I Need Everything

"Shirley I swear to God if Brittany Spears wannabe over there looks at me one more time, I'll shave off her bangs." I slumped on the blanket Mary had spread out for our little group close to the fire that her boyfriend, 'burly' Ben had taken forever to lit.

"Your in one of your fits again huh?" Pete raised an eyebrow at me. "I guess McKinney dick couldn't do the trick for_"

" Pete." Shirley groaned at that dickless mass of fat and oil, while handing me a cold beer. Exactly what I needed.

I raised my beer at him and took a gulp, letting my body absorb the ice to the contrast of my soaking hot body. "At least he has a dick. Me of all people should know that." Pete turned beet red

"Whoah Jen," Mary laughed,"that was low."

" Figures," Ben leaned in and kissed Mary.

I rolled my eyes at their PDA. I mean why mark yourself when you know your still going to do other chicks? Your just limiting the possibilities of a whole new world. " Yeah, figures," I murmured back at them and Pete who was doctoring his beer.

I turned to Shirley and realized Pete wasn't the only one beet red and doctoring her... lemonade - who the hell still drinks lemonade at the age of nineteen apart from Shirley? "Shirley I didn't mean to sound like_"

She cut me off. "We talked about this Jenny. "

" Look I know I messed up and fucking fucked McKinney, but_"

She shook her head, her ponytail bouncing behind her "You still didn't get what you wanted and now you'll just end up with Rodney Lawn."

" I know you and Rod have issues_"

" More like you and Rodney Lawn are an issue, " Ben snickered.

That that it. " More like why don't you tell Mary here how You hosed up Brittney Spears wannabe after the game last week after your game and stood Mary up for your date! " When my mouth finally could shut the fuck up, I realized what I had just said.

Shirley looked at me in horror, she'd been who caught them and told, after I had promised her I wouldn't tell Mary. Mary was too much of a softie and obsessed with Ben Knight. And she seemed like she was about to faint.

"Fuck you Kurt!" Ben pulled at Mary who was subconsciously pulling away from us. "That's not true Mary hunny. I didn't mean it. I was drunk and_"

"Get away from Mary," Pete yelled at Ben. "Yolanda Adams of all the sluts!"

*Mary, we all love you." Shirley stood up and tried to calm her.

Mary whimpered in Shirley's arms, looking as white as a sheet. "God, Mary! I didn't mean to_"

"You never know mean to do anything, you never mean to fuck anybody! "

Okay, I knew Pete was talking about more than what is happening now.

"You.... Shirley he .... Ben, hw..." Mary stuttered.

I knew how she felt, and I didn't mean to. I swear to God. I just said that to get everyone off me. These people were my friends, people who stood by me, people I chill and make memories with. Shirley was my first and only friend, my best friend, the only one who truly understands me and the total opposite of me. Mary was the easy one, she trusted and believed everything and everyone. Pete and I had fucked up - we did literally fuck, but he called everyone out on their bullshit and was very comfortable and confident in himself even as he still had baby fat....

"You should finish that beer somewhere else, Jen." Shirley softly pulled me out of my thoughts.

I looked at my friends, and stood up with my beer." I probably should. I fucked up Mary, but I gat you. Am only sorry you got to find out like this. Ben is a jerk. Am a jerk, so I know one. He doesn't deserve you babe. Am sorry, I'll call you. "