The one I couldn't have

I always had it in me I wonder, at least that is what I have been told,well I guess I will never know for sure.I mean because even the experts who have been in the game for decades are not this good,with one phone call I can convince a client to make a big purchase,you could say it's some sort of gift,I thought smiling to myself,dave stared at me but I didn't even notice.lt's an illegal business, needless to say it's risky.The products we offer do not even exist,yeah we dupe unsuspecting people.Well it's a risk I was ready to take,well; like I have so many choices,I have mortgages to pay,I couldn't afford a requisition right now, school tuition; just to mention few,and oh my in-law kept to their part of the bargain of making sure I was left with absolutely nothing.hmmm I sighed out loudly and Dave stole a glance at me and kept on driving.I tried to focus in the present and I couldn't help but wonder who we had to travel this far to see,I mean Dave only referred to him as boss on the phone so I just had to trust him, especially if we are going to be working together for the next eighteen months.Dave SUV pulled up on front of a very elegant building along william drive,the gates were opened by a very tall,dark guy with a face mask and a hat,I couldn't help but marvel at how handsome he looked,Damn!! he is hot!!"well Thank you" said a voice behind me ,I nearly jumped out of my skin,shit!!I have been thinking out loud again."sorry sir" I said,he smiled and led us into the house without more words.well if I thought I embarrassed myself outside, imagine my shock when I walked into the house and I was introduced to his friend who turned out to be mikey's friend,"meet my business partner james"we all will be working together.woah!!! I mean they weren't the best of friends but I have met him quite a number of times at parties I attended with my late husband and I also know that they are from the same neighborhood.well at least this day couldn't get any worse than this I thought"and am chris" he said dragging me out of my thoughts."am Mia' I said in a husky voice , stretching out my hand for a shake ," nice to meet you Mia" he smiled removing his face mask and hat and my jaw dropped.No wonder that name sounded familiar,I met chris for the first time in a birthday party at james's residence and I was smitten.chris is handsome,no denying that but It wasn't just about his looks,it was the way he talked,the way he smiled while talking.i couldn't help myself,I went on and on on how hot he was and Mikey couldn't help but ask if I was infatuated with him,my poor husband,he was already used to my shenanigans,but I couldn't date someone so close to him,from his neighborhood,it's wrong and forbidden,or so am told.I sighed out loud ,lost in my own thoughts,by this time I was already munching the refreshments we were offered.Chris offered to read out our agreement and explain our working conditions to me,he said we wouldn't be working from his house ,as the risks involved was much,we would be working from a hotel room,so I will be spending hours ,if not days in the same room with him,I will have to watch him smile with his wicked deep set sexy eyes and red,red lips that looked like someone just kissed the shit out of him,oh shit ! his cheeks dimples when he smiles, focus girl,you ain't his type.he said that I could move in there if I wanted since my house from far,an offer which I promptly declined sighting that I had kids and it wasn't just proper.he continued to say other things which I didn't quite get because I was lost in thoughts by now."Is that okay with you mrs Mia?" and I nodded in the affirmative even though I didn't know what I was supposed to be okay with.But I didn't want to look distracted again else they will take me for a clown,no offense to clowns.I know he is married because I saw kids playing in the pool,and he invited them to say hi when we drove into the compound,but I couldn't help but notice I never met the wife."what about your wife" I asked.He was shocked at the question, nevertheless he sighted that they had in irreconcilable differences hence the decided to call it quits,but his devorce preceding were not finalized yet.irreconcilable my foot!! he cheated,they are all thesame.oh how I hate him now." oh, am so sorry to here that"I feigned sympathy."Don't you look familiar" james said"aren't you mikey's wife".oh well just when I thought this day couldn't get more awkward.

There are somethings our minds never prepare us for,we only unravel them during the experience like labor pains,no one can really describe it,and marriage.

Nothing in the world could have prepared Mia for her new reality,28yrs,five children,yes!! you heard me ,five!! and widowed.I was about to face the world alone,again,since i was seventeen years old.Or even the bitter treatment and cold shoulder i was about to receive from my in-laws,my whole world just crumbled in my very before.There was nothing to live for thought mia,as tears rolled down her eyes,she didn't even know where to start from.she recolates how she spent the better part of her marriage trying to convince her husband to convert his assets ,even just a few in her name,but like a giant pillar he never bulged,not even considered it."Men will always be men, stubborn" olivia chipped in, trying to pull me out of my thoughts.Oh yes! and we keep making excuses for them why they can never change.Olivia has been a pillar this couple of months, don't even know how I deserve her, considering I have not been much of a friend.Barely 48hrs following john's sudden demise and his brothers were already there to lay claims to everything we worked for." you know I have three sons with your brother" I said trying to remind them that my son's are entitled to these properties."Your children are far too young to manage these properties and we can't keep them in your possession,so we would be in control until they are of age" that was paul my late husband's eldest brother speaking.I was devastated,and my husband never even made a will.I sat there speechless, there were not even there to trade words with me,it would seem that our fate had already been decided.This is now my sad new reality,if only I had a job or a business.I had some money that I saved with my husband,only if I knew that his youngest brother was his next of kin and not me or any of my five kids,now the world had dealt me a bad hand."would you be joining us for lunch or you would just stand there" olivia inquired.I was standing at the dining room door,I don't even remember how I got there,I sighed and sat down, my children stare at me,I don't even remember the last time I hugged them or even smiled at them.i managed to give a forced smile at my twins,they are just two,I Wonder how they have been coping,even in school.my ada( first daughter) is the smartest kid I know, she's a very fast learner,even as a baby,very early with her teething,her first steps and speech.She is preparing for an entry exam into a prestigious high school of her dreams and I dont want anything to distract her, especially my sad demeanor,I don't need her to worry about me,I need to be strong,for us all.Oh how cruel It was to think there was nothing to live for when there is five reasons right before me,five innocent and adorable little beings that depend on me.I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and pick up the remaining pieces of my life and move on. dinner was over and olivia moved to clear the table but I stopped her in time,she had done enough,too much " I would pick up from here"in everything I thought,I need to give my children the life they were used to or even better,I need to provide for them but I didn't know how to start.Or didn't I?