State Of Helplessness

    Zain stared at his phone for what seemed like enternity. He was standing in the living room with his back facing the entrance.

   The sudden coldness he got when Owen called him to announce the birth of the new baby is what he can't explain. 

   He has been engar to know how it is going with Susan but when he heard the news, he became bitter. He searched his mind to know what is actually wrong with him but found nothing. Is he acting according to impulse or what?

   He sighed and took in some breath.

He slowly turned and found Jenny staring at him. She was having this worrisome look on her face.

   Zain walked to her and stood right in her presence.

  "Jenny, are you okay?"

He asked with his hand caressing her Cheeks.

   "Are you not supposed to go see your wife, she has delivered your first child and you are here looking after someone who is not entirely helpless"

Zain smiled, making Jenny raise her brows in askance.

"I like you. You are always worried about others."

Said Zain, smiling lovely at Jenny. Jenny really can't understand how his brain works.

   She knows he has fallen out of love with Susan but does the baby have to suffer?.   

    "Zain, you need to leave now. She actually needs food so do the needful as her husband and stop chasing clout."

She told him and pulled his hand away from her face and made to leave but Zain pulled her to himself and crushed his lips on hers.

   Jenny had her mouth closed tight for him not to gain access to her lips and at the same time fighting to free herself from his grip.

   Zain did not look like he was letting her go any time soon and her resistance made him want to kiss her badly.

   He bite her lower lips, gaining a moan from Jenny.  

   He smiled in his mind and repeated the same thing again, this time around he added a little pressure. Jenny didn't know when she parted her lips and he gained access to her mouth. He started kissing her with so much eagerness. He had really missed her so much and for a long time had wanted to kiss her until she becomes submissive to him and it's like today is his lucky day which he would not waste time in grabbing.

   She has stopped trying to leave his grip and that was progress for Zain.

  She unconsciously wrapped her hands around his neck. She was returning the kiss back to back, same passion as Zain.

   Zain slowly lowered her on the couch and pulled away from the kiss but Jenny will not hear of it. 

  All she wants right now is to have Zain dipping inside her like other times. 

   Zain knew why she couldn't fight her urge because she is in period and she would regret doing anything with him when she gets back to herself. 

   He gave her a hot smooching kiss and pulled away amidst her struggle to keep him to her mouth.

  Zain smiled apologetically and helped her sit up.

  Jenny stared at him confused and a moment later her confusion got replaced with irritation.

   She snatched her hand from him and stormed back into her room with fury.

   Zain sighed and closed his eyes with his head in the headrest. 

   She is mad and he knows why. He is just an ass he can't tell what he wants.

   He stayed like that for some minutes and when his head was cleared enough, he stood up and left for his car.

  No matter how cold he is right now, he needs to see his wife and child.

Jenny's point of view…

   I got to my room and went straight to the bathroom. Zain keep doing this to me and my stupid self would not not stop falling for him.

 "Damn you Jenny, you are so loose that you can't see clearly. He will never be yours no matter how you want to tell yourself"

  My subconsciousness screamed at me. I hated myself at that moment but I can't do anything about it. It's not really my fault that my heart can't stop wanting him even when I tried hard not to love him. I am in a state of helplessness. I am helplessly in love with a married man. It is so obscured.

   I washed my mouth vigorously yet his taste refused to leave my mouth. I raised my eyes up at the mirror and stared at my reflection. The lady staring back at me looked so unbothered and it dawned on me that I am fighting a lost battle. I can never win myself on this.

   I sighed, turned and left the bathroom. I give up.