided to approach. Luckily I wasn't with his little games. There's so many crazy things happening in this world. The last thing I wanted was to lose my life. I would end up hearing my mother's warm voice yelling the four words I didn't like hearing. " I told you so," I whispered to myself.

I kept driving along the narrow road. He seemed to have found the deepest spot in the forest area close to a large swamp. Then again he was the king of the territory. I continued driving until I got to the gate. I pressed the button and there was a buzz. I drive along the cobbled path, pulling up to the front of the house. I put the car in park and turn it off. I unbuckle my seatbelt and open the door to get out of the car. I get out and walk to the passenger side. I take out the large hemp bag. I turn around to bring it into the house, only to have Lazarus take it from me. James got the other stuff and I locked the car and the door to the guest house.

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I pack out the last bit of groceries with the help of his friend. "Lazarus, I didn't know you had a mate." Lazurus looked at me right then and there. "That is our secret to keep James." He said smiling at him. He broke the eye contact now to look at James. Who was helping me to unpack the grocery. I'm not gonna lie, he is honestly such a southern gentleman. Lazarus finished his bottle of water and started assisting. He placed everything in the cupboards. Which were empty. The only thing in his fridge was water.

I haven't really witnessed him eating a burger or anything. He seemed to have a thing for blood though. "Go take a shower and change into something comfortable," Lazarus said as he placed the kale into the fridge. I nodded. "Thank you, by the way. I don't think I got to say that." I said before turning and walking to my room.

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I got out of the shower. Patting my skin dry with the towel. I pick up my rose oil and pour some onto the palm of my hand. I put the bottle down rubbing my hands together. I apply the oil to various parts of my body rubbing it into my skin. I put on my undergarments. I opted for a purple crochet top and a black harem pants. I put on a pair of socks and I let my hair down. I didn't know what to do with my locks. They looked very neat, but I wanted something simple. I opted for an updo. I wrap two of my locks around the rest. Creating a loose high ponytail.

I apply witch hazel to my face and I spray a bit of rose water on my skin. I apply rosehip oil to my face rubbing it in with a face roller. I rub the roller onto my skin for about 5 minutes. I out it down and apply a bit of concealer under my eye, blending it out with a small brush. I apply a bit of powder to high points of my face. Then I apply my mascara onto my lashes. Topping the look off with some lip gloss. I put on an oversized purple and flannel.

I grab my journal, wallet, perfume, crystal, gum, water bottle, phone charger, and rose water. Placing everything in my new purse. A small pouch came with it which helped me to keep things organized. I zip it up and spray on a bit of my perfume. I put it down and walk out of the room.

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James was not here and Lazarus was sitting on the couch sipping whiskey. He was in something different. A paled blue shirt with plaid blue pajama pants. He looked so damn handsome it's crazy. I watch him for a second and shift my focus to the bottles of wine. I open one and pour it in my new glass. I take a sip instantly moaning with gratification. I allow it to settle in my mouth, allowing the body of the wine to caress my tongue.

He taps me on the shoulder, I turn around to face him. His face is about one inch away from mine. His eyes locked on mine. The only word I could think of was "wow". he leans in to kiss me, I lean in allowing him to have me. The wine seeped into his mouth, he swallowed. the kiss deepened and soon I was sitting on top of the counter with my flannel off and a top hallway off. I wanted him. I reach for his belt, he pulled away suddenly. "I'm sorry," He said shaking his head as if he disapproved of his own behavior. I felt my heart sink.

All of the tension that was building up was now settling on the layers of my subconscious emotions. This meant that pretty soon, I might end up losing my virginity. Due to the unbearable amount of sexual tension, I am feeling. I groan lowly, hopping off of the counter and picking up my glass of wine. I gulp down the remains and place the glass on the counter. I try to fix my top, but due to the overwhelming amount of energy I was feeling, it made it hard for me to tie a bow. He came behind me and took a hold of it tieing a knot. "Thank you," I said in a low tone walking to the door and unlocking it. I walk out of the house and to my car. I get in.