Chapter 2: Disturbed Feelings

Frizabelle

Day 2

I've been running for I don't know for how long within the woods that our family owns. I was just releasing some hot streams from my veins because of that irritating mate that I had. Just thinking of that vampire makes me want to rip someone or something off which I did. I smashed some broken log into pieces before throwing them elsewhere. I didn't know where it might have landed but I knew for sure that there was nobody here since its private property.

"Why does it have to be her?! So irritating!" I groaned to myself like an old grumpy old man before I dashed back home.

As I got back, I noticed that nobody was here in the kitchen even that vampire. I took some time to replenish my sweat with fresh cold water from the fridge but when I looked at the wall clock, I didn't like what I was seeing.

"SHAKES! I'M GETTING LATE!!!!" I shouted as I ran to my room to take a really quick shower because I stink. After a refreshing quick bath, I immediately changed into my black skinny jeans, urban rock racer-back shirt with cardigan for my top and knitted bonnet for my head then for my shoes, I just wore my favourite Polo sports chuck Taylor.

When I'm done, I picked up my keys and prepared things for school before I hopped into my black Ducati 1199 Panigale that I called Dark then drove off as fast as it could.

9:40 am

Good thing I still made it at the parking area that was designated for our pack but even though I made it at school, I already missed my first class. When I parked and settled my lovely Dark, I ran immediately inside the school but I slowed down a little since I had to pass at the register office. I silently tiptoe so I won't get some slip from ditching or being late from any of my first classes. As I was finally successful passing through the register office without being caught, I immediately went to my locker to get my next class book. I was glad that I made it in time before the next class might start but something in my nostril made it itched. The familiar aroma of sweet chocolate blood invaded my nose which made me sneezed and irritated. It's not good though because it only means that she's here.

"Being late and tiptoeing wasn't good, your highness." Ceres chuckled as she leaned on the locker area behind me.

"So what…and please stop treating me like a royalty." I'm pissed when I said that.

She chuckled until I felt some warm yet cold presences behind me – I mean literally behind my back. I jolted and turned around to glare at her but she just laughed at me.

"What's so funny?!" I said as she really got into my nerves.

"Woah…I'm just here to escort you, milady." She said like a real butler as she did the gesture.

"I just told you I'M NOT ROYALTY!" I shouted at her. I'm so pissed.

Ceres just smiled at me like she gave up then she distanced herself from me.

"Then I'll walk with you to your class." She said to me calmly that I found sweet but heck no!

"I can walk there on my own." I said as I slammed my locker door then locked it.

"I'm coming with you." She kept insisting and it was bugging me.

THAT'S IT! I finally snapped.

"I LIKE TO BE ALONE AND AWAY FROM YOU!" I snapped out to her that really never happened before and good thing we're totally alone in the corridor.

I can feel the heat all over my body out of my rage because of my irritation toward her. I looked to study Ceres' reaction. I don't know exactly what I saw but I can tell that she looked hurt and shaken by it. That's good, right?

I just glared at her as she stood still while I'm trying to wait for a second before leaving her for good but what surprised me a little was how she could do that. Smiling like I didn't push her hard enough.

"Sorry for bugging you then." She said while smiling then walked ahead of me.

I was stunned by that. From that reaction, I thought I would be fine but it turned out to be worse. I felt something stabbing me like a thousand needles that cut through my heart and it piercing within me big time.

"I REALLY HATE HER!" I shouted within my thoughts which made Lena growl at me.

'You hurt her.'

"WHO CARES!" I said madly to her which made my wolf growl at me even more.

'You're acting like a spoiled brat. You just don't want to show your affection to her and now this. YOU HURT YOUR MATE!' Lena preached me then went off behind my thoughts.

Lena, my wolf inside of me, preached me to what I just did to Ceres and then after that, she left me disturbed within my thoughts about what just happened. I just groaned mentally and even with my irritation still boiling in my veins, I went to my second class. Good thing, I'm not late from that incident at the locker area yet I'm not cooling off. I'm getting pissed off. If this won't stop, it will definitely reflect on my behavior.

'You need her.'

"Shut it. Not now, Lena." I hissed at her and tried to focus on the chemistry class – seriously I don't pay any attention to my classes especially academics but I do have quick understanding whenever I like to understand them – if I'm only interested in all of them.

I pretend that I'm listening even though I didn't. I might be called by our professor but within one look at what was written on the board, I can answer them all. After one question and an answer, I groaned once again as I felt my head wasn't doing it best because I was getting dizzy. I was definitely beyond piss for me to be dizzy like this. Without even realizing, the class was already done which made me hurried out to the cafeteria because if I didn't, it would be jam packed.

11:30 am

I dashed off like a human because if I ever used my wolf speed, there would be big headlines from being a supernatural creature which really was not a good idea. As I reached the cafeteria, and like I always thought it would be jam packed since almost all year levels were having the same lunch break. Everyone was chattering while the others were fooling around as they ate their lunches. I shook my head from their animal-like - I mean, human behaviour which I knew some of us did too to blend in. Anyway, I went to look for my cousins and Yume who are also studying here but before I could join them, I noticed something untouched on our table. As I got closer, I saw my complete set of meals that I'm guessing Yume did for me.

"Yume did you?" I asked Yume as I pointed to the set meal that I always loved to eat. My favourite in this cafeteria that I've never got tired of was tuna sandwich, slice of pizza and chocolate mint. I do love chocolate mint.

"Nope." Yume replied as she took a bite from her pizza.

