Struggle

I stare into his eyes as my lips start to quiver. I merely just met him but I feel like he's knocking down all the walls that I tried so hard to build back up. This boy is perfect. And I fully trusted the words that I uttered out of my mouth next.

"I...…I think I'm falling in love with you" I say as I touch his pink lips

"I think so too". Christopher says as he pulls me into another kiss

His pink soft lips press against mine as a playful smile dances on his lips.

When we pull away from the kiss we both swim towards our picnic setup. Once there I start to wring out the water in my hair in the grass.

From my peripheral, I see Christopher approach me.

" Hey" he says smiling

"Hello yourself"

"I just wanted to ask.....where does this leave us? I don't want it to be awkward after this and I want to know where I stand with you. I just don't wanna put us in a uncomfortable position" Christopher says as he shifts around nervously

Smiling sweetly to myself, " And what would you like for us to be?'

"We don't have to have a label. But can we be exclusive?" Christopher pleads as he approaches me.

"Hmmm…...well, guess we're exclusive then" I say giggling

Christopher wraps his arms around me and we fall lightly in the grass. There, he kisses me like there's no tomorrow. Then, I know I'm done for.

Anyways, one long makeout session and cleaning up later, Christopher is driving me towards my house. Tomorrow we have school and I don't want to be late.

Before I get out of the car, Christopher cups my face and kisses me softly.

" Call me when you get home okay?" I say

" Yes baby I will call you" He says

I blush at hearing him call me "baby". I never really liked when Bryce did it, but Christopher gives the term a whole new feeling.

"Promise?" I say

" I promise" Christopher says

After giving me a kiss on the cheek, I get out of the car and walk into the house. After I hear Christopher pull off, I start to go to my room. Today has given me a lot to think about. After I plop down on my bed, I realize that I just measled myself into another relationship. I thought I wasn't ready after what happened with Bryce. But I cannot stress this enough: with Christopher, everything just feels right.

I get up and take a quick shower, and while I'm looking for clothes, my phone starts ringing. Christopher is facetiming me and before I think, I answer.

" Hey!" I say looking at him with big eyes

" Hey babe- Whatcha doing?" He questions

" Just picking out my nightclothes" I respond

He's silent for a moment then says, " Did you just um- ....get out of the shower?"

As I prop my phone up, I say " Yep…..Am I making you uncomfortable or something"?

" No…..I just didn't expect to see you in a towel. You look sexy babe" Christopher says flirtatiously

" Lol you're sooooo funny" I say mockingly

"I'm so serious right now" Christopher adds

" I high-key look like a wet-dog". I say bluntly

" Oh no you don't. You're stunning. Nothing can change my mind".

"Oh, you are suchhhhhh a charmer aren't you?" I reply

"Guess I am" He says

" So, don't mind me for being nosy but, are you in school yet?" I ask

" Yeah, tomorrow I'm transferring into Mercer Hills High School" He replies

"You're kidding right?!"

"No?...is there a problem?' He asks

"Not one at all! That's the High School I go to!" I say

"Hmm…..thats a coincidence"

"This means I can hang with you not only out of school, but in school too!"

"This also means that I can pick you up for school too" Christopher easily says

" You do know that I own a car right?" I say

" I am perfectly aware of that" He responds

"You also know that I am perfectly capable of driving myself to school too then?" I say

" Chivalry isn't dead ma chérie"

"You speak french?" I ask

" Fluently darling. I am a man of many talents." he responds

" And what might those talents be?" I ask

"That's for me to know and for you to find out. Look, I have to go but I'll pick you up at eight tomorrow" He says

"Wait, I never agreed" I say

"See you at eight belle" He says

The next morning, I woke up feeling refreshed. Things were finally starting to turn around for me.

I get out of my bed, and head for the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I can finally recognize the woman staring back at me. A beautiful woman who has been through so much and has come out just as strong.

Content with my realization, I head in the shower.

After I come out, I quickly get dressed. I throw on a white cami top and compliment it with a yellow and white plaid skirt. I throw on some nikes, grab my backpack and phone then head downstairs.

After I grab my purse and a pop-tart, I hear Chritopher honk his horn. Rushing outside, I stumble down the steps. Christopher is peering at me from out the window and lets out a chuckle. Once I get to the car, I put my backpack and purse in the backseat and climb in the front. The drive to school was quiet. Once we reached the school, grabbed our stuff, and got out the car, it felt like the whole atmosphere changed.

" Are you ready for your first day?" I ask

Letting out a chuckle, he says " As ready as I'll ever be"

Grabbing his hand, I lead him into the school.

"I need to stop at my locker quickly, is that okay?" I ask

He responds, " Sure, lead the way"

When I was about to turn the corner to where my locker is, my friend Nina rounded the corner in a hurry. Taken aback, I let go of Christopher's hand and put my hands on Nina's shoulder's.

"Nina, what's going on?" I ask

" You uhm…. Can't go over there" She says

" Why not? I need to get to my locker." I respond

" Allison trust me PLEASE. You don't want to see what over there" she pleads

" If it's so important, then yes I do."

Letting go of Nina's shoulders, I take a deep breath and I round the corner. There's a crowd forming near my locker and I recognize Bryce's laughter.

Rushing through people in the crowd, I see Axel yelling.

"WHO THE FUCK DID IT? HUH?" Axel says while throwing his hands up

" Axel, what's going on?" I say softly

He turns around and looks at me and his eyes widen.

"I-...Allison" Axel says sadly

I look behind him and I see what the commotion is about. There are all types of insults on my locker. Tears form on my eyes as I look at the word 'whore' spelled out on it. Pictures of me are lined on my locker with hurtful words written on them. Where my locker number is supposed to be, there's a name tag that says 'slut' on it.

I stood there for what felt like and eternity as everyone stared at me. Hot tears fell down my cheeks as I covered my face and ran.

I ran like I had never before. It felt like the sounds of the school quieted down. Uncovering my face, I ran into the storage closet, locked it, and sank down to the ground. Then, hot tears streamed down my face as I quietly sobbed.