Yuta again??

Registration at the common room continues. It's too loud and I can't find my headphones, and soon Jun and his friends come back and he gives me a sneer that tells me he's not forgotten about me yet.

"Yo Harris," he says, sitting on the table infront of me. "See you on the roof at break. Deal?"

I shrug because I can't really say no anyway.

Jun slaps me on the shoulder, causing me to flinch and pull away from him.

"See you bestie."

His friends burst out laughing, like that's something funny. I feel more humiliated and stand up, muttering something distorted about the bathroom that not even I understand.

Fleeing from the room is my only option, and I bump hard into someone in the corridor at this point I'm feeling vulnerable and absolutely done with the days events and I almost burst into tears. 'what a wimp.' I think, but my thoughts are interrupted by a voice speaking to me.

"Hey are you okay?"

Looking up, my eyes meet a face that immediately takes all the breath out of me...

And it can only be him. 

He has the same face and the cheekbones that I knew so well, his glass skin, perfect teeth… and even his catlike eyes that glare into my soul like they know me inside out.

I don't know what to say. Should I cry and hug him? Would he not like that? Do I greet him like I saw him yesterday? Do I even acknowledge that I've known him in the past? ... does he remember me?

I feel really stupid after that whirlwind of thoughts has passed. 'You knew each other for a few years, of course he remembers you' My inner thoughts are trying to reassure me for being such an idiot.. and I forgot all this time Yuta is just staring at me waiting for me pull out of my thoughts.

"I..I'm okay." I breathe. I wasn't meant to say it like that, but my breath gets caught in little riggs in my throat that weren't there a few seconds ago.

Yuta smiles at me, and he looks just like an older and handsomer version of his childhood self again… I smile widely back at him, but that quickly fades when he lets my shoulders go and starts to walk away.

He's leaving like that? Am I that unbearable even to the only person I know here now?

I frown to myself, unable to call him back. He obviously left because he's had enough of me. Maybe he doesn't like me anymore. Maybe he doesn't even know who I am.

I amble slowly through the corridor, feeling like my feet are made of lead. Who cares what happens here anyway? I know I'm coming to decisions too fast, but how does a human survive here anyway? Constantly looking out for being stepped all over.. and what did I even do so wrong to Jun that he's arranged to murder me already?

I feel so frustrated and angry, that I find an empty classroom which has "RESERVED FOR MEETING" on it and hide there for the whole of 1st,2nd, and 3rd period. I get found when the meeting club come in after break and get sent to red card detention immediately, not being allowed out until 30 minutes after home time. Mum shouts at me about the call home when I reach there, but I say nothing and go straight to bed where all my thoughts come washing over me again.

Why does no one like me? Why am I so unpopular? Why do some people have nice lives while others don't? What did I do in my last life that earned me this??

The thoughts get darker and darker as the night goes on, and I find myself lying in a deep pit with the words going around my head…

'Why do I exist? Would the world be better if I didn't? What would happen if I killed myself…?"