"Then who did?" I asked as I took my seat next to Ethan who was hungrily eating his yakisoba.

"The Vamp of course." Nate answered while eating a ham and cheese sandwich.

This girl really knows how to piss me off like this – it's an irritating one but sweet. Wait! What?!

When I finished my lunch, I noticed Yume and Ethan were really into each other in a way that nobody can suspect like they're just best friends and nothing more, nothing less.

"How did you two do that?" I suddenly asked Yume and Ethan while staring at them as my amusement.

Both of them looked at each other that made Nate chuckle then leaned closer to explain to them clearly.

"What she meant was, how can you act like you're not dating." Nate chuckled as he made them understand that I noticed Ethan was blushing but Yume was like a night from being emotionless and quiet.

"And your expressions are really switched." Nate teased them and he was right, they looked reversed.

"We're like this because we started as friends and we've been thick and thin and aside from the wolf thing, I do have this feeling that it will be great to end up with him." Yume answered with such straight forward looks into her face that made me sure it was true.

"You can never tell who's to love and who's to not – it was simply love. When it strikes you big time, you might doubt about it but the more you do, the more it haunts you. So better to grab the risk before you regret it. At the same time, don't force or look for it, just let it come to you then you'll never know you're already head over heels on that person." Ethan said like he was remembering something from then that made me smile.

1 pm

After our lunch, each of us went to our last classes for today. I was a little on my daze from what Yume and Ethan told me, it really made me think so deeply like I never did before. From thinking deeply, I almost hit my face on the locker of mine since I have to throw things that weren't needed for my three hours class which was music. When I was done, I noticed that I was no longer irritated, pissed off or even dizzy. I'm totally cooled off already and maybe it was because of that meal she prepared.

'Yeah, right…'

"You okay?" I asked Lena when I heard her speak through my head with a sad tone.

'Mate...wasn't around…'

I can tell that she was sulking from not sensing her mate which I found cute. It was cute like a little puppy with ears down and sad eyes. But as I was getting nearer at the music room, Lena's behavior suddenly shifted into an excited wolf. She jumped excitedly while wagging its tail which made me realize something. She's always like this whenever it comes to her mate and that mate of hers was my worst irritation in my life.

'Don't ruin my mood.'

I sighed to the warning growl from Lena before I opened the soundproof music room door. As I opened the door, I was indeed welcomed by a super sweet chocolate blood that was coming from the person who was playing the piano. I know it was Ceres already because she was the only one who could irritate my nose and sent my temper at the edge. But as the melody began to invade my ears, I was caught up on how so soothing it was and made my temper at ease. Slowly, I entered without interrupting the soothing melody then I heard her sing Right Here Waiting by: Richard Marx.

Oceans apart,

Day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

As I exactly closed the door and before I could even settle on any seats scattered around, I suddenly shivered from hearing that stanza. I felt the emotion coming from her through her music which made me listened and intrigued by it.

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

With just those lines, something hit my heart really hard which made me quiver like my knees was about to give up on me – for Pete-sake she's my mate that's why!

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I was really feeling the pain right now radiating around my chest. I could feel them; her unspoken feelings that I wish I didn't feel from this moment but I can't help it – but to listen to her.

I took for granted all the times

And I thought it would last somehow

I hear the laughter

I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh heck yeah! She can't get near me because I kept pushing her away from me – distance because I don't want to do anything with her.

Oh can't you see it baby

You've got me going crazy

I know my tears were already flowing down my cheeks as I was shaken up with these lines. My knees that were quivering finally gave up which made me fall onto butt as my ears, my mind, and my heart kept listening to her. Does she really feel them?

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

I was caught up with everything. Those lines seemed like reflecting what really happened or to be exact, it was her feelings and she wanted me to hear them through this song. I don't know or even understand these disturbing feelings but I can't ignore that fact anymore that we're indeed mates. I need to figure my thoughts and feelings that were suddenly mixed up like I suddenly acted so strange, so irritated or so much in pain as she came into my life as my mate.

'Admit it; you're in love with our mate.'

As I heard that from my wolf Lena, I can feel that she gave me a sisterly smack behind my head with her soft paw which I just shook my head in disbelief. I don't believe what she was saying. I-I just can't believe them. It was too soon if I do. Just NO!

Ceres

Ever since the incident at the locker area, I was dozing off and let myself be cloaked with random music in my head which made me almost skip lunch. Good thing, I always brought my favorite dark chocolate bar with my crimson red tumbler for my blood substitute that my cousin made for me. Anyway, I was all alone in the music room when I felt the urge of playing the piano. At first it was just random notes till I felt the pain from what she told me earlier. It was painful but I must hold it. I can do it which made me thought of playing the Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx. I was indeed feeling the melody which made me sing them. I was enjoying them but my chest was aching so much like I was being stabbed over and over again. I just ignored them and kept playing until I stopped. I felt something piercing within my stomach and burning in my chest like it wasn't even coming from me.

This can't be good because right now, I'm sensing her.

No…no…did she…no…not again…

Tears began to swell up but I must prevent them from falling. My students were about to come in and it did. I took a deep breath and managed to control myself from bursting out in pain. I turned to meet my class and she was one of them. I sighed as I ignored what's bothering and burning inside my chest.

"Okay, class I'm your tentative teacher for music since Mr Maxon was on his paternity leave. So kindly bear it with me for a month." I introduced myself to them which made me chuckle at my last comment.

"Okay then, let's start where you were left off." I said as I wore my perfect fake smile to them then started the class like there was nothing disturbing inside me.