Chapter 2
"Hey loser you look like you're in a daze what's up"Riley my best friend came along.
"Nothing really how do you feel that we have a whole weekend to ourselves.I can't even decide what to do" I told him happily.We walked out of class as we chatted.
"Can we do something outdoors instead for once.I'll die if you make me do indoor stuff for the nth time.Please let's go outdoors" he turned to me and gave me a puppy eye look.
"Fine as long as not too many people are around" I said.I could not stand being around too many people.They make me too self conscious which makes me feel weird and awkward.I mean I don't know if I'm the only teenager having this problem but being around places with too many people makes me feel sick.Probably because of the amount of overthinking I do.I always get self conscious about how I'm dressed how I'm walking are my arms swinging the right way or am I doing a penguin walk.These level of overthinking makes me sick to the stomach.
I guess I was thinking too much that I didn't watch where I was going and I bumped into a guy.
"Hey aren't your specs working or what watch where you're going dork" the guy whose face I didn't bother to see since I was busy running because he was practically shouting at the top of his voice.I hated attention and this situation was the last thing I needed.I pulled Riley to run as fast as possible and we disappeared into a corridor.I held onto my ribcage as holding on to my heart that was about to stop beating.Till now I have been able to avoid unnecessary attention that would bring me under the spotlight.
Girls my age are busy dressing up getting glow ups doing everything possible to get the popular guys' attention but I'm not like that.Im allergic to attention.As I said before it makes me too self conscious.I don't even know how popular people live.Their every move being watched and the slightest slip is discussed and criticized.My life already sucks and I don't need anything to make it worse.I know that I'm overthinking the scene that happened a while ago isnt anything to be kicking up a fuss about but still I like caution.
And as caution I make sure I don't draw attention in any sector in school.Okay maybe academics maybe an exception because I need to be established somewhere right.I can't suck at everything.Okay here's the deal what the guy said earlier it's kinda true.Im a dork.In terms of looks at least.I have these really weird specs that everyone in my class makes fun of.And I have braces fitted on my teeth.And no they have no relation with my dental health just to enhance the dorky look.I use contact lenses over my eyes to hide their blue color.Im normally in loose fitting clothes.
And you would wonder what's the point of all this when I'm at my mid teenage years where girls venture out to beat the childish look.They actually dress up to enhance their social life.To catch the attention of the popular crew.But I'm least interested in that.The only thing I'm interested in right now is getting through senior high school without people noticing me.If it were possible I'd be invisible but since I can't do that I decided to become a nerd.All other girls want to live their senior high school life partying and having fun but yeah that's them and I am not them.
"Phew that was close" I told Riley who was actually holding onto his knees panting like crazy. Riley isn't that athletic but neither am I. Actually compared to him I'm the lazy one of the two of us. I do nothing but laze around in bed all day.
"Hey the next time you're going to sprint from someone like that again please don't drag me.And why the hell do you look like that???" Riley asked in between breaths.
"Look like how????" I was puzzled on what he was talking about.
"Like you didn't even move a muscle shouldn't you be in the same state as me or even worse.I mean you're the one who eats all sort of junk food daily" I don't understand why he was getting so worked up.
"Well about that, before you say anything I was gonna tell you. I kinda work out with mom. Weren't you the one who told me to try and mend our relationship" I explained really quick to avoid being misunderstood.
However the first thing Riley said was "Dummy and you didn't even bother to tell me. You wanna have a really nice slim waist all alone. I'm mad at you not because you didn't tell me but because you kinda started getting along with your mom all because of my efforts and you haven't crowned me best therapist of the year". There he goes shamelessly praising himself.
"First of all you should wait for people to praise you and second we are not getting along. I only accepted to do it because I don't even know why"
"Because you love her" Riley said those annoying words.
"You have a death wish don't you??" I was about to pounce on him then...
"Jake is waiting at the bleachers he's probably getting impatient" he quickly changed the subject .And not to mention he was flashing me those breathtakingly beautiful hazel green eyes. Actually I'm not even sure they're green anymore . They are a mixture of green and brown but green is more prominent. I only have one word for them breathtaking.
"I'll get you for that" he poked his tongue at me and walked ahead.
We got to the bleachers where Jake ,Riley's cousin was at.He was in the basketball team. Where all the handsome guys with hot bodies were. And not to mention popular. And of course where the popular guys are you'll also find the popular girls. The cheerleading squad. I didn't feel like watching them so I got busy with my assignments.
"Hey smarty-pants wanna do my assignments??" That annoying voice I had to endure listening to every evening after school.
"I'll pass" I answered without looking up.
"Well you know you can do it at some other place. Not here. People come to the bleachers to have fun and unwind" Jake said running his hands through his wet hair. I know this should have looked so hot that I'd probably be gawking at him but nah. Everyone is attracted to the guys in the basketball team but I'm not. I sometimes wonder if I'm normal. Then again I remember I'm not.
"The only fun thing here is watching you flirt with those bitches from the cheerleading team and no I'm not interested in the little display of teenage romance between the popular kids" . Okay maybe I was too blunt but still I had to give him the full blow so he could stop bothering me. And yes those girls are bitches annoying pretending bitches. Of course any other horrible name you can think of would suit them. Jake had no come back for my bluntness so I packed my books in my bag and pulled Riley along with me. As we passed along the corridors everyone was gawking at Jake and his teammates. Mostly they were staring at Chase the basketball team captain. Chase rode in the same car as us. He and Jake were talking about the next basketball match and Riley and I were invisible so I got off at a cafe near my house that served the best cakes.
Once I was settled and had ordered my favorite strawberry cake with iced coffee I took out my diary. And before you get at me for having one my therapist recommended it. Since I had stuff that I couldn't confide in people without getting judged he recommended I get a diary which has been pretty useful. I write down all my embarrassing moments there and reread them later on and laugh at myself. I also have some pretty spectacular drawings of my anime gods. They are technically hot anime guys who just needed to be drawn because I couldn't stop thinking about them. It's a secret but I gawk at them daily and write some stuff down next to to their pictures that I am not telling. Why because it's too embarrassing and it will totally change how you see me. Anyway I was happily sitting at the farthest and hidden booth happily scribbling in my diary when the girls from the cheerleading squad appeared and actually started heading to the booth I was seated at. And to make it worse the popular crew were among them. The crew even have a title which goes by their initals. That idea has always souded lame to me. So their group goes by the name MAC as I said it sounds pretty lame. So there's Maxine Aneesa and Chloe. I had to avoid these girls because they definitely looked like they were heading to the booth I was seated. Then I hastily packed up all my stuff and bolted from there.
I got home only to be met with a sight I should be all used to now. My mom and one of her many boyfriends were watching something while sipping some really exquisite wine imported from God knows where and from whatever fucking age medieval or something.
"Hey Aubrey" my mom managed to say.
"Hey Natalie" I replied ever so plainly as usual.
I was in a hurry to finish something in my diary so I didn't even bother to greet her boyfriend not like I would have even if I had all the time in the world. I got to my room and shut the door to prevent disturbance. I opened my bag to take out my diary but what I saw next made my whole world come to a fucking halt. I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming no these couldn't be. My life is over.
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Hello lovely readers I know you're wondering where the male lead is but don't worry he is coming. And Incase my book isn't that good I would like you guys to know it's my first time writing so I'm pretty much an amateur. But please keep reading please I promise it will get really interesting as we go on. If you have any ideas please drop them in the comment box I'd love to hear your thoughts and suggestions on the book.