Quell The Panic

#Bryant Pov

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I don't know what I'm doing today. Because I feel like everything I'm doing today is so very, very inconsistent with myself.

I am very afraid to see blood or you can say phobia of blood, today I did something different. I don't know what drives me to be strong enough to get up so quickly. Because in the last incident, I who saw only a little blood immediately fainted.

But this time it was different.

I still remember very well that my body suddenly went limp and cold sweat covered my whole body when I saw so much blood in Vino's room but it didn't make me faint immediately.

But what Tristan said made me hurry to ask for first aid, even though I also had to get first aid too. But I forced myself to get up and stand, stronger than before.

The thing that made me unable to bear was when I saw Vino lying limp on the bed and covered in blood. And while I overheard the conversation between the nurse and the Doctor who treated Vino, that Vino needed blood type B, and the hospital was running out of blood for type B, it just so happened that my blood type was B.

After the nurse and Tristan argued over who would donate blood, I immediately volunteered and entered the room that very second.

I don't know what made me like this, made me dare to take a very big decision for myself.

I am very afraid of blood donors like I am like a normal person when I donate blood at this time.

now I'm lying on the same bed on Vino's right. I see him now, see him very clearly he is beside me.

I can also see the blood flowing through the tube from my left hand, towards Vino's right hand.

I can only smile while doing this for the people I love. Now my blood and Vino's blood have become one. I hope that this is not the only thing that will become one in the future.

Hopefully, you can also be mine, Vin.

I am sure of it.

And once again I feel very happy with this moment. It was as if the phobia I had had completely disappeared in an instant.

Indeed what I feel right now is weak and my heart rate is quite fast. Maybe because it's my first experience, I feel it.

Almost ten minutes I did a blood transfusion for Vino and when I looked back at Vino, his face was not as pale as before. The color of his face had almost returned to its original color, but he was still unconscious.

And long after that the nurse came to me and checked something I didn't know what she was doing.

"Okay, this process is complete, you can rest here first. Don't wake up first, afraid that you'll faint" the nurse said to me.

"Ahh okay, then what about Vino?" I asked worriedly.

"Don't worry, Vino's patient has improved, he just needs to rest. Later he will wake up on his own after he has completely recovered," said the nurse with a smile.

"Okay, thank you"

I only answered briefly while still looking in the direction where Vino is now lying and not yet conscious.

Soon I saw Tristan get up from his chair and walk over to Vino, he looked at his brother with a sad look and more of a guilty look than him.

I don't know what happened when I left the room, but suddenly when I came back it was already with the unexpected incident.

But I don't think I need to ask Tristan or Vino about it either, rather than later I'll be said to be interfering in their family matters, so I'd better keep quiet.

I still see Tristan now, the expression he gave while rubbing Vino's forehead was so deep. Only then did I realize that Tristan's cheeks were wet from the tears that came out of his eyes.

I just don't know what's going on in my mind right now, so I think strange things about it, yes, but I have to keep positive thinking about it. Yes, he is a brother, if his brother is in an incident, he must be sad too, so I don't have to bother thinking about his problems.

I immediately looked away the moment Tristan looked at me.

And soon he came to me too.

"Thanks, Bro, maybe if it wasn't for you, I don't know what would have happened to Vino. I thank you!" He said while patting my shoulder.

"Yeah man is okay, you're welcome" I replied casually to him, as I gave him a big smile.

He shook my hand and then sat back down in the chair he had been sitting in.

Alright, maybe today is learning for myself, where under all conditions when I'm by Vino's side, I can't leave him at all because I never know what will happen to him.

Because today is an example, I left Vino only for a moment, because I was jealous of Tristan and Vino who looked very cool in chat so that I who was in the same place was not considered at all.

But it made me feel very guilty for leaving him and in the end, what happened was even worse. Luckily I was able to save him once again with my blood type being the same as him.

A very rare coincidence.

I'm so grateful for today.

I looked in the direction where Tristan was sitting and saw that he had fallen asleep in his sleep.

Maybe he was tired today. It drains his mind, energy, and tears.

If Tristan is silent like this or already sleeping, I can rest easy because at least I can see Vino very peacefully. No disturbance at all.

I glanced at the clock on the wall above the door. Hmmm, it's very late.

In the middle of the night, I still can't rest.

I should have rested because I just donated blood to Vino. But the account is not tired and sleepy at all.

What I'm currently doing is, just looking at Vino's face peacefully.

And only this time I was able to rest side by side with him indirectly, even under these circumstances. But at least I can feel how it feels to see him sleeping beside me.

I love you Vino